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ReclaminingMyLife19

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Enough is enough.
« on: February 17, 2020, 12:30:36 PM »
So I have told myself I was gonna stop before. I started masturbating at 16-17. I had a late puberty around the same time. I masturbated everyday at first to magazines then to broadband porn. I ejaculated on average 4 times a day. This continues for 6 years. Then  In 2009 I saw the first signs of PMO ED. I began herbal treatments but never quit porn or masturbation. Over the years my penis ya shrunk permanently and erections have gotten worse and worse. It’s so bad now that I have to use large amounts of viagra to have a decent erection for “decent” sex. I am 33 but my sexual age is probably 99 due to porn and excess masturbation. It’s a vicious cycle of knowing what I used to be to getting a urge and realizing I have loss so much , becoming depressed about it and watching porn. I am addicted to the worse kind of porn I feel (Femdom). I adore the female anatomy since a youth but being exposed to this type of porn randomly as a youth has ruined me. I am probably in the 1% of the worst here.   I discovered this site in dec of last year. I don’t know what the future holds, if I can even make a recovery from this. I won’t lie I have contemplated suicide and the only thing that keeps me from that are my two little boys and the hope of reconnecting with my ex wife. To be a family. I am going to come here once a day and especially if I feel triggered to watch porn. Just knowing there are many more struggling to get past this like me , gives me encouragement.