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OrangeSpider

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fresh start...
« on: January 13, 2020, 08:47:39 AM »
Like many of you I have tried fresh starts a few times and not gained much out of it. Hey, but its a new decade and I dont want to keep on seeing my days go on and not get anywhere. So Im going to give it a another try. I plan on sharing my thoughts and feelings here, as well as were I am on the journey.
« Last Edit: January 14, 2020, 07:49:39 AM by OrangeSpider »

ShadeTrenicin

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Re: fresh start...
« Reply #1 on: January 13, 2020, 03:23:20 PM »
Hey welcome! Excellently done by admitting your problem and coming here. You've taken the first step!

Good for you

Wolfman

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Re: fresh start...
« Reply #2 on: January 14, 2020, 04:16:40 AM »
Hey OrangeSpider! Here's to the best decade of your life yet! I wish you strength and hope on your journey.

OrangeSpider

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Re: fresh start...
« Reply #3 on: January 14, 2020, 07:49:01 AM »
day 2...
Well, Im here and not at any Porn website, so thats a win, because usually at this time Im over there wasting my time and sperm.
Right now feeling determined, all my self is united in saying no, mind, soul and body (usually the body and mind are not helping). Hope this can continue through out the day. 

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Re: fresh start...
« Reply #4 on: January 15, 2020, 08:21:27 AM »
day 3...
Had a few cravings yesterday, but ran away from them. Today I hope it goes the same way, even though there is a part of me that just wants to get back in the rhythm of caving in and feeling the rush. Gotta keep it up!

OrangeSpider

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Re: fresh start...
« Reply #5 on: January 16, 2020, 09:37:03 AM »
day 0...
Just went down the hole  :(

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Re: fresh start...
« Reply #6 on: January 16, 2020, 10:08:27 AM »
Never mind. You are successful for 3 days  8) Then, make another 3 days. It would better than nothing ;) No one can go straight line.

Excellent for 3 day. Let's keep for another excellent. Go on and Go on.
« Last Edit: January 17, 2020, 06:06:17 AM by making80y »

OrangeSpider

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Re: fresh start...
« Reply #7 on: January 19, 2020, 08:22:59 AM »
day 1 (had another relapse yesterday)...

Wolfman

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Re: fresh start...
« Reply #8 on: January 19, 2020, 09:32:26 AM »
Have you taken note of how you fell into the hole? Was it different this time? Were there unexpected triggers? Do you have a plan on how to deal with it if you find yourself in the same circumstance?

Keep at it man! Take the relapses as opportunities to learn about yourself. You really can do it for several days, you just need to make some tweaks to the system as you go along.

OrangeSpider

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Re: fresh start...
« Reply #9 on: January 20, 2020, 07:53:30 AM »
day 2...
Thanks for the reply Wolfman. I have a base plan and Im planning on tweeking as I go and relapses happen (which I hope are not much).

OrangeSpider

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Re: fresh start...
« Reply #10 on: January 21, 2020, 09:35:44 AM »
day 1...
here we go again, yesterday I went down.
Ive identified its in the morning when nobody is awake. I cant seem to stand the urge when Im alone. So I have decided to wake up at 7, which is hard for me because I am a morning person, but I think it could even help me out get  a few more hours of sleep. Im scared it might put me back in getting some things done, but most of the time Im watching porn just right before 7, so maybe its just my mind trolling me. I hope this works out; just starting to tweek my strategy to see how it goes.

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Re: fresh start...
« Reply #11 on: January 21, 2020, 12:27:27 PM »
I am starting today as well. Best of luck for all of us

OrangeSpider

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Re: fresh start...
« Reply #12 on: January 23, 2020, 08:49:42 AM »
day 0...
well that didn't last long  :(. I woke up early and came downstairs and did my thing... shit!

I need to get this together.

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Re: fresh start...
« Reply #13 on: January 24, 2020, 08:53:41 PM »
day 1...
Today I felt remorse of being such a wuss and a weakling.

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Re: fresh start...
« Reply #14 on: February 02, 2020, 07:41:26 AM »
its been 1 week...
This is something I want, I really want, but at the same time another part of me really wants as well the shit; what a conundrum!

I got to use my mind, think, think, think, and consider what weighs more.

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Re: fresh start...
« Reply #15 on: February 09, 2020, 07:49:35 AM »
2 weeks...
I don't have a clue how the hell I've made it so far, but I'm glad and hope I can continue to make it. Best of luck to you guys as well.