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« Reply #150 on: June 14, 2016, 05:01:06 PM »
As ever, goldfish brain. Thanks for your supportive words today dude. Twas a real boost. Cheers!!

Cheers to you man!!! 30 days is looking awesome to me. Put this 30 in your rear view mirror. Onward you go, Bro!

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« Reply #151 on: June 14, 2016, 05:03:41 PM »
Way to hang in there, Boo!  Keep it going!

Thanks Branch, You're going to get there. We're all going to celebrate on the other side of this thing.

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« Reply #152 on: June 14, 2016, 05:38:56 PM »
As ever, goldfish brain. Thanks for your supportive words today dude. Twas a real boost. Cheers!!

Cheers to you man!!! 30 days is looking awesome to me. Put this 30 in your rear view mirror. Onward you go, Bro!

Yee Haa!
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Wherever water flows it creates ruts. Where is your mental water flowing?
PMO increases DeltaFosB in your brain, which in turn makes you crave the next PMO even more. DON'T DO IT! Your future self will thank you :)
PMO & excessive MO fux up your Prefrontal Cortex

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« Reply #153 on: June 14, 2016, 06:27:24 PM »
Way to hang in there, Boo!  Keep it going!

Thanks Branch, You're going to get there. We're all going to celebrate on the other side of this thing.

And thank you, Boo, for the support. 

Yes, we will celebrate.  I wonder what a virtual party looks like? 

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« Reply #154 on: June 16, 2016, 08:02:40 AM »
Brothers in the battle,

Going forward I am going to start scaling back a bit with my presence here at RN. I will likely limit it to weekends only, so please don't get impatient if a post or message directed to me doesn't get an immediate response. This is going to be a trial run at functioning effectively while feeling less "dependent" on surfing RN so frequently. I don't want RN to devolve into a co-dependency issue for me.

I've got quite a bit of challenges ahead to get my business life back on track. The stress of this alone would ordinarily compel me to act out with PMO. This will be a test of where I'm at currently on this journey to wellness. I will be keeping tabs here because I'm interested and supportive of the progress I'm seeing with some of you guys. Small victories lead to larger victories. As long as you don't quit "quitting", your heading in the right direction. Peace.

   

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« Reply #155 on: June 16, 2016, 08:04:38 AM »
Good luck Boo!
No PMO for 50 days, and counter stopped now as I am off the net for God knows how long.

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« Reply #156 on: June 16, 2016, 08:16:59 AM »
Brothers in the battle,

Going forward I am going to start scaling back a bit with my presence here at RN. I will likely limit it to weekends only, so please don't get impatient if a post or message directed to me doesn't get an immediate response. This is going to be a trial run at functioning effectively while feeling less "dependent" on surfing RN so frequently. I don't want RN to devolve into a co-dependency issue for me.

I've got quite a bit of challenges ahead to get my business life back on track. The stress of this alone would ordinarily compel me to act out with PMO. This will be a test of where I'm at currently on this journey to wellness. I will be keeping tabs here because I'm interested and supportive of the progress I'm seeing with some of you guys. Small victories lead to larger victories. As long as you don't quit "quitting", your heading in the right direction. Peace.

 
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« Reply #157 on: June 16, 2016, 08:18:28 AM »
Good luck, Boo!
H.A.L.T - Hungry Angry Lonely Tired
Wherever water flows it creates ruts. Where is your mental water flowing?
PMO increases DeltaFosB in your brain, which in turn makes you crave the next PMO even more. DON'T DO IT! Your future self will thank you :)
PMO & excessive MO fux up your Prefrontal Cortex

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« Reply #158 on: June 17, 2016, 02:26:34 PM »
Brothers in the battle,

Going forward I am going to start scaling back a bit with my presence here at RN. I will likely limit it to weekends only, so please don't get impatient if a post or message directed to me doesn't get an immediate response. This is going to be a trial run at functioning effectively while feeling less "dependent" on surfing RN so frequently. I don't want RN to devolve into a co-dependency issue for me.

I've got quite a bit of challenges ahead to get my business life back on track. The stress of this alone would ordinarily compel me to act out with PMO. This will be a test of where I'm at currently on this journey to wellness. I will be keeping tabs here because I'm interested and supportive of the progress I'm seeing with some of you guys. Small victories lead to larger victories. As long as you don't quit "quitting", your heading in the right direction. Peace.

 

I understand, Boo.  This is time-consuming and you put a lot into it.

You've already given me so much strong support, so much truth distilled, I'd be ungrateful to ask for more. Your help to me has been invaluable.

Best of luck with everything, Boo. 

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« Reply #159 on: June 18, 2016, 09:28:42 AM »
A very quiet and in small letters congrats to 70 days! Soon 71!

Peeeeeace
H.A.L.T - Hungry Angry Lonely Tired
Wherever water flows it creates ruts. Where is your mental water flowing?
PMO increases DeltaFosB in your brain, which in turn makes you crave the next PMO even more. DON'T DO IT! Your future self will thank you :)
PMO & excessive MO fux up your Prefrontal Cortex

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« Reply #160 on: June 18, 2016, 10:22:01 AM »
I appreciate you guys stopping by the last few days. Things are going well. Still feel a strong urge once in a while but mostly it's just the addictive voice trying to make some noise in my head. Reminds me of my cat always bugging me for treats. I guess my AV is about as spoiled as my cat is. Sorry AV, NO TREATS FOR YOU. As for the cat, I usually give in.  ;D

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« Reply #161 on: June 22, 2016, 03:36:52 PM »
I thought I'd put up a mid week post. I hit 75 days PMO free today and feel pretty good about my NOMO June challenge as well.

It can be done men!  A key to me is getting out of your own head and not elevating PMO to be something bigger than it is. I won't be verbose by stating the obvious reasons to quit. I think they've been stated ad nauseam.

For you serial rebooters, you're caught in a vicious cycle of recoveryism. Are you serious about this?

For those showing progress (30 day streaks or longer), Congrats. You're on your way. Put together increasingly longer streaks and you'll get there. Don't quit on yourself.

For those closer to 90 days (or beyond for some), like myself, you don't need to convince me anymore. I now know how good it feels and it's getting better everyday.

I still have urges, but they are really losing their power. I guess I'm the one gaining power over this, finally.
« Last Edit: June 22, 2016, 03:39:30 PM by Boo »

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« Reply #162 on: June 22, 2016, 03:57:36 PM »
Great progress, Boo, and great comments.  Congrats on 75 days!

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« Reply #163 on: June 22, 2016, 04:37:33 PM »
Great progress, Boo, and great comments.  Congrats on 75 days!

Thanks Branch.

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« Reply #164 on: June 23, 2016, 06:35:43 AM »
Happy 75th!

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« Reply #165 on: June 23, 2016, 02:56:48 PM »

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« Reply #166 on: June 23, 2016, 03:43:07 PM »
Looking good, Bro ;)
H.A.L.T - Hungry Angry Lonely Tired
Wherever water flows it creates ruts. Where is your mental water flowing?
PMO increases DeltaFosB in your brain, which in turn makes you crave the next PMO even more. DON'T DO IT! Your future self will thank you :)
PMO & excessive MO fux up your Prefrontal Cortex

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« Reply #167 on: June 23, 2016, 08:38:57 PM »
Looking good, Bro ;)

Thanks fyg. Slow and steady wins the race.

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« Reply #168 on: June 23, 2016, 10:31:36 PM »

Slow and steady wins the race.
My favorite motto.

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« Reply #169 on: June 24, 2016, 06:19:41 AM »
When all is said and done, a lot more is said than done.

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« Reply #170 on: June 26, 2016, 01:10:04 PM »
Boo,

You are about to cross into the 80's - congratulations.  You have been such an intelligent, encouraging presence in all the threads you participate in.  Thank you for being so thoughtful and helpful.  You have demonstrated clearly how service to others - even in a highly artificial environment such as these forums is ultimately service to self.  We are all the same here - all frustrated with something that has destroyed so much of our lives - all determined to become better people.  We aren't yet.  But by holding each other hands, by giving each other the occasional nod of encouragement, by gently questioning our own and each other's delusions, we are all slogging out of this together.

Together - even in this virtual space - we are much stronger than we are alone.  Together, we will all get past 80, then 90, then thousands of days.  Together we will become much better, much happier people.

And someday - all people will understand what this addiction is - and how destructive it is for the world  Someday, the world will view porn the same way it views narcotics - a disgusting, dangerous, even criminal enterprise that destroys lives and makes this world a darker place for everyone.  That will happen when more and more of us reach out to each other, strengthen each other, and become who we should be.

Thank you, Boo, for being a leader from the beginning of your journey.

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« Reply #171 on: June 26, 2016, 03:11:34 PM »
I thought I'd put up a mid week post. I hit 75 days PMO free today and feel pretty good about my NOMO June challenge as well.

It can be done men!  A key to me is getting out of your own head and not elevating PMO to be something bigger than it is. I won't be verbose by stating the obvious reasons to quit. I think they've been stated ad nauseam.

For you serial rebooters, you're caught in a vicious cycle of recoveryism. Are you serious about this?

For those showing progress (30 day streaks or longer), Congrats. You're on your way. Put together increasingly longer streaks and you'll get there. Don't quit on yourself.

For those closer to 90 days (or beyond for some), like myself, you don't need to convince me anymore. I now know how good it feels and it's getting better everyday.

I still have urges, but they are really losing their power. I guess I'm the one gaining power over this, finally.

Thanks for the reminders, Boo.  Your strength feeds mine.

You're doing great--keep it going!

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« Reply #172 on: June 26, 2016, 03:49:59 PM »
Boo,

You are about to cross into the 80's - congratulations.  You have been such an intelligent, encouraging presence in all the threads you participate in.  Thank you for being so thoughtful and helpful.  You have demonstrated clearly how service to others - even in a highly artificial environment such as these forums is ultimately service to self.  We are all the same here - all frustrated with something that has destroyed so much of our lives - all determined to become better people.  We aren't yet.  But by holding each other hands, by giving each other the occasional nod of encouragement, by gently questioning our own and each other's delusions, we are all slogging out of this together.

Together - even in this virtual space - we are much stronger than we are alone.  Together, we will all get past 80, then 90, then thousands of days.  Together we will become much better, much happier people.

And someday - all people will understand what this addiction is - and how destructive it is for the world  Someday, the world will view porn the same way it views narcotics - a disgusting, dangerous, even criminal enterprise that destroys lives and makes this world a darker place for everyone.  That will happen when more and more of us reach out to each other, strengthen each other, and become who we should be.

Thank you, Boo, for being a leader from the beginning of your journey.

Well said, Carlson- I couldn't agree more.

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« Reply #173 on: June 27, 2016, 11:29:34 AM »
carlson, Branch, Leon

I appreciate your comments.

 I'm going to be leaving RN when I hit the 90 day mark. I'd like to leave my journal on a high note with at least a few quality posts.(quality being subjective, of course  ;))

My plan was always to just be here for a season. There comes a time when one has to move on. There are two things in life that I do not do : social media or journaling. Coming here to RN and creating a journal as well as attempting to make public comments here without sounding vacuous has taken some effort on my part because it goes against my normal personality. So, it's time to get on with other things

My honest opinion is that I believe there are some here who will end this year being mostly if not completely done with the PMO lifestyle. OTOH, there will be others who will continue to struggle. RN will never shut down for lack of business.

In the quietness of my mind, I've realized that my recovery is 100% my own responsibility. I am going to maintain an accountability partner relationship with someone going forward.  As far as I'm concerned , the hard challenges are over. My heart is changed. I've got my self respect back.

My journal will fade to the back of the pack, as it should, to make room for new journals with new insights. I think the real leadership here resides with those in the 30-90 day range of being PMO free. Why? Because that's the greatest period of challenge, IMO. If you're getting through that period you probably have something to say worth hearing. You're in the middle of it all and winning. People should pay attention if you care to share.

I hope I can finish this thing with some remarks that at least some of you will find helpful. In the end, it's up to each person to motivate themselves to reach whatever their goal is.
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« Reply #174 on: June 27, 2016, 11:52:45 AM »
I have enjoyed reading your journal, Boo. Perhaps I could ask a few questions before you disappear :)

This place has a tendency to become about quite spiritual and mental things. I read and post about fighting urges, altering mindset and things like that. however, i would like to be very practical now. So, how did you do this, days wise?

I am talking PMO, MO, o with wife etc? How was the timelinewith absitnance )and from what?) and rewiring, and how?
No PMO for 50 days, and counter stopped now as I am off the net for God knows how long.