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achilles heel

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Re: Free At Last
« Reply #775 on: August 18, 2020, 04:05:25 PM »
Thanks a lot guys, I'm looking forward to checking out your journals this weekend and hope you're doing well too!  :)

Day 11

Another busy day complete, it's getting tougher and I have to be very aware! Still going step by step.

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« Reply #776 on: August 19, 2020, 09:32:44 AM »
Day 12

Another day, until the weekend I remain very busy, still I'll be very aware!

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« Reply #777 on: August 20, 2020, 08:14:20 AM »
Day 13

Close to completing the second week, I definitely made major improvements and changes yet, but there is a long road ahead. Still very busy, more at the weekend!

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« Reply #778 on: August 21, 2020, 10:44:21 AM »
Day 14

Two weeks complete: No P, no subs, no M! Now the difficult weekend is ahead and I have to be very careful... this is a huge success already, but I know that most of my failures occur in the third or fourth week.

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« Reply #779 on: August 22, 2020, 06:53:22 AM »
Day 15

Very productive start to the weekend so far, going day by day to advance even further.

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« Reply #780 on: August 23, 2020, 05:29:20 AM »
Day 16

Very difficult day, had sex last night and drank - facing chaser effect and a little hangover today. My only goal is to complete today, have to be more careful definitely.

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« Reply #781 on: September 21, 2020, 01:41:33 PM »
Day 0

This one was obvious:

Very difficult day, had sex last night and drank - facing chaser effect and a little hangover today. My only goal is to complete today, have to be more careful definitely.

How could I expect to just succeed without changing anything?

Anyway, at some point it becomes ridiculous to write "Day 0" over and over again. I made a cut today, got a new phone, change my computer, put restrictions to my life and go for my last attempt here.

Have been back in the porn trap since this last entry and feel miles away from those better days with long abstinence. My constant failure is ridiculous, it's 4 1/2 years that I keep writing "Day 0" with my longest streak of abstinence being 100 days.

If I fail this time I will delete this account and go for professional help instead, enough is enough. Currently I am changing every aspect of my life to just get rid of this addiction and "starting again" is not an option anymore.

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Re: Free At Last
« Reply #782 on: October 08, 2020, 11:29:49 AM »
Hey, man, it's been a long time, but I'm sorry to hear about the trouble.

The world is a weird place and has been for months. That's not to say you don't have any responsibility, but it is just a reminder that the world around us can have an effect on our susceptibility to urges, etc. Building a new life in pleasant circumstances is hard enough. Keep at it, make changes, hold yourself accountable.

That first time we looked at porn wasn't a life sentence. We'll get it.