My journal to recovery- Could use support

[kopp]

Congratulations on meeting the girl, that's impressive!

[quitforeverthenwin2]

Day 2

Thanks man! I really appreciate that, it reminds me of the good that happened yestarday. Funny I have pined away for girls so much then I have a great date and it doesn't seem like a big deal lol. Truthfully I don't see this girl being a girlfriend, but you never know what happens! It was  a nice time and I look forward to hanging out with her again.

Today was pretty nice, I have been worn out so just stretched as far as exercise. Met with a friend and we went back and forth saying what we're grateful for. I feel like my momentum is re building. Each day improving a bit

[quitforeverthenwin2]

Day 3. Trucking along. Had an urge earlier, but glad to say that I distracted myself and went for a walk and it has since passed.

Not super productive. I'd like to remind myself when I had a nice period of time  and m free, I had a lot more energy and focus, so that is one more thing to motivate me to keep this up! A big motivator.... As I'd like to make progress on some things that are very important to me.

I did a really nice stretching routine yestarday my body felt so much better. i may not do everything I planned today, but I'll do that. It's better to do it and be focused during it, but more important is to just do it! So I may watch tv while I stretch, at the least keep working to heal my body/keep it healthy.

[quitforeverthenwin2]

Hey all Day 2 again.

I moed for two days, once per  day. With non fetish/porn fantasys. Honestly still feeling great and did not notice negative effects. MO I will eventually reintroduce but I will have this month as a break from it.

Had a very good day. Did a lot of journaling to keep myself calm and focused on things I can control, kept working and doing things throughout the day and now I feel grateful and energized as well as accomplished.

[kopp]

Focusing on what you can control is a key to success indeed, you got the right attitude

[quitforeverthenwin2]

Thanks Kopp!

Hey everyone, I don't want to just disappear with no explanation....
I've been posting here a lot less.

Anyways. I likely won't post here much in the future, perhaps for awhile. This forum was great for me! And really helped me reach some new levels. I reached a new point. But at this point SMART recovery I have been finding very helpful. It's a systematized approach that works well to me. So I am immersing myself in that.

I have not full on PMO'd since 2015! Though I had lots of bad lapses like looking at porn then moing after (at separate times) but I still count that as a pretty big win ( I have not MO'd while looking at porn, both at the same time since 2015). Looking forward to future success.

I strongly reccomend smart recovery and learning the system/ their book and tool time meetings so here is a link for those interested https://www.smartrecovery.org/community/

Take care everyone and all the best

[Sanders]

5 years is an amazing time, thank you for your story. I hope SMART helps you further develop yourself, all the best of luck!