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Gabriel1960

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #75 on: April 18, 2016, 08:48:38 PM »
Having a good day.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #76 on: April 20, 2016, 05:18:22 AM »
Today I am experiencing a happy, joyful life. 

I know that today I won't make myself feel anything.  I will only take certain actions and hope that those actions lead to certain feels.  Those feels may or may not occur. 

Before, I was "using" PMO to achieve certain feels.  That approach brings with it nastiness and trouble that just isn't worth it anymore. 

Today I choose to achieve happiness and joy by taking certain actions, and hoping for the best.  It's a better, if somewhat uncertain and trusting, way to live.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #77 on: April 22, 2016, 05:43:13 AM »
'Sup, y'all.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #78 on: April 25, 2016, 04:59:30 AM »
Just checking in.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #79 on: April 26, 2016, 06:30:17 AM »
'Sup.  Today I am feeling exhausted, confused, suspicious, hysterical, frustrated, embarrassed, mischievous, disgusted, ashamed, cautious, overwhelmed, hopeful, love-struck, surprised, and shocked.

So, still waters run deep, huh?  LOL.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #80 on: April 28, 2016, 05:45:58 AM »
'Sup.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #81 on: April 29, 2016, 06:05:55 AM »
I'm graduating next week.  One of two graduation ceremonies tonight.  (Tonight for college, next week for entire school.)  It's great to be alive.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #82 on: April 29, 2016, 10:30:10 AM »
Congratulations Gabriel on graduation and 63 days. Well done! FF

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #83 on: April 30, 2016, 05:51:16 AM »
Ceremony was awesome.  Lots to celebrate in my life right now.  I'm truly blessed!

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #84 on: May 01, 2016, 10:29:32 AM »
'Sup, y'all.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #85 on: May 03, 2016, 09:06:24 AM »
Just getting over a cold.  Busy day ahead of me. Hope all of us stay clean today.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #86 on: May 04, 2016, 09:20:13 AM »
'Sup, everyone.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #87 on: May 05, 2016, 08:37:47 AM »
Graduating today.  Final exam due today.  It's great to be alive.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #88 on: May 08, 2016, 10:17:03 PM »
'Sup, everyone.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #89 on: May 10, 2016, 10:48:59 AM »
'Sup, ya'll.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #90 on: May 10, 2016, 10:51:15 AM »
Trying to resist the urge... You?

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #91 on: May 11, 2016, 06:07:29 PM »
'Sup, M.

Today, for the first time ever in life, I hired a wardrobe consultant.  I needed some guided advice in the wardrobe selection department.  I doubt I would have had the presence of mind to do this, if I was still on the PMO train.  I'm starting to make better life decisions.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #92 on: May 12, 2016, 02:24:37 AM »
That's an interesting idea, G. I've never even thought of such a thing. What prompted you to do this?

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #93 on: May 12, 2016, 06:28:34 AM »
M.  What prompted me to do that, was having a mind freed from the bondage of PMO.

How ya do'in?

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #94 on: May 12, 2016, 06:45:48 AM »
So just trying new things to freshen up your life? I can dig that.

I'm doing ok. Got a real shock that I was quite repulsed by the porn I looked at last night. I feared I was going to love it and just go on a binge, but I felt kinda sick looking at it and shut it down before I got too far. Hopefully that means I can kick the porn habit without too much trouble. Doesn't mean I can kick the other habit so easily, but kicking porn would be a major step for me.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #95 on: May 13, 2016, 06:37:02 AM »
The NoFap Academy is recommending squats for Nofappers.  I'm sticking to the Leg Press Machine.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #96 on: May 14, 2016, 08:48:37 AM »
I promise to quit porn and live a more awesome life.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #97 on: May 14, 2016, 09:11:36 PM »
'Sup.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #98 on: May 16, 2016, 09:10:29 PM »
'Sup.

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Re: My Journal: The Neuro-Chemical Autopilot
« Reply #99 on: May 17, 2016, 04:58:28 AM »
 I was addicted to porn for many years.  I am healing now after spending the last 8 months in a recovery group.  It has been great and as of now, I just don't have the desire to watch internet porn any more.  The reason I am writing on this forum is to maybe get some insight on a problem I am going thru in my recover.  I am in my early 60's.  My problem I have now is with sleep.
I have done a lot of research about sleep deprivation during porn recovery & understand how dopamine works in the brain.  My problem is not falling asleep soon after I go to bed. My problem is staying asleep.  I usually get to bed around 11:30.  Since I am retired I don't have to get up.  I usually read till I get sleepy then go to sleep.  I wake up every morning around 3 am  and then cannot back to sleep.   I feel like it will eventually pass and my normal sleep habits will come back,  at least that is what I understand from research I have done.  I just wanted to get some comments from other viewers on here.  Is this fairly normal in recovery?    The last porn I watched was in late Feb.   Thanks for any insight.