E45
Active Member
I look back now and realise how lucky I was to have grown up without porn. Wanking by touch alone was never a problem for my generation of teenagers. Sadly, the internet came along around the same time as my children did (i.e. wife not in the mood ever) and I started looking at all the wrong stuff. I never noticed it was becoming an issue; things carried on (supposedly) fine for ten years.
More recently I decided to give porn up, and somehow managed for a year or more, which seems crazy now I think about it. I can't remember clearly why I decided to give it up; how odd! Probably just guilt. I was amazed I was able to go cold turkey straight away, and last so long, but it felt easier because I was still masturbating three times a week, fantasising in my head about porn, and using a DIY 'fleshlight'.
I got near 40 and thought that reluctant erections were just a sign of ageing. When I'd find a convenient moment to masturbate, my dick just didn't leap up like it used to. My touch was no longer enough. There were no spontaneous erections. So I slipped back into using porn, where the erections were easy. Real sex was so rare that I got very excited and thankfully my dick performed well. But it wasn't right; I definitely had a mild form of ED, given that I couldn't arouse myself with touch alone.
I am so happy I found yourbrainonporn.com whilst randomly Googling about my erection problems; it was the best thing to happen to me. Now I know what my problems are, why they are caused, how to solve them. It all makes sense. I began a reboot. Today is day 17.
I'm hoping that mine is just a mild case, and I won't have to reboot for ages. I find resisting anything is difficult. I eat a whole packet of cake bars every day. Getting into the habit of exercising regularly took me years. Each day it is a mammoth struggle to make myself do work, at work. The house is never clean. But just occasionally I seem to manage things with no effort, and I can't understand why. Like how I gave up porn for a year before I knew about PIED. I even gave up confectionary, with no relapses, without it seeming to take any effort to resist. I wish I knew how I did it.
Of course I curse as I think about the past. If only.... If only... And I would love to dream up a way to educate the world, and have porn somehow disappear forever. But then I guess we'd go back to flicking though catalogues for underwear and shower adverts, like some stupid 11 year olds....
More recently I decided to give porn up, and somehow managed for a year or more, which seems crazy now I think about it. I can't remember clearly why I decided to give it up; how odd! Probably just guilt. I was amazed I was able to go cold turkey straight away, and last so long, but it felt easier because I was still masturbating three times a week, fantasising in my head about porn, and using a DIY 'fleshlight'.
I got near 40 and thought that reluctant erections were just a sign of ageing. When I'd find a convenient moment to masturbate, my dick just didn't leap up like it used to. My touch was no longer enough. There were no spontaneous erections. So I slipped back into using porn, where the erections were easy. Real sex was so rare that I got very excited and thankfully my dick performed well. But it wasn't right; I definitely had a mild form of ED, given that I couldn't arouse myself with touch alone.
I am so happy I found yourbrainonporn.com whilst randomly Googling about my erection problems; it was the best thing to happen to me. Now I know what my problems are, why they are caused, how to solve them. It all makes sense. I began a reboot. Today is day 17.
I'm hoping that mine is just a mild case, and I won't have to reboot for ages. I find resisting anything is difficult. I eat a whole packet of cake bars every day. Getting into the habit of exercising regularly took me years. Each day it is a mammoth struggle to make myself do work, at work. The house is never clean. But just occasionally I seem to manage things with no effort, and I can't understand why. Like how I gave up porn for a year before I knew about PIED. I even gave up confectionary, with no relapses, without it seeming to take any effort to resist. I wish I knew how I did it.
Of course I curse as I think about the past. If only.... If only... And I would love to dream up a way to educate the world, and have porn somehow disappear forever. But then I guess we'd go back to flicking though catalogues for underwear and shower adverts, like some stupid 11 year olds....