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Nano

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My 7 years porn addiction and It's time to STOP
« on: January 03, 2016, 04:05:46 AM »
I started to know about porn when I was in secondary school . It was pretty normal to all my classmates and  the girls talked about porn like they were talking about clothes and stuff . I didn't know much about porn so it was hard for me to keep up with the conversation with my girl friends so on the weekend , I searched for porn and related things .As I engaged myself in those sites ,  I was soon addicted to porn and I watched at least 3 to 4 videos a week .
I watch porn whenever I feel stress ,lazy and bored or when I have the urges for masturbation ,which I dont masturbate ,  because I think it would be painful , including having sex too . I think this is the consequence of watching too much porn , I have never had sex before ,and I don't think I want to have sex either .
I can think about a sexual image then start go to the porn sites to feed my cravings and urges . After watching porn , I immediately feel horrible , disgusting since I haven't been able to control myself . I talked to my bestfriend about my porn addiction but it didn't help much . She also confessed to me that she watched porn too and she tried to convince me that it was a completely normal hobby . I have tried using tools ,apps to stop me from watching porn , I was on 26 days streak of no porn on Coach.me  until I killed my streak today .
I used to have serious issues with porn , like 3 months ago , I was studying for my exam then I sudeenly felt the urges for watching porn then I went on the internet and watched porn videos , read erotic stories for hours . As a result , I didn't have enough time to study and my grade was quite low . Or even when I can't sleep , I watch porn .
I still live with my parents and they dont know about my addiction , they would be ashamed of me if they found out .
It has been 7 years and I am just too tired of hating myself after everytime having watched porn . I'm new to this forum but I hope to get rid of my addiction by sharing my stories here .
I'm 18 now and it's time for me to stop , to take control of my own life and this is my 2016 's resolution .

mtaha2015

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Re: My 7 years porn addiction and It's time to STOP
« Reply #1 on: January 06, 2016, 09:42:02 AM »
welcome to rebootnation.
I wish you success.
this is the time you can change yourself.
you are very young.
long way to go in life.
with porn, you will only make your life painful.

leave porn and live a healthy life.


Nano

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Re: My 7 years porn addiction and It's time to STOP
« Reply #2 on: January 08, 2016, 07:40:08 AM »
Yeah I know that :) It's all in my head ,I guess . If I don't want to watch porn then I won't watch them , like no one is forcing me to do anything . I talked to my parents about the addiction , they didn't yell at me or anything . They gave me some advices , and now they're trying to help me to engage more in outdoor activities, so i think it's a good start :) .Anw Thanks for reading my story :) I really appreciate that :)

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Re: My 7 years porn addiction and It's time to STOP
« Reply #3 on: January 29, 2016, 04:13:44 AM »
let me start off by saying welcome, you have made a great start to ending your addiction. in my opinion you have done the hardest bit, admitting to your family that you have a problem is always the most difficult bit. if you are open and honest with them and they are willing to help you can lean on them when you are feeling weak. and failing that there are always people here on reboot that are there to chat should you need.

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Re: My 7 years porn addiction and It's time to STOP
« Reply #4 on: February 08, 2016, 09:34:09 PM »
Hi,

I was reading your story and to be honest, I think you just the best thing you could do, which is to join this forum. As I see now you haven't posted anything on your journal for a while. I hope it means that you are busy doing good activities out there. Given my experience, it's good to come back here anytime to stay in touch with your PMO related challenges. I hope you are doing well.

Best,
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"I count him braver who overcomes his desires than him who conquers his enemies; for the hardest victory is over self."
― Aristotle