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baller1995

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My Story
« on: December 14, 2015, 01:57:01 AM »
As a kid growing up, I've always wanted to have something that satisfied me. However, I didn't realize that this would eventually turn into an obsession, and this is how my addiction began.

 I've always watched all different kinds of porn. Gay, bisexual, lesbian, you name it. I don't know why, but I'm always turned on whatever I've put in front of my eyes. I'm trying to stop, live a normal life, and hopefully find a girlfriend.

The longest that I've gone without masturbating is probably 4 weeks at most. So 2 weeks in my book is amazing to me. Thanks for reading! Hopefully I'll make it through tonight.
« Last Edit: January 15, 2016, 01:56:41 PM by baller1995 »

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Day 2
« Reply #1 on: December 15, 2015, 02:04:51 AM »
Well, last night was not good. I let myself go, and watched porn, and orgasmed. Wish me luck for tonight!
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Re: My Hidden Porn Life
« Reply #2 on: December 15, 2015, 06:50:14 AM »
Good luck, Baller
But you don't need luck, only confidence. If you know you can do this then you can do this 8)

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Re: My Hidden Porn Life
« Reply #3 on: December 16, 2015, 05:29:16 PM »
Thanks MindfulMike!! Amen, preach a sermon!! Lol. We're all in this together!!

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New Beginnings
« Reply #4 on: December 16, 2015, 05:34:30 PM »
All right, what I've discovered about myself, is that I need to have more confidence in life. My thinking needs to be more like GOODBYE PMO! You're outta here! If you're going to screw me up occasionally, fine, but at least I have a GRIP, on you!

Whether it be 5 days, or 1 month, I WILL NOT give up! I am bound and determined to push forward with this freedom! I know that I CAN OVERCOME THIS.

Today has been a good day. Yeah, I slipped up again last night, but I can tell that I am learning from my mistakes. Let's do this!

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Re: My Hidden Porn Life
« Reply #5 on: December 16, 2015, 05:47:51 PM »
donot worry, first step is to will reboot. that you have taken and its almost a win. there are plenty out there, who are still in this hell, without even realizing it. so you are already a sucess.

and donot worry. ive failed 30 times. in rebooting,  now am on my 30th reboot.  started two days back. so i guess.  its not common to loose. you will eventually win over it.  just hate pmo so much. you will one day give up :D

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Re: My Hidden Porn Life
« Reply #6 on: December 16, 2015, 06:00:03 PM »
DreamingLord you are da bomb! Thanks for the encouragement and advice. I have to keep remembering that we're all in this together, and we've got each other! We just gotta keep swimming. Love you, bro!

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Re: My Hidden Porn Life
« Reply #7 on: December 16, 2015, 06:05:57 PM »
Don't let it get to you! Your tenacity is inspiring for real! Confidence is definitely key.

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Re: My Hidden Porn Life
« Reply #8 on: December 18, 2015, 03:41:41 AM »
this time its working i guess, 4 days, and i dint have a single desire to pmo.  i think its like a flat line.  no matter who i see, i dont see any stimulation, either porn or real.  i never had this stage for 4 days. actually, it would be just one day, and on day 2 or 3 iwould think about masturbation or would have sex drive thats uncontrollable. i guess, 4 days without out a single desire is awesome, i think i will win this time :D :D  so don't worry and give up. you will win in the end.

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Re: My Hidden Porn Life
« Reply #9 on: January 15, 2016, 01:56:05 PM »
Fellas, what we have to do is just filter our brains with other things when the sex drive comes to mind. If we keep on pondering about it, then it becomes an issue, and that's when we start to slip. Good for you dreaminglord! Keep at it man. Thanks bro!

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Day 3
« Reply #10 on: January 15, 2016, 02:06:29 PM »
Over the holidays like many of us, I slipped quite a few times. I probably wasted a lot of time watching this garbage, and could've at least watched something on Netflix like Supernatural or Lie to Me.

But what's interesting to me is that I found that if I keep myself busy, then I don't find myself thinking about sex, masturbation, watching porn, etc.,; also, if you tire yourself out, then you're less likely to watch it, because your body wants to rest. For example, I didn't watch any porn last night, but I slipped up this morning, because I don't have classes on Fridays (my community college doesn't have classes that day for some reason).

I quote from Winston Churchill, "A pessimist sees the difficulty in every opportunity; an optimist sees the opportunity in every difficulty."