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« Reply #150 on: April 09, 2016, 05:17:43 PM »
Day 83

Not much to report since it was a bad weather day and I stayed the whole day at home. I watched a lot of videos in english and finished a job given me yesterday, beyond eating and having had a nap in the afternoon.
No shower, no work out, no headache.
Urges came just mildly by watching the videos in english, some of which triggering. But no way I would give up. I'm strong and more committed than ever.
I had good mood, regardless the dead day. Was quite ok about everything.

I crossed day 83, so it's one week before I hit the 90 days goal! Let's get the war over, I'm ready for everything!!!

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« Reply #151 on: April 10, 2016, 05:11:17 PM »
Day 84

An avarage day. I don't feel as good as I felt the previous day. Not that I'm bad, it's just that it was not a positive day like the latest!
I've been staying at home watching videos in english the whole morning and in the evening. In the late afternoon I went out with a friend.
No workout.
Made hot shower.
Had nasty headache for almost the whole afternoon.
Had mild urges only by watching the videos aforementioned!

So I've crossed even the 12th week. The last week is incoming and 6 days divide me from the 90 days goal! That's really amazing, only one full week more and next sunday will be day 91!!!

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« Reply #152 on: April 10, 2016, 09:41:40 PM »
good luck man you are almost there , i'm realy proud of you , and little jalous to be honest  ;). did you notive any change in your memory proccessing ? what about your drive to succed ? motivation ?

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« Reply #153 on: April 11, 2016, 01:33:52 AM »
Don't let your guard down man. I saw men on forums relapsing after 130+ days clean.

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« Reply #154 on: April 12, 2016, 12:37:04 AM »
Day 85

It was a really good day (again!). I was happy after the working day where I had the feeling I had done good. Then I got back home, went out again to meet a friend and in the evening I watched videos in english.
I had very mild headaches in very few moments of the day.
No work out no cold shower (actually no shower at all).
I had some porn thoughts when I was in the public transportation. I didn't have it for ages. I had a feeling of disgust about it and let it fade as quick as possible!

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« Reply #155 on: April 12, 2016, 12:46:00 AM »
good luck man you are almost there , i'm realy proud of you , and little jalous to be honest  ;). did you notive any change in your memory proccessing ? what about your drive to succed ? motivation ?

Hey,

about memory proceedings, I don't know, I didn't notice anything in particular. I have far more clear mind and positive attitude. I will report everything on sunday, when I will have completed 90 days.

About drive to seceed and motivation, there are many angles on this subject. First of all, you must be highly educated on what pmo causes to you and your brain. You can't stop an addiction if you don't know deeply it's ruining your life. At this purpose I suggest you to buy the book yourbrainonporn . Then you must be committed, because 90 days without O is unhuman, is a torture. You must be aware of the benefits which I can tell you are worth the sacrifices. You must be aware that everytime you relapse, you will have to make other 90 days without O, unless you give up and choose a pmo's life. You must be ready to take hard measures: for example I began to make cold showers more often than hot ones and last year gave up my smartphone to avoid triggers!
In my 90 days report I will put more detail.
Good luck

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Re: My nofap journey (journal)
« Reply #156 on: April 12, 2016, 12:47:27 AM »
Don't let your guard down man. I saw men on forums relapsing after 130+ days clean.

Yes, me too. I'm well aware of it and I'm trying to keep those people as example so I won't make the same mistake.
Thank you for the advice, it's always good to be reminded about this

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« Reply #157 on: April 12, 2016, 02:16:34 PM »
Day 86

I'm globally happy about the day, thought it had sever up and downs.
All the downs arise from last night. I had a dream. It was not an ordinary wet dream. When I experience ordinary wet dreams, I just O by beign horny due to the content of the dream. But this time it was different. I had been moving in my dream and the movement I was doing was scraping my penis up and down on the bed. It is the way I was masturbating until the age of 20, when I was doing it because I was unable to do it with my hand. But I was unconscious. So the scraping led me to O. When I had O, I remember what I was dreaming: I was dreaming an old acquiastance of me telling me "even I masturbate that way, even I use to do it like that!". I woke up after a little bit, confused. Then I fell asleep again until the timer woke me up and I had to go to work. Well, several months ago, I would have been wondering whether I relapsed or no. It is because I was less secure about what I want and where is this journey going to bring me. I would also have used it as excuse to pmo! But today everything is different. Today I know I haven't relapsed. Yes, it's true I MOed in the sleep and it's true that during the day I had some disadvantages which reminded me when I was pmo addicted. But it's even more true that I didn't MO couscionsly, I didn't chose it, I didn't look at porn making my dopamine rush and desensitive my brain toward real women. The point of my reboot journey is to destroy the path pmo-pleasure and create a new real women/real life-pleasure! What happened last night is not going to slow down either the destruction of the old path and the creation of the new one.
Anyway, Today I had some urge while at work. It was short, yet strong and passed.
Then I was a little bit less mind clear, compared how I have been in the last 20 days! I had even some drop in motivation at a certain point. Everything happened after lunch, when I ate fried food. Lack of sleep (I woke up at 5:30 am due to that dream) made the rest.
I had headache for most of the day, and in some moments even strong ones.
Didn't work out.
I finally made cold shower in the early morning. I wanted to prevent chaser effect or urges. I should begin again to make cold shower, I think it helped me a lot today!

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Re: My nofap journey (journal)
« Reply #158 on: April 13, 2016, 12:57:22 PM »
Keep it up partner!!! Youre almost there, almost there!! I ll be there, just sadly a bit later.. im very proud of you, amazing, good luck with everything, see ya on the mail.
Greetingz mat

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« Reply #159 on: April 14, 2016, 12:10:59 AM »
Day 87

A day with up and downs. I stayed the those day at work. Had a moment of anxiety and pessimism after spoken with my boss and after not performing a commitment.
But for the rest, I was pretty fine.
Didn't have urges, I've just had some short relapsing thought.
Didn't work out nor did I have cold shower.
I had headache only after lunch and was fine during the rest of the day.

Now it's missing three days to reach the big goal! After all the effort I made, I can't believe I'm so close to this target! Let's get it to day 90!!!

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« Reply #160 on: April 15, 2016, 12:20:52 AM »
Day 88

A very positive day. Mainly because I have spoken to my boss and we agreed I will be employed to him. Besides, I had a positive day at work, felt motivated and optimist.
After work I went to but some stuff and then I went to play football with friends.
I made cold shower in the early morning.
Didn't have headache at all.
Worked out by playing football for more than an hour.
Didn't have urges at all. So

By now friday is going to be day 89 and sunday day 90! I can't believe it I almost made it. It's actually great and on sunday I will report all the benefits which can't be spotted day by day, but I really feel them when I think back how I was before making this journey

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« Reply #161 on: April 15, 2016, 03:40:39 AM »
You have to celebrate that Sunday!

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« Reply #162 on: April 16, 2016, 12:54:24 AM »
Day 89

A good day, though I got a little bit nervous because the notebook at work wasn't working. It's normal stuff, I know.
I worked the whole day and when I got back home I completed the job I couldn't done at work due to the not working notebook.
Before going to sleep I watched a video in english.
Didn't have any shower nor I worked out.
I didn't have true urges, yet had some sex thoughts after seeing hot girls.
No headache at all.

It's day 89! Tomorrow is day 90 and sunday I will have achieved a full 90 days reboot! It's really really getting so close to it! I've almost made it and I'm so motivated!!!

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« Reply #163 on: April 17, 2016, 02:06:22 AM »
Day 90

So here we come! The last day of my hard mode streak goal! After so many streak I have done it.
The day was good, I've just have had nasty headache and after dinner it got worse.
In the morning I began to make a long term project, in the afternoon I went to buy a book and then went to watch a football match in a town 60kms far from home.
My mood was good and of course I was excited for my 90th day!
I haven't worked out, yet I walked a lot during the day.
I made a hot shower! I deserved it for my goal achieving.
I had some urges at certain point of the day but I have easly dismissed!

So, the aim of this journal has been fulfilled! If I look back to all the times I promised myself I would make a journal writing everyday how I was feeling, all those time I failed. But this time I didn't. This time I wrote down how everyday of my hard mode streak was! I'm so proud of it!!! I set a goal and I respected in the long term what I stated I will have wanted achieved!

What am I going to do now? I will write just time by time some comments to this post just to keep track on how is my life going on!

I really can't believe I have done it!

On the section "sucessful stories" you will find my report of the benefits I feel I have achieved!

Thank you to all who has read and supported me.

I wish all of you can achieve the goal I have achieved! Good luck

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Re: My nofap journey (journal)
« Reply #164 on: April 17, 2016, 04:45:03 AM »
Hey there
Iam new to all this and I have no idea where to start or what to do. I was just wondering if you could point me in the right direction.

Cheers man ☺

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Re: My nofap journey (journal)
« Reply #165 on: April 22, 2016, 05:07:11 AM »
Hey there
Iam new to all this and I have no idea where to start or what to do. I was just wondering if you could point me in the right direction.

Cheers man ☺

Hello. I will write a post with the guidelines I suggest to follow up since they helped me so much! I will send you the link of the post as soon as I write it