I'd like to ask if you are still doing the self-developing activities and if so, how often?
Pochybuju, že by o tom v Česku někdo nějak zvlášť věděl.
The fact that it was you who first commented will be lasered to my mind for eternity. =)
Anyway. Today I have spent a lot of time thinking. I was thinking about all the time I have wasted. All the potential I had, things I could do and yes, the girls I could have had and the opportunities I didn't take advantage of that were there to make a connection with them. I don't want to beat myself over all this too much, but it is necessary now to take serious action and make myself go in the right directiom, whatever that is.
I recommend you to start with book named Konec prokratistinace (still don't know if it's translated to English, so other option is The Slight Edge). It's a small book and quite readable. You can start by reading 10 pages and than another 10 next day. There are also many practical tips, which I used on my own and I'm sure it also helped me a lot.
I thought that should be clear at this moment. I'm from the same country as you are.
1) I don't want to go into detail with this or discuss this, but I finally need to admit to myself and to others that I don't have much motivation to finish a university at this point in my life or maybe ever. Make myself finally comfortable with this agreement with myself and break free from the expectations of my parents. This will be a tough break for them and it will mean I will have to work ten times harder in terms of my work.
mind if I ask what revealed myself? I'm just curious . Also you don't have to be mad at yourself, because every day you stay away from P counts.