Back Again After Very, Very Long Relapse - 18 Year Old With PIED (SUCCESS!!!)

[Awkward]

So two nights ago I was able to have sex just fine with a condom. Was a little worried at first because all of my previous experiences with condoms had been bad but I got it on while retaining about a 60% erection and when it hadn't gone limp I went in and after a couple of pumps I was operating at full capacity again, just like that. The condom was small so it hurt a little but the sex was entirely normal and possible.

So I have come to the conclusion that my problem was a mix of PIED and severe performance anxiety caused by an extremely bad first experience with condoms (not only was I suffering from PIED to some extent because I couldn't become aroused at the thought of having sex, I tried to use a condom that was way too small on me and it asphyxiated my penis and killed my erection instantly, which was extremely embarrassing as it all happened in front of a beautiful girl with her legs stretched out waiting for sex) and actually accomplishing sex for the first time sort of removed that fear and anxiety. I'm still going to refrain from using porn because I'm really not trying to go back into that cycle just as I've broke it.

[BailHopper]

Congratulations! This is big!

Keep it up and you'll eventually remain with a 100% erection while using a condom. I know I couldn't get a condom at first either, because I would always lose my erection. I don't really know if it really was performance anxiety or PIED, but now I can keep an erection while putting on a condom as well. This is my second reboot to be honest, the last one was 53 days but recently I relapsed after a really bad day.

So keep it up, it's only going to get better!

[Awkward]

Another quick update, condoms pretty much aren't a problem for me anymore. I was able to get it on, have sex, and cum with it on twice today in two different sessions about an hour apart from each other, so I'm pretty sure I'm good. Condoms still kinda hurt to use but I'm assuming that's a problem with the brand or size I'm using and not necessarily the condom itself. A lot of my problem was definitely a mental block, but I'm absolutely certain that has its roots in PMO and PIED. I might wait a while to make sure nothing goes south and then finally post my success story  thanks to everyone that has accompanied me on the journey. I'll most likely be posting here still every once in a while

[baller1995]

Awkward, it's great to read your journal entries! Keep up your good work! You're an inspiration to read about!!

[Awkward]

Hello everyone! Things are still going great and my new girlfriend and I have a wonderful sex life. I've re-introduced PMO into my life in a way that hopefully this time is healthy and I'm still very able to have sex, even with condoms! (Though I have come to hate condoms. So uncomfortable. But if that's the price of piece of mind then it's whatever, am I right?) I'll be writing up and posting a success story soon. Thank you all for giving me the encouragement I needed to complete this journey. Thanks also to the people who simply read this even if you didn't reply. And thanks to Gabe Deem, without whom I probably would still be a virgin.

Stay strong friends! It does get better!

[Gabe Deem]

Congrats awkward! And thanks for continuing to write and document your journey. I'd advise against using PMO to anyone who has previously experienced porn-induced sexual dysfunction at any level, as those pathways can easily be brought back to life... but it is your decision, just be very careful man. In any case, please continue to document what happens everyone and then. Hope the best for you!

[Awkward]

Congrats awkward! And thanks for continuing to write and document your journey. I'd advise against using PMO to anyone who has previously experienced porn-induced sexual dysfunction at any level, as those pathways can easily be brought back to life... but it is your decision, just be very careful man. In any case, please continue to document what happens everyone and then. Hope the best for you!

Hey thanks Gabe! The support means a lot and I'm thankful you have taken it upon yourself to start this forum and get people aware of this problem which only is going to get a lot worse in the years to come. I should clarify: I meant just MO to fantasies and pictures my current GF sends as actual P doesn't appeal to me too much anymore (I read about what actually goes on in the P industry and what the women are often treated like [and the men too. It's often not all fun and games] and it's absolutely terrible. I wouldn't wish some of what happens on my worst enemy so I stopped supporting it) but you're absolutely right that it's dangerous so I think I'll try to keep that to a minimum as well. Maybe once a week, if that. I'll still be posting every now and then here and posting encouragement on other people's journals as well. Cheers!