spanishmarshmallow
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I started my own personal NOFAP journey after I realized how Porn had affected me. I have been single for most of my life and have relied heavily on one night stands to fulfill my physical needs. Even though I have been with over 70 women, maybe 80, the reality is that porn sessions have outnumbered these figures by some distance. I started watching it around the time that internet broadband was made available to everyone. That's over a decade...
As a result, I became increasingly dependent on porn to the point of (years ago) having to think about it to get an erection with a woman. Instead of taking it as a clear sign that something was wrong, I continued including PMO into most days of my life. Before I knew it, I had to use the blue pill (Viagra) to be able to have sex with girls. Of course, with Viagra, sex was amazing, but I could not help but feel like a fraud. As I look back, I realize how many times I had sex with it, and I really do not feel very proud. But at the time, it was the only option for me to be able to perform.
So when I heard of Nofap and started reading about it, I saw many stories that were similar to mine and I felt like trying it. I started a few months back and always seemed to relapse after 2-3 weeks when I would go back to porn and enjoy it the way I enjoyed my first playboy magazine as a kid.
Right now I am on a 66 days streak. 66 days of absolutely no porn, no masturbation, no touching my penis for anything but to pee. It's tough at times, but I feel it actually gets easier too. The first 3 weeks were way harder than it is right now. And all these efforts were only made with one thing in mind: to get erections like I did when I was 18 (I'm 38).
But here is where the story gets interesting:
In the last few weeks, I had a few opportunities to have sex with girls, but I seemed to avoid it. I was scared! It got to a point where it was plain silly. A girl kept offering sex bluntly via whatsapp, telling me she would come to my house, and I just could not do it. I felt like a lesser man, a man with no balls. I thought, this is not who I want to be. There's only one way to tackle this and it is to confront the problem.
So a week ago, I met this super cool girl who I went for a drink with. We had such a good time, that we decided to meet up again last night. No need to say that I was really worried about the thought of taking her home. She had come from the outskirts of the city to around where I live, and I knew the chances of taking her home were pretty high. But again, the thought of it was scaring me to death. The difference is that I knew that last night was the night I had to try to have sex without Viagra for the first time in many years. I just had to push myself.
We went to see some live shows around the city and followed that with a meal in a Mexican restaurant. I had 4 pints which wasn't a really good thing to do. At around midnight, I took her home, and we quickly went to bed just as if we were already a couple. Even before we kissed, I could already feel that I was getting hard. I knew this wasn't definite as often I could get it up only to lose my erections for good after a few minutes. So, I was trying to keep my mind away from it as I perfectly know that keeping your mind on your erection actually kills it. But the reality is that whatever I was focusing on, my erection was just there and it was not letting me down.
Then the dreaded moment of putting a condom on arrived, and I thought that it would kill my hard on, which has happened before. And nope, not this time! Again things were going as normal as they should! I put the condom on, and my cock was just as hard as it was to porn a few months back. When we had intercourse, I was convinced that I would finish in less than a minute...After all, 2 months without orgasm is a very long time for a man. But no! Again to my surprise, everything worked better than expected. We had sex for about 15 minutes give or take and I came nicely!!! only to collapse on top of her full of joy and with the greatest sense of achievement I have had in a very long time.
This morning, we went at it again, and although I wasn't as hard as last night, we did manage to have sex again! I wish I had been a little better, but I also suffer from Chronical tinnitus, and could not sleep a single second with this crazy whistling in the ears. So when we went for sex, I was completely wrecked. Still, I managed to have sex!! If I can do that when my energy is at is lowest, imagine what I can do when I am fully rested!
But enough with all the self praise. All in all, I just want to say that NOFAP works. Man it does. I finally have my personal proof of it.
And it has only given me more reasons to continue with my journey. Once you have the proof you were looking for, you feel unstoppable.
NOFAP is not a temporary thing, it is a forever thing!!
As a result, I became increasingly dependent on porn to the point of (years ago) having to think about it to get an erection with a woman. Instead of taking it as a clear sign that something was wrong, I continued including PMO into most days of my life. Before I knew it, I had to use the blue pill (Viagra) to be able to have sex with girls. Of course, with Viagra, sex was amazing, but I could not help but feel like a fraud. As I look back, I realize how many times I had sex with it, and I really do not feel very proud. But at the time, it was the only option for me to be able to perform.
So when I heard of Nofap and started reading about it, I saw many stories that were similar to mine and I felt like trying it. I started a few months back and always seemed to relapse after 2-3 weeks when I would go back to porn and enjoy it the way I enjoyed my first playboy magazine as a kid.
Right now I am on a 66 days streak. 66 days of absolutely no porn, no masturbation, no touching my penis for anything but to pee. It's tough at times, but I feel it actually gets easier too. The first 3 weeks were way harder than it is right now. And all these efforts were only made with one thing in mind: to get erections like I did when I was 18 (I'm 38).
But here is where the story gets interesting:
In the last few weeks, I had a few opportunities to have sex with girls, but I seemed to avoid it. I was scared! It got to a point where it was plain silly. A girl kept offering sex bluntly via whatsapp, telling me she would come to my house, and I just could not do it. I felt like a lesser man, a man with no balls. I thought, this is not who I want to be. There's only one way to tackle this and it is to confront the problem.
So a week ago, I met this super cool girl who I went for a drink with. We had such a good time, that we decided to meet up again last night. No need to say that I was really worried about the thought of taking her home. She had come from the outskirts of the city to around where I live, and I knew the chances of taking her home were pretty high. But again, the thought of it was scaring me to death. The difference is that I knew that last night was the night I had to try to have sex without Viagra for the first time in many years. I just had to push myself.
We went to see some live shows around the city and followed that with a meal in a Mexican restaurant. I had 4 pints which wasn't a really good thing to do. At around midnight, I took her home, and we quickly went to bed just as if we were already a couple. Even before we kissed, I could already feel that I was getting hard. I knew this wasn't definite as often I could get it up only to lose my erections for good after a few minutes. So, I was trying to keep my mind away from it as I perfectly know that keeping your mind on your erection actually kills it. But the reality is that whatever I was focusing on, my erection was just there and it was not letting me down.
Then the dreaded moment of putting a condom on arrived, and I thought that it would kill my hard on, which has happened before. And nope, not this time! Again things were going as normal as they should! I put the condom on, and my cock was just as hard as it was to porn a few months back. When we had intercourse, I was convinced that I would finish in less than a minute...After all, 2 months without orgasm is a very long time for a man. But no! Again to my surprise, everything worked better than expected. We had sex for about 15 minutes give or take and I came nicely!!! only to collapse on top of her full of joy and with the greatest sense of achievement I have had in a very long time.
This morning, we went at it again, and although I wasn't as hard as last night, we did manage to have sex again! I wish I had been a little better, but I also suffer from Chronical tinnitus, and could not sleep a single second with this crazy whistling in the ears. So when we went for sex, I was completely wrecked. Still, I managed to have sex!! If I can do that when my energy is at is lowest, imagine what I can do when I am fully rested!
But enough with all the self praise. All in all, I just want to say that NOFAP works. Man it does. I finally have my personal proof of it.
And it has only given me more reasons to continue with my journey. Once you have the proof you were looking for, you feel unstoppable.
NOFAP is not a temporary thing, it is a forever thing!!
