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Hope_81

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My PIED story. I need your advices and opinions
« on: September 27, 2015, 03:34:55 PM »
 Hello Fellows. I decided to write here about my problem. I need your advices and opinions. I am from Bulgaria and here watching porn and masturbating all the time is not considered as problem. Even some popular Bulgarian sexologists have never heard about PIED.
 I have been suffering Porno addiction many years. The porn became compulsion when I decided to cut the best scenes from the videos. It happened in 2009. In same time my sex life then went very bad. Only ED, PE and sometimes both of them. That is why in the end of 2009 I deiced to quit sex and to be dedicated only to porn. During 2009 I did not make any connection between to much compulsively porn using and sex failures.
 In the beginning of the summer of 2015 I met great girl. We tried to have sex, but nothing happened. My penis did not move. However if I watch her pictures in swimsuit I can get an erection for one or two minutes. We tried several times, but nothing happened. After that our relationships ended.
 I went to doctor, Endocrinologist. He let me to pass some blood tests and X-ray picture of my penis. After he saw the results, he told me: "Dude you are supposed to be a sex machine. Throw your computer from the window, forget about the porno and go for sex with real women. Even prostitutes are better choice than the watching porn."
 Two weeks after that I visited a prostitute. Before that I took Viagra /10mg/, Levitra /20mg/ and Zytax /3 pils/.
I told her my story. I succeeded to get an erection. But I could not keep that more than a couple of minutes. :(
My penis was getting hard enough to penetrate inside her. However after approximately a minute it was down and mushy. It was needed to go from scratch with oral love in order to go boner and to get in her. And it was really frustrating circle for both of us. Finally she told me: "Dude, your tool is totally out of order. You are on really hard stimulants and your penis goes mushy. You need to stop watching porn. Otherwise you will be completely impotent.'' She offered to me a recovery plan. She proposed great discount /50%/ if I pay in advance for two months. For this time no porn, no masturbating. Only sex with her two times per week.
 In the same time I was able to get an erection stimulated by porn or even by myself in dark or light in the bathroom. In case there is no girl with me, my erection is not problematic.
 After that I read many articles, forum posts and I downloaded all the videos from Youtube about PIED. I visited the greatest Bulgarian sexologist prof. Stanka Markova. She is really aware on PIED.                                                                         
 According to her and to other sources the first thing man with PIED should do is to stay sober from porn and masturbating for 3 or 4 months. After that is time of the second phase. Find a good girl or go to prostitute. Force the brain and body to accept a woman as a object for arousing, but not the hand. The brain should be reset and re-configured. It needs some time for adaptation. You should not give up if you fail in the beginning.
 This is really big challenge for me. I was watching porn and masturbating once per two days in average. In last months after I realized that porn destroyed my sex /and not only/ life I decreased it to once per 4 days in average.
 However I took this challenge. I stayed sober for 1 month and 10 days /40 days/. On 41 day I failed and relapsed. :(. After that failing I was continuing stay sober for two weeks more. Sometimes I had morning wood. Sometimes my penis went boner. Finally I decided to move to second phase earlier. I found a prostitute who offering only oral sex for 15 minutes on price of 10 euro. Really good offer. I visited that girl. She was beautiful and smart. Before we go I explained to her about my PIED problem. She told me: "Dude for many guys the real sex is disaster. First thing I asking them is how much porn are they watching and if it is possible I let them to stop watching that shit. Do not worry. I know how you are feeling and I know what to do."
 Firstly I touched her body. After that she made a short massage to me. And I get boner. My penis succeeded to stay hard and bloody in her hand for 3 minutes. After that she made me a great oral love. My penis was erected and bloody all the time in her hands and mouth. At the end she told me: "Dude if you were here for sex your penis could stay mushy inside of me again just like previous time. You are not close to full recovering, but what happened today is a good sign that the things are going in the right direction for you. Quit porn and stop masturbating. Come again to me. I know how to treat your problem."
 After that I stayed sober for two weeks more. Last week I bought an artificial vagina. On my TV /42 inches/ I played movie with naked girls. I simulated missionary pose with it on my bad, watching the TV. It worked. I had good and continuously erection. It was good sex with my artificial vagina and the naked girls on TV. After 3 days I decieded to try doggy style. It did not work well. My penis was mushhy and finaly my erection dissapeared at all. I even could not come. :(
 My plan is to stay sober for next weeks or month. After that I am intend to go to prostitutes for real sex and to replase PMO with it.
 Guys I am desperate. :( What do you think about my story? Are the things reverseble and recovereble. Will I be able to make love and sex with real woman again? Are really good signs the facts that: I am able to get an errection stimuleted by porn or by myslef? Is it possible rebooting if you relapse once or twice per week even with real girl?
All your advices and opinions are very welcome and appreciated.
Thank you in advance.
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« Reply #1 on: September 27, 2015, 04:21:43 PM »
This is a HUGE problem for your generation. You really have to quit porn completely if you want to have normal sex. This is happening to many guys.

If you do masturbate, no P: http://yourbrainonporn.com/how-do-i-masturbate-without-porn

Motivation: http://www.yourbrainonporn.com/research-confirms-enormous-rise-youthful-ed As you age, your brain gets harder to re-train.
« Last Edit: September 27, 2015, 07:18:29 PM by Androg »

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« Reply #2 on: September 28, 2015, 03:39:37 PM »
Sounds to me like you have all the information you need. You just have to stick to the program. Get rid of the fake vagina and no more watching girls on TV. No porn. No masturbation. Only real women. It takes time. You sound desperate and I understand how you feel. Use how you are feeling to give you strength to stop porn and masturbating. Keep going, man. You have already made good progress. More is on the way.

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« Reply #3 on: October 05, 2015, 03:11:12 PM »
Hello Fellows,
Thank you for your replyes.

@ Androg
Thank you for the shared links. Really useful information for my case.

@ Phase2
Thank you for your support buddy. I am still wondering would  not it be good idea to have sex with my artificial vagina in dark place only with thoughts about girls?
No fap process makes me nervous. I feel I have more energy inside of me. I need to sublime it. I go play Tennis. I go on mountain trekking. Jogging in near park. When I am in front of PC I read yourbraininporn, do useful things, but abstain from porn and masturbating. I hope I will keep that line.

I would like to share my future plans. I need yoru opinions.
I am sober third week. No porn, no masturbation. Sometimes when I lied on my bad and watched movie I had really strong erection. I counted that my penis can stay hard with no touching for two minutes. If i touched it, the period was longer. I am planning to vist that girl soon, but for sex. I have hope that my penis will stay no mushy inside of her. However I am wondering would it be good ideia to relap the day before visitig? Just to prevent quick ejaculation. What do you think about that idea?
Thank you in advance.
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« Reply #4 on: October 06, 2015, 03:11:28 PM »
My advice is simple. Only have sex with live human beings. Do not watch porn. Do not watch porn and masturbate. Do not stick your dick in a fake vagina.

I know it is unusual to have an erection and not jerk off, but you can do it. Wait until you are with a girl. Take a cold shower or go outside and go for a run. And you don't have to have intercourse with her--just kiss and fool around with your clothes on. Try to get used to the idea of sex with a live person if you are not ready to go all the way yet. Good luck buddy



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« Reply #5 on: October 10, 2015, 03:49:29 PM »
Hello Rebooting Fellows,
Thank you for your support and for your advices.

First of all I would like to tell you what happened last night. Actually happened something really bad for me. After almost one month of sobriety I failed. I relapsed. :( I am feeling so ashamed, guilty and empty now. I want to recover myself, but it seems that my efforts are not enough. 
In same time happened something really interesting. Feeling I have not felt last years. My penis was hard and bloody all the time. My libido was on 100%. My sexual desire was back and was really strong. I found my favorite type of girls, blondy nerd and I came watching her how dancing naked. I was pretty sure that if she was next to me in my room I could have great sex with her and my penis would not go mushy. Is it only illusion? What do you think?
I also do not think that full recovering from PIED can happen for 3 months even with series relapses.

I will listen your advices and I will try to stay away from that shit. I will try to be sober at least two months more. After that I am going to visit prostitutes. I am ready to loose money and time for the first tries. I hope I will never lose my hope that one day I will be fully recovered from PIED and I will have great sex and love with the woman I love.

Thank you for reading my story guys! I will keep you updated. :)
« Last Edit: October 11, 2015, 05:02:15 AM by BG_Dude_1981 »
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« Reply #6 on: October 12, 2015, 12:07:14 AM »
Masturbating is always ok..just do it without the porn.  Visiting hookers is NEVER a good idea, regardless of what your's tells you. If you need to, take a break from masturbating. Get healthier,  drink more water..exercise more. Cut down on drinking /smoking. To get and maintain great erections,  many things have to be in order. Just remember, you are not alone..most of us guys are experiencing the same. Private message me if you want to chat more. Robbie21

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« Reply #7 on: October 12, 2015, 07:26:59 AM »
 Hi mate! Just stay away from porn. Do not masturbate !!! Try not to think abaut sex at all! Give your body and mind a long vacation. Focus on something else-career, gym etc. Prostitutes will not fix the problem. Do you have a girl?

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« Reply #8 on: October 26, 2015, 03:38:37 PM »
Hello Rebooters,
Thank you for your threads.

I am sorry for the late response. First of all I will reply to you. After that I will provide you with the latest update of my PIED story.

@Robbie21
Thanks for your advices buddy. Fortunately I am not drinking any alcohol. I cannot stand even beer. However I smoking. Not much. One box /20 cigarettes/ per week. I cannot stop or decrease it. I tried more than 20 times.
Unfortunately I do not like gym. My weight is too much, 110 kilograms. I play tennis two times per week and go to mountain hiking at least once per week. However my job is on desk and I am movable.

@Guruto 
Thanks for the advices buddy.

However I am several steps backward lately.
I realized that I cannot sweep the porn from my life at all. I am still downloading the hottest stuff and archive it on big external hard drive. I am still choosing the best of the best stuff and cut the best scenes from the videos. Without to get arousal and touching my penis. Only for archive. And the worst thing is that I relapsed once per week, last 3 weeks. :( It is significantly less than before. I am spending no more than 7 hours per week for porn. In compare with a couple of months ago it was twice, 15 hours per week in average. 
Probably I will be never recovered if I keeping that line.

I visited the prostitute two times recently. The sex was just a disaster. As before I was able to get nearly 80 erection stimulated by oral love. Once it get in her vagina it went mushy for less than a minute.
I observed the following law:
- My penis can stay hard and have appropriate behavior for sex between my fingers, in girl's mouth and in the fake vagina.
- My penis cannot be erected in: girl's hand and girl's vagina.
I think that it seems that the problem is not in the penis, but in the brain. It looks like huge brain damage.
This situation is very frustrated for every girl. Once get boner after her oral efforts and get mushy to zero immediate inside her. 
What do you think for that? Have you experienced similar behavior? Do you think that the completely removing of porn and masturbating rare only in the dark bathroom with thoughts for girl can solve this behavior?
Thank you for your answers in advance.
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« Reply #9 on: October 27, 2015, 04:15:56 PM »
Hello Guys,
Today I was thinking about this topic. I realized that if I want to be fine I need to remove completely the porn form my life. I saw positive results even after I decreased using of porn. Some of them are: I am more concentrated than before. I get new and really well paid job. I can communicate with girls much easier than before. My mind is clearer. I feel some new unknown for me pure energy. I am ready for learning new stuff and take new challenges.
I guess that I can continue with decreasing and finally sweep this shit of my life. I will keep you updated here. I will share my progress and my fails here.
Wish me luck. :) 
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« Reply #10 on: October 27, 2015, 07:34:11 PM »
 jUst stop waching porn! It leads to relaps. Go hardmode-this is the right and easyast way!