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I did it, 14 months, finally a success story.
« on: September 20, 2015, 11:05:00 AM »
First I want to apologize for any bad grammar. I am from Croatia.

My success story:

**Background**

Hello my name is Marko and I am almost 17 years old. When I was 9 I have discovered mastrubation while playing some internet browser sex games with my classmates. Since than I was fapping 1-2 times daily only to sensation or to some mild imagination till I was about 11 when I discovered a site with pictures of naked women and I was like WOW, but after a couple of months it became boring and like the most of us I discovered internet porn. From age 12 (when I first started using high speed internet porn) to age 16 my sexual tastes really got crazy and weird. I'd say I was not really addicted until I was 14. By then I had all the symptoms; dropped out of highschool, social anexity, serious ED, bad concentration, acne, serious DE and actual damage to my dick (needed to get circumcision). I never tought porn did it to me.

**How I found out I had a problem**
It was summer 2014. I had this amazing cute girlfriend and we were about to have sex for the first time and you can guess what happened, we started and I just lost my erection, classic story for this forum. I did some stuff with girls before, like handjobs or so and I never had ED problems(did have DE problems a long time before ED problems tho) I felt really ashamed. After she left I did what any person in my situation would do, I googled and I found YBOP. The first time I was on YBOP I felt that I know why everything that has happened to me has happened and I was actually happy, because at first I was very motivated to deal with the problem, after reading everything on YBOP (took about 8 hours). My journey began on 14.7.2014. My first streak was 45 days, the next one was 40 and then, then came the darkest time of my life. I couldn't go over 10 days for months. I was desperate, I thought of suicide a milion times, no joke. I tryed everything, k9, not using my smartphone anymore, cold showers etc etc. There were a milion tactics, and they were all good, seriously. However there  was one huge mistake that did not allow me to succed; I kept thinking about it, everything I thought about was not watching porn. I overthinkined everything and it was really bad for my reboot. I relapsed more than 100 times, after reaching anywhere from 2-10 days. When I remember all the things I tried and all the thoughts I had... I'm so happy it's over. I even had a few panic attacks during my reboot.

**How I fixed the problem**

 Then I stoped and started listening to the advice that is everywhere on this subredit; TO MAKE YOUR LIFE BETTER. I got back to school, I found a new girlfriend(Which cheated on me 2 weeks ago and guess what, I DID NOT FAP!!!), got a new haircut, got better at the gym(am going to the gym for about 2 years now), started going out a lot, read about 50 books in these 14 months, bought new clothes and so on. I can safely say that my life changed. Today is 95 days since I last watched porn and I can say that it feels amazing.

**What changed**
I can talk to anyone, seriously my social anexity does not excist at all anymore. Morning wood is back ofcourse, so is libido and some random boners. I notice women a lot more and I feel attracted to them. I feel and look much better, guess it's just because of the confidence . Last time I had sex, about 3 weeks ago my dick worked perfectly, 100% erection and stayed a while after I came, went again after 5 min, DE also gone, my foreskin was scared due to fapping(it looked really nasty) so I got circumcised( yes I know it's good to have a forskin but my urologist told me it's the best thing to do in my case). I'm much more motivated for everything, school, gym, reading etc. Before I usually got very mad for stupid reasons and would smash things around the house and now I'm more chill. Basicaly everything improved, triggers don't get me anymore, if there is a sex scene in  a movie I can watch it with no urge to do anything that I don't want to do. So I guess I am recovered. There were times when I was really desperate and I tought I'd never do it, but I did it, I FUCKING DID IT. I actually did not know it was past 90 days until today, and I was really shocked and happy, I'm just so happy that I'm no longer a slave to those sick videos. I can't even describe this good feeling!

**My advice**

-   Seek help, don't be afraid. I went to a shrink, I told my mom, I told my friends (they're all rebooting :D)
-   Learn about this addiction, it's very imporant to understand what has happened to you, I advise you to get Fortify, it actually helped me quite much, good explanations on it. http://fortifyprogram.org/
-   Be desperate. Yes I belive it's good to feel bad sometimes, remember that feeling when you think of porn
-   Change something about your looks, buy new clothes, get a new hairstyle or something
-   Get a hobby or do some sport I think this is really imporant
-   DO NOT THINK ABOUT NOT FAPPING ALL THE TIME, DO NOT SPEND 10 HOURS A DAY ON NOFAP, REBOOT NATION, YBOP ETC.
-   https://www.youtube.com/user/TheMiro0r this helped me a lot
-   Order man1 oil. I belive it helped me a lot with my DE http://www.man1health.com/
-   Go outside, party, laugh, meet new people
-   Try to get better grades or better at your job
-   Stop worrying that you will never recover, never have sex again etc. I know how it feels, I know that disgusting feeling and I do not want to feel it ever again, but you have to beat it


Just stay hopeful and keep trying, you will do it!!!

TL;DR This is the hardest thing I did in my life, my dick works.

Special thanks to everyone who answered 10000 of my stupid questions!!!!

EDIT: I'd be really happy to help with any questions you have in the comments
« Last Edit: September 20, 2015, 11:23:19 AM by Marko7776 »

sodonewithit

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Re: I did it, 14 months, finally a success story.
« Reply #1 on: September 20, 2015, 12:20:48 PM »
Good job bud!   It's great to read of a young guy doing this well, make us proud
My wife told me to be a participant not a voyeur, I think we should all do this.

Watched "Hot Girls Wanted", all us guys should.

Marko7776

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Re: I did it, 14 months, finally a success story.
« Reply #2 on: September 20, 2015, 07:52:18 PM »
Thanks for the support

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Re: I did it, 14 months, finally a success story.
« Reply #3 on: October 08, 2015, 10:40:11 AM »
Just wanted to say thanks for posting your success story. I'm the support system for my son - which may sound strange to some people, but I see you also opened up to your mom. Your story gives me hope that my son will get through this as well, though he's in his early 20s so he's been addicted for longer.
Did you experience depression? He's feeling disconnected, to everyone. And increased anxiety.
Congrats on your reboot!

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Re: I did it, 14 months, finally a success story.
« Reply #4 on: October 08, 2015, 02:29:50 PM »
Hey man, happy to know you got your life back under control. I'm rebooting as well, 22years old, bout 10 days in hardmode. But I don't have a problem with triggers as much as many other do. I used to PMO like crazy (obviously), but I've spent the last 3 years in the military, discharged now. During my service I had to cut down on the masturbating and the P, which unintentionally, in it's own way was a kind of reboot. I would not PMO all week, then when I got some R&R, I would "make up" for it, with 3-4 sessions.

Not much long ago, had my first serious bout with PIED with a woman.. felt terrible. Giving up porn, getting an exercise program, reading, working more, changed eating/sleeping/drinking habits, started dating this amazing girl... all that makes me feel 10x better than ever. I'm making progress everyday. Never want to watch porn ever again, nor MO by myself.

I know this is just the beginning, and that it could get worse before it gets better, I've even had a severe anxiety/panic attack (FFS I've been to war, bombs going off everywhere, shit going ballistic, and this is what got me?) at work a few days ago because I overthunk my predicament.

Fellow rebooters, going into hardmode with plain abstinence from PMO is not the way to go. Trying to rewire your brain is. There is no easy way, it has to suck, you will fail many times before you succeed. But it's worth it.
I, as well as some other posters here, hope to look back at all this many years from as a bad experience of my adolescent life.

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Re: I did it, 14 months, finally a success story.
« Reply #5 on: October 09, 2015, 11:15:28 AM »
Congrats!