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Cosmosfucker408

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Day 175 NoFap. Need guidance.
« on: May 19, 2014, 03:57:57 PM »
Day 175 NoFap. And around 9 months-ish no porn. I have been off and on porn for the past two years, fapping with and without it, and before that I was a constant porn addict from like the age of 11. I am 21 now. Last August-September 2013 was my last run with it. I finally stopped with the porn and decided to just fap without it. About two or three months later I finally said fuck it I'm going HAM on this NoFap shit to see what it does, to see if it can really make me more confident and end my anxietys, etc... I stopped masturbating completely, no porn no nothing. Long story short (I don't want to get into a lot of detail because I'm aware that people have probably read many NoFap reports already) it's been an interesting time with many ups and many downs. From like day 30 to 90 it was the average 'I feel a lot better type of shit' - more productive, confident, feeling in control, less anxiety, shit doesn't bother you as much, your enjoyment in everything non-sexual increases, your attraction to women in real life goes nuts, etc... My main problem right now is that I've come to an almost Bi-polar state. I go through like two to three week phases of feeling all the positive benefits followed by absolute horrible feelings of depression, anxiety, social anxiety, loneliness, despair, etc.. I also feel like I am so damn sexually pent up as well, like people can sense my sexual tension when I'm around them or something. Is all this shit just with-drawl symptoms? Am I still going through withdrawal symptoms so far into the NoFap, day 175?! When will it stop? When will I finally balance out and remain consistent? Should I keep going?  If someone could point me in the right direction or lend me some guidance that would be greatly appreciated, as I am beginning to loose hope in this shit if things don't start looking up.
« Last Edit: May 19, 2014, 04:00:17 PM by Cosmosfucker408 »

rebooter23

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Re: Day 175 NoFap. Need guidance.
« Reply #1 on: May 19, 2014, 05:51:16 PM »
So I guess you have been about 6 months true no fap. I have been 7 months and am having a similar struggle.  I have also noticed a bi-polar effect, some days I am happy for no reason and others border line suicidal. I am thinking that is just the brain balancing itself out. Are you getting pleasure from natural activities? Are you attracted to real women (i.e. butterflies in the stomach) or is it still all fetishes (like me)...?

Cosmosfucker408

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Re: Day 175 NoFap. Need guidance.
« Reply #2 on: May 19, 2014, 09:08:16 PM »
No, tbh I feel like im being rebalanced in terms of how I think women are attractive. I am like a fucking dog drooling at women in real life, and even talking to them is great. Porn made me not get any pleasure from blow jobs or tits. Only ass and legs turned me on. Now I drool at the prospect of getting a bj and I am in love with titties again. I guess I kinda feel like how you feel when you first hit puberty and every thing about a women is just great. So I guess there's that. Also, yes I get a lot of pleasure from natural activities. More enjoyment of all activities non-sexual. That's probably the most consistent benefit I experience. I guess the main question is, do I continue NoFap and for how long? I feel so fucking pent up and bi-polar. I feel like energy is blocked all over. And yes the bi-polar aspect is just weird. Anxiety, extreme worry and social anxiety, and suicidal thoughts and a feeling of deep deep sadness and hopelessness. I just hope its withdrawal symptoms. When your in this far and shit gets kinda hectic you really wish there was more detailed information about the correct and exact process of doing a reboot. It's all just so vague. I feel like I'm kinda just wingin it and seeing what pans out.
« Last Edit: May 19, 2014, 09:12:36 PM by Cosmosfucker408 »

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Re: Day 175 NoFap. Need guidance.
« Reply #3 on: May 28, 2014, 11:41:58 AM »
Its good to hear that you get fun from natural activities and that women are attractive again. It seems like you have recovered so I would just get back to living life man. I hope I get to where you are eventually.