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Re: Through another Hell (Journal)
« Reply #175 on: May 26, 2020, 11:49:01 AM »
Looks like my plan to post at least 2 or 3 doesn't work that much. I know that I should post something here, but I am also doing other things and postpone writing here.

Well, now for the update. Unfortunately I relapsed. It was caused by chaser effect. I was having sex with my girlfriend and the next day I really couldn't much do to stop myself. On the other hand I find myself being more attracted toward my girlfriend. She is an amazing person and helped me with many things, nor just staying away from porn. I am really glad for her.
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« Reply #176 on: June 11, 2020, 03:45:56 AM »
I was busy this week, because there was a lot of work to do. Luckily I managed to get most of the things done, so it looks like I will have a free Friday. Hooray.  :D Also I had a great evening with my girlfriend and enjoyed our night together. Yet I am still struggling with edging.
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« Reply #177 on: July 07, 2020, 07:54:19 AM »
Last month I finally finished something I really wanted for a long time. You see since my childhood I have bad eyes and I am wearing glasses. Thing is when I want to buy new ones, it's costly, because of my dioptre. So I was saving up for eye operation and now I am without glasses. It's still pretty fresh feeling, because I was used to wearing them, so I am getting used to not wearing them at all.

But I have a problem, because I have a sick note. Right now I can't pull anything too heavy, which is exactly my job. So I am at home. And because I now have a lot of free time I am having problems with porn again. I relapsed several times and it's affecting me. I need to get together, otherwise my girlfriend'll know something is off. Starting with my sexual performace. Wish me luck.
   
 
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Re: Through another Hell (Journal)
« Reply #178 on: August 01, 2020, 09:10:44 AM »
Well I still have problems with edging. So this month I was trying to meditate and get a few cold showers during the week. I know it will take some time, but I know that I must do something.
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Re: Through another Hell (Journal)
« Reply #179 on: August 09, 2020, 02:51:29 PM »
Hello Hablablos,

I haven't posted in your journal for a long time.

Congratulations for your eye operations!

Good idea using meditation and cold showers. How did it worked out for you during the week?

I used to force myself using cold showers to kill urges. I found out for myself if I am able to stop urges from happening, it is much easier to control myself. Once I am triggered and aroused, I find it very difficult to stop myself from relapsing.

I red on nofap basic rebooting that it is common that porn addicts still keep watching porn, even if they managed to get a girlfriend.






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