Lost Druid
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I am a porn addict.... Here it goes, if I can't let it all out I'm never gonna get better.... My cycle always starts the same. I look at images. Then that's not enough so I move to videos, sooner or later that's not enough and I seek out people to sext with. My behavior has caused a huge rift in my marriage, one I'm not sure that I'll ever be able to mend. The guilt I feel when I watch causes me to push my wife away and I would feel lonely, the more lonely I feel the more I wanna look at porn. I have hurt her so much that she has turned to someone else to make her feel alive. We haven't seperated, I feel that I pushed her to where she is and demanding her to stop seeing him would only cause the rift to widen. I am here to help myself and to become a man worthy of her love. I feel so lost and alone right now. I have been considering suicide as well but I'll never get better if I give up like that. I need help.