Hey man,I think the goal is to return the mind back to its normal levels. Which means you have to sustain these boring days with no excitement or pleasure of any kind. Eventually, I think (hopefully) that will make your mind enjoy little things of life back, and not crave dopamine as before.
I've stayed clean for about a month and seem to be in a constant flatline; no labido, no interest in sex, no interest in women, nothing. But I reckon I will take a while to heal due to the number of years my brain has been rewired.
Your experience with women seems to have a similarity with mine. Though I started sex late (18 years). After two three failures, I have avoided women and sex like plague.
Hey man, I just want to say I am cured of PIED and if you go back and read my posts you can see how shitty it can be. I just want you to know it is 100% possible to fix and if you stay at it and stick through the flatline you WILL make it. Good luck.
I really enjoyed reading your journal.
... It was my mind begging, and trying to argue me into giving it some dopamine.
good luck man,I'll keep track of your progress
I also failed to say away from drink, I got a few beers in last night and again tonight. I may need to sit down and reassess how this is all going.