Fuck my life. I've been trying to break free from this addiction [...] and I still cannot get myself to stop. It only seems to get worse and worse. All my principles, methods and reasons just vanish every time I relapse.
Argh fuck this shit. Not even the drive to have sex with a real girl couldnt keep me from relapsing. [...] Fuck I feel like shit I was finally starting out with a decent streak
happy to read your posts young man! I think it is so great that at your age with so much ahead of you that you are dealing with this addiction! Just superb!!
Quote from: fcjl8 on April 11, 2014, 01:00:40 PMhappy to read your posts young man! I think it is so great that at your age with so much ahead of you that you are dealing with this addiction! Just superb!!Indeed. Take it from us guys who have been using for decades: even though it feels hard right now, you younger guys can be happy that you learned about this now and you can make a change early in your lifes. I am almost jealous, since I lost decades of what could have been a good life, wasting it with PMO.
Slight trigger warningI think that rewiring could take me way longer than I previously thought. I just relapsed and I realized that I mostly only get off because of the "perfect scene", and the novelty of porn. I remember 1-2 years ago, when I was visiting my grandma. A few times my parents and granddad used to leave to go shopping, and my grandma, ill, was lying on the bed in another room while I was on the laptop PMOing as fast as I could. These were my most extreme dopamine rushes, coupled with the adrenaline/risk of someone coming into the room every second.This does not translate into real life and makes me worry of how long this process could really take. On top of that my penis needs to recover from all the deathgrip masturbation too, as I didn't feel anything when I had sex the first time.