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Keta

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I just moved in from heaven to my old hell house
« on: March 13, 2017, 02:51:01 AM »
Yeah people, am am back in hell. Since the last time i posted in this site in early jan or something, i have hit a 62 days mark man. SUPER ACHIEVEMENT RIGHT? I have never done anything so tremendous in my life UNTIL last week but one.
Your brain can be a slut when it wants to.
For the last three weeks i have been stuck in a unending spiral of shitloads of drugs (ie lots weed, khat, pills, cigarettes the whole bunch) and an astonishing amount of upto 3 pmo relapses daily.
Today i came to my senses and realized that am FUCKED!! At an all time low with depression knocking at my door again, unfinished projects, an empty pocket and a tiny dick that could seriously be compared to an infant's.
Am mad at myself for going back that sloppy path.
This rant has no end but i hope today marks the beginning of another looong journey.
go~keta

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Re: I just moved in from heaven to my old hell house
« Reply #1 on: March 13, 2017, 03:12:53 PM »
Hey Keta, I had somewhat the same experience lately. It sucks I know. (Dust off and back on the road nonetheless.) Im pretty sure you dont have to start at square one though. During these 62 days you have learned something, and let that only be that you tasted how it would be having a porn free life, Im pretty sure. Im struggeling with weed. It makes me numb and undermindes me achieving my goals and actually I dont care about things - like my reboot.

I guess during reboot we need a strong mind more than ever.

Keep it up brother!

Keta

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Re: I just moved in from heaven to my old hell house
« Reply #2 on: March 25, 2017, 11:33:58 PM »
Hey yodaranch
Glad to know there is someone who feels exactly as I do about weed. Anyways I called it quits and on my new streak,12 days in. Let's do this.
go~keta