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« Reply #50 on: April 10, 2015, 02:44:16 PM »
Thanks JNV.
Thinking positive.

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« Reply #51 on: April 10, 2015, 03:31:54 PM »
"what you anticipate you create"
I should anticipate ,that cravings are easy. reboot process is easy and I will do it with ease. so I think this will help me. it will get easy in reality too by that way.

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« Reply #52 on: April 10, 2015, 03:34:45 PM »
Almost 2 days done.
feeling liberated and feeling successful, at least I did some accomplishment in recent couple of weeks.

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« Reply #53 on: April 11, 2015, 12:06:36 AM »
My blood pressure was high like crazy in the evening. heart was pumping too fast. although now I am feeling a lot better. I am back in shape and back in action. I got my mental focus and concentration back. I know depression will come back soon. I am gonna fight depression.

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« Reply #54 on: April 11, 2015, 06:09:51 AM »
Stay strong!! Depression is a nasty b*tch, it makes you think that your life is much worse than it really is.
Remember that it's not true and it's only your mind playing tricks.

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« Reply #55 on: April 11, 2015, 11:06:34 AM »
hahaha greyfox thanks for that point. I was missing that one. you are right, it makes you think your life is more worse than it is in real. so I gotta be real. I know how bad my life is, but not lets make it seems more worst.

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« Reply #56 on: April 11, 2015, 11:51:02 AM »
1. http://www.yourbrainonporn.com/what-causes-post-orgasmic-symptoms
What causes post-orgasmic symptoms?

2. http://www.yourbrainonporn.com/men-does-frequent-ejaculation-cause-hangover
Men: does frequent ejaculation cause a hangover?

3. http://www.nature.com/nrn/journal/v12/n11/full/nrn3119.html
Dysfunction of the prefrontal cortex in addiction: neuroimaging findings and clinical implications.
Note: how addiction messes with the prefrontal cortex, and how the prefrontal cortex is not only related to decision-making and strenght of will, but also to memory, concentration, attention to other stimuli other than addiction-related, etc. Also, how does the physical connections between neurons "give priority", or attention, to addiction-related neural pathways when bingeing/craving, rather than to regular stimuli - why everything seems "blunt" when we're craving. A conclusion? Realise that, remember that, and force yourself to go take a walk outside when absolutely nothing at all seems to be stimulating. It's all in the brain, plain old chemicals and phisiology.

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Taha, I just hope this helps you as much as it helped me.
I relate to you because you are such an open and honest person regarding this situation.
I honestly wish, from all my heart, to help you in any way I can.
Information is empowerment, use it with dedication.
Best of luck.


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« Reply #57 on: April 11, 2015, 11:54:44 AM »
Hit rock bottom today, wrote a couple of suicide notes and googled a bit for information on suicide, then I came up from the bottom of the muddy well holding this precious gem I wrote about in the last post. Read it, and treasure it: it is very valuable information. Trust me. It can save your life to know you've been a mess for your entire adult life because your concentration and dedication was cut up to 10% due to porn addiction, and other nasty habits indirectly related. Gives hope that you can become an actual person. Cheers.


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« Reply #58 on: April 11, 2015, 12:00:48 PM »
A bit more than 1 year ago, when still I was in the middle of the storm created by PMO+massive videogaming, I regularly had suicidal thoughts because I thought I had so reached rock bottom that it couldn't be worse.

Look at us all fighting those shitty addictions now. We are true modern days warriors! ;)


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« Reply #59 on: April 11, 2015, 12:46:54 PM »
thanks shakrai and jnv. together we fight. thanks for that valuable information. I have read all 3 links. very informative. so I got a point from these links, sex does makes you weak. and you need time to recover from the loss. rats take 15 days to recover wow.
terrible. one sexual encounter can make us subhuman. wow. so why our culture is so pro-sex ?

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« Reply #60 on: April 11, 2015, 01:19:22 PM »
I am feeling tried and blood pressure is still little high.
I am going for rest.
I had a maths test today morning. Had a wonderful test and now I have lot of home work to do too.
feeling fine.

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« Reply #61 on: April 11, 2015, 01:21:28 PM »
thanks shakrai and jnv. together we fight. thanks for that valuable information. I have read all 3 links. very informative. so I got a point from these links, sex does makes you weak. and you need time to recover from the loss. rats take 15 days to recover wow.

Wow! How much does it take for a man?

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« Reply #62 on: April 11, 2015, 01:54:12 PM »
terrible. one sexual encounter can make us subhuman. wow. so why our culture is so pro-sex ?

If you think about it, sex is action to generate life; it shouldn't be so surprising that it is so extreme, in many senses. But I agree, our culture treats sex like a child's game! Just for entertainment... For me, what's more startling is the enourmous ammount of intimacy shared during sex, which people just forget about I think.


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« Reply #63 on: April 12, 2015, 09:36:34 AM »
guys I had relapsed yesterday night. I came in the trick of my brain, just watch P and don't masturbate. and you deserve to relax a little bit. any ways I am back on track right away. my trigger was thinking about karezza sex. I said, ok lets try porn without masturbation.
this was my brain's trick. I made mistake . I admit. But I am back.

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« Reply #64 on: April 12, 2015, 11:00:51 AM »
Remember buddy, Porn and masturbation should never ever be a reward ever. Convince yourself of that and it'll be easier when the devil on your shoulder starts to try and break your resolve. Hang in there.

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« Reply #65 on: April 12, 2015, 11:50:10 AM »
I know that feeling, you need more self control in those moments but I know it's very hard. You have to think that more you resist, more the urges will become weaker and less intense.
Dude, you're one of the users who helps others the most here, you're such a good guy and I sincerely really want to see a lot of GREEN in your counters.
Give your good advices to yourself too, come here when the urges are coming and write to yourself in the second person if necessary  ;D

And next time your brain asks for porn...
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« Reply #66 on: April 12, 2015, 09:30:14 PM »
Rebooting experiment is interesting... U try and try, and try, until you realise the only way out is OUT. And like, through the door, no looking back, and simple as that. Just straight foward. But, until you yourself realise that, it's a long and twisted "trial and error" experiment, IMO...


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« Reply #67 on: April 12, 2015, 09:35:25 PM »
But the good thing about that, is once you do realise, you're not going to look back. Not intentionally, at least. Maybe at some moment of weakness, but then again, maybe, and probably, you're going to read everything related to "not giving up", "gaining strenght to withold temptations and urges", etc., once you do realise that.

It's just our minds focusing on our goals, and better ways to achieve them. It's all about steps, and goals, I think. Towards a distant end. An objective, a final objective. We're always going there, and as long as we keep resolute to go, or even wanting to go, aiming to go, we're getting there.

It's amazing, innit? Wonderful.


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« Reply #68 on: April 16, 2015, 05:31:31 AM »
Hey Mhata, how is it going?

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« Reply #69 on: April 16, 2015, 06:30:26 AM »
he started a new journal and he's doing great http://www.rebootnation.org/forum/index.php?topic=4467.0
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