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3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« on: April 01, 2015, 09:31:02 AM »
Day 0

This reboot attempt will be different, i now know my triggers and my weaknesses, i will aim for quality of days not so much quantity, my improved nutrition will assist in repairing damage done by PMO and i will not M, egde or O at all.

I'm not going to lie i was going to delay my 3rd attempt until after the upcoming season of Game of Porn Thrones finished but to continue any longer knowing the consequences would be insane. I'm thinking that i should be focused on not seeking sexual material out but if i come across it watching my favorite shows then looking away ASAP is okay, we don't normally look away from a porno right?

Truthfully i can't wait to get those good old "superpowers" back, since i started PMO again i have noticed that girls no longer even notice me, back during my longer streaks girls would literally turn to look at me like i was Dr. Hardon. My voice has also gotten softer lately and doesn't project as well, fortunately i haven't done enough damage yet that would bring back my brain fog and anxiety, at least i have learned that relapsing really doesn't undo all of your hard work, not that that will be useful to me anymore  8)

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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #1 on: April 01, 2015, 11:46:42 AM »
Hey man, so sorry to hear you have relapsed as well. I have followed you from the start and, weirdly enough, we have both relapsed in the same way probably for the same reason. I have however managed to not go back to the habit. It was a one time thing and I already turned page.

Sure do all your past progress is far from gone - I have had similar triggers with the sopranos. I would say maybe you have been lately feeling more down due to your relapsing situation, that's why you may have been looked down upon by other persons as well. One of my friends said I looked like a zombie these past days as I was dragging on all moody and with giant eyebags due to lack of good sleep. It's all related

Wish you good luck and count me in for moral support  ;)

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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #2 on: April 01, 2015, 04:52:22 PM »
It's sad to see you back,
I was at my 72 days 5 days ago, but here I am, back to the zero.
You know what? Since we' ve been in this together since the start, I am not going to relapse unless you are, so that's some additional motivation for you and for me too! :) Good luck. :)

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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #3 on: April 01, 2015, 08:11:48 PM »
Right back at ya guys.
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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #4 on: April 01, 2015, 09:41:23 PM »
Best of luck comrade.

It sounds like you're in it for the long haul.

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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #5 on: April 07, 2015, 08:48:16 PM »
Day 7

No issues so far. I'm committed to doing hardmode until cured this time round, last reboot attempt my longest nofap streak was just 45 days out of about 160 days porn free, i believe this is the reason why i never saw much improvement during the later days of my reboot. I have also started eating a more nutritional diet that aims to increase nerve and cell healing and balances hormones, i'm hoping this will help me see better results faster this time round.
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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #6 on: April 10, 2015, 07:02:59 PM »
I'm feeling good today, Gabe has helped me clear up a few things in regards to the reboot that have been bothering me for a very long time. I believe that the reason why i didn't see a return of libido is because my libido only recognized porn as a potential mate and so unwiring from porn left me without any avenue of activating my libido, in my current unwired state it makes perfect sense as to why neither fake girls or real girls excite me at all. It's time to stop counting days and focusing on making some changes that will help me find a partner.
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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #7 on: April 10, 2015, 09:15:39 PM »
counting day is good. it helps you to stay determined. but at the end it is your choice.

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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #8 on: April 11, 2015, 05:07:29 AM »
True, of course i do keep track of days gone by but that is no longer my priority, i wont get anywhere until i make other changes in life so that i can get a partner to rewire with.
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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #9 on: April 11, 2015, 11:02:34 AM »
don't relay on any other human too much. it is your problem , you have to solve it your self.
fukk the rest.

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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #10 on: April 11, 2015, 09:55:48 PM »
But a partner is required if i want to rewire lol
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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #11 on: April 13, 2015, 01:39:17 AM »
Today i went to the doctor about my libido and low sensitivity, he was able to rule out any hormonal imbalance or deficiency of any kind, he was able to confirm that my issue is entirely psychological and when i brought up the reboot with him he seemed completely open to the idea that porn is the cause. So nothing groundbreaking but at least i can now put my mind at ease and any small doubt i had about the reboot is now gone.
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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #12 on: April 13, 2015, 02:42:08 AM »
Today i went to the doctor about my libido and low sensitivity, he was able to rule out any hormonal imbalance or deficiency of any kind, he was able to confirm that my issue is entirely psychological and when i brought up the reboot with him he seemed completely open to the idea that porn is the cause. So nothing groundbreaking but at least i can now put my mind at ease and any small doubt i had about the reboot is now gone.

Hey man, best of look with the reboot!

This is good news for all! That a doctor is willing to acknowledge the problem in the first place.

As people have said we are all here for you and I am sure we can get through it together! I am currently doing the Hard 90 reboot so we are on similar paths!

I think you are right as well right regards to GF. You cannot go your whole life with NoFAP  if you do not eventually bring somebody else into your life. I guess you just have to be carfull not to introduce that girl into your life before you are ready.

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« Reply #13 on: April 13, 2015, 03:03:04 AM »
A partner will probably open again the door of sexuality and you'll feel like you're a teenager again. Not the easiest task of 'em all, agreed, bu while rebooting I ended up focussing on so many other things important for me that at a certain point my sexual release was not even in the top 5 of my priorities. smart idea not counting the days my friend.  ;)

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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #14 on: April 13, 2015, 08:14:48 AM »
@DayByDay
Absolutely, i had a feeling the Dr hadn't ever considered porn as a potential libido killer but he was very open minded and encouraged me to continue. Good luck with your reboot as well.

@LS90
I look forward to feeling like a Hetrosexual Hetrosexual : )
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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #15 on: April 24, 2015, 08:24:53 AM »
Never heard about it, honestly. I've had my sensibility back after abstaining but I do have a regular diet and take a small multivitaminic supplement so can't really say much. ;)

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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #16 on: April 24, 2015, 02:08:52 PM »
I suppose if you have a nutritional diet then the oil isn't completely necessary, though the oil does have proven nerve healing benefits and has been shown to cure ED so it can't be all that bad.

I personally have not had good luck(or any luck) treating my ED with any supplements. Taking vitamin E can't be bad for you though. Just be sure not to take it for too long, and cycle on and off of it. Hopefully you do see some progress!

How many days are you at brother?

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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #17 on: April 25, 2015, 12:21:51 AM »
@Letzte Thanks for your advice, i'm about 24 days into my current reboot.
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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #18 on: June 20, 2015, 10:03:24 AM »
Today i felt horrible, i had a headache, brainfog, social anxiety and low mood. It was just like being in the worst of my porn days. It obviously has to do with that week of regular MO i had, i hope it all clears away soon.

Update: Even though i relapsed to pics shortly after posting, i'm back to feeling myself and those headaches have gone.
« Last Edit: June 22, 2015, 11:46:44 AM by qrayz »
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« Reply #19 on: August 20, 2015, 09:03:12 PM »
I somehow managed to MO again, i guess my mind just hasn't been completely in it. This time i will try leaving my bedroom door slightly open at night so that i wont be tempted. In exactly 45 days time i will be back in Melbourne on holiday, why this is relevant is because my previous best streak of 45 days was reached whilst in Melbourne and i experienced those "superpowers" for the first time. I want those again.  :)
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Re: 3rd reboot attempt, with a difference.
« Reply #20 on: August 21, 2015, 12:24:22 PM »
Hey there. I wish you to be able to beat your previous best. Mine was 45 days as well although I didn't feel any major change but I still want to do better than that.
Much stregtn for this streak!


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« Reply #21 on: August 22, 2015, 01:47:49 AM »
Thanks jnv. I experienced 90% of the total amount of improvement in the 45 days of hardmode, the other 10% occurred over almost exactly a year, some of that might not even have anything to do with being porn free. I wonder if going past that 45 day mark will show up any more benefits.

If anyone's interested, this is my post from being 45 days Porn and Masturbation free (i think i relapsed on day 46 to MO w/o Porn)

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Day 46, October 9, 2014.

I spent my 21th birthday in Melbourne over the last 4 days and it was simply awesome, i didn't get laid and my libido didn't magically reappear but for some reason i felt like a king around women. I had a great experience with a cute girl that only a virgin could appreciate, she had a great body and a nice smile with long pink hair done in a nice way not a weird goth kinda way. I was eating a burger a few stools up from her and we were both facing a reflective wall, she first noticed me looking at her and instead of giving me a dirty look she gave me a cute smile, we continued to steal looks from each other in the mirror and i caught her getting shy  8), but she soon got up in a hurry and started to walk towards the train station next to the restaurant  :-\, i didn't get to talk to her but it was still a great feeling  ;D. The most frustrating part about being around an endless amount of hot city girls is i had zero libido and felt no arousal or motivation to approach any of them, i feel like i'm at a stand still and so i'm going to test by doing MO without P or fantasy, i'm hoping it will help me not hinder me so i'll update if i notice anything. btw i just got off the plane and couldn't wait to share my story so sorry if it's TLDR or badly written.  8)
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« Reply #22 on: August 22, 2015, 07:02:05 AM »
That's great you could see so much improvement. Well in my case I did see some too, but the change was not dramatic enough for it to be called superpower.

During the last 365 days my longest hardmode streak was of 45 days as well (but I relapsed with a full PMO binge) followed by several 30+. And during that time I could see some improvement in the social ans motivation department, the latter being the most important one. Before starting my journey, my perpetual PMO/videogaming binge would make me like a zombie with exactly 0% of motivation to do anything. What changed since then is that with all that free time, I was kind of "forced" to fill the those moments with productive things to do and that slowly is becoming my daily schedule by default.

What gives me the strength not to give up is that I now know that this is a long term process and that improvement will come with time. :)

Stay strong. :)