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NoPMO4Love

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« Reply #50 on: March 30, 2015, 01:03:26 PM »
@Maritime. That makes total sense. I know what you mean with the "Discover" section. That's exactly how I am with yahoo's "Trending" haha sounds pathetic when I say it out loud -_- I get a little adrenaline rush when i see more promiscuous pictures of women and it makes me seek more. Thanks for the input man. Trying to stay strong and chatting with others on here helps so much

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« Reply #51 on: March 31, 2015, 07:59:08 AM »
@NoPMO4Love, sorry to hear about Your mom. I bet your situation requires a lot of courage...
Have you ever considered blocking facebook and open image search on your computer?

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« Reply #52 on: March 31, 2015, 10:29:56 AM »
@NewAdam. Thanks. I have not. Facebook hasn't really led to any triggers and I use it to keep in contact with several people. I had the porn blocker that people suggest on here, i forget what it's called but had troubles with it blocking more than just porn, it would block normal content on non permiscuous sites so i got rid of it

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« Reply #53 on: April 02, 2015, 08:54:52 AM »
@Maritime. That makes total sense. I know what you mean with the "Discover" section. That's exactly how I am with yahoo's "Trending" haha sounds pathetic when I say it out loud -_- I get a little adrenaline rush when i see more promiscuous pictures of women and it makes me seek more. Thanks for the input man. Trying to stay strong and chatting with others on here helps so much

Haha it's not pathetic at all man, just the result of porn messing with our heads. I feel the same way pretty much every time I pick up my phone, I've debated trying to not use it for a few weeks to really go hard on shutting down addiction pathways but that'd be pretty tough. Same here though, stay strong!

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« Reply #54 on: April 02, 2015, 10:25:33 AM »
Thanks for the feed back Maritime. It just sounds so odd ha. That's probably really smart not using your phone if it's one of your triggers. Can you do that without any consequences? Like do you need it to contact people or for work? Thanks again for the support!

Just an update since I'm here. Today is day 4 already. This week has gone by really fast and I've been busy with work, tv shows and looking at how to start investing and buying shares, it's actually a lot of fun. I haven't had many urges and it's a little odd, I feel like I've flatlined already. Is that even possible? I've had a girl want to come over and "hang out" at my apartment but I just flat out said no. I also turned down a date with another pretty girl yesterday. I have 0 interest right now for some odd reason. It's kind of nice actually because I have been able to focus on work and working out.

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« Reply #55 on: April 02, 2015, 03:09:39 PM »
Hey NoPMO4Love,

looks like your right back on track.  Just an update for me I finally cave and had some dark days recently.  lol its hasn't been too bad and I'm going to go right back on it.  As for the turning down the girls invites right now,  Are you trying to go on hard mode where you don't O at all for a while?  If not, you should try going out with them it might help.  You want to rewire your brain to real girls, so it might help.  Also, it is possible to be in a flatline already.  I feel the same way,  I have felt this way basically ever since I have been trying to quit.  They say that the relapses set you back and it might make your flatlines last longer.  Well keep up the good work and I'll try to post more often, sry just been a bit busy.

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« Reply #56 on: April 02, 2015, 10:47:32 PM »
flatline is a blessing dude. you can work hard in your job and other stuff too. stay healthy.

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« Reply #57 on: April 03, 2015, 01:53:56 AM »
Glad to see you succeeding, keep up the good work dude!

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« Reply #58 on: April 03, 2015, 11:05:29 AM »
@JHAll thanks man. I actually had 2 relapse since the initial get go but they were consistent, I had a good week or 2 between. You'll get back up on that horse as well man! keep at it. I've been swamped too sorry for not posting on your blog man! I will consider the hanging out with women thing. I am actually hanging out with a female friend tonight so we'll see how that goes! I agree though that I need to rewire to real women so I see what you're saying there for sure!

@Mtaha I couldn't agree more! haha I actually dig flatlining, just don't want to get in an awkward situation if I end up hooking up with a girl haha.

@NeverSurrender. Thanks a ton man I appreciate it!

Just an update. Today will be day 5 and I've got a busy weekend ahead of me. Tonight I'm grabbing some drinks with my female friend, tomorrow I'll be in LA and Sunday is Easter. I have a few things on my to do list also that should keep me busy. I haven't had many urges but unfortunately when i get bored i think about porn still. I've been working out pretty hard the past 4 or 5 weeks now and am seeing awesome results so it's giving me a huge confidence boost. Thanks for reading and the support everyone

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Re: Reboot attempt #2
« Reply #59 on: April 04, 2015, 07:23:35 PM »
Caved -_- Always around 1 week now...

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« Reply #60 on: April 06, 2015, 12:33:22 AM »
1 week is great! You are already very strong. Try to do 8 days. Next time 9... One little baby step sometimes can be a huge leap.:)

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« Reply #61 on: April 06, 2015, 10:40:15 AM »
Totally man! I need to quit trying to jump so big. Thanks for the advice. I feel great today. I went out on a date Saturday and could totally see potential in that girl. I want to be P free by my next relationship. New goals ^_^

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« Reply #62 on: April 06, 2015, 10:44:57 AM »
NOPMO. newadam is right, just keep coming back on track after every relapse or binge. don't swing, stick to one plan. our brain plays with us in reboot process. we have to deal with our brain too. it is a tricky brain , don't let your brain trick on you. it is a very lengthy process. just keep working hard and keep working good for your better future NOPMO. I also binged yesterday , 2 times relapsed yesterday , Now I am back on track with full energy. my mental focus and concentration is great. I am ready to leave porn behind for ever in my life. I am try, I will keep trying. I won't give up. don't give up friend.

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« Reply #63 on: April 06, 2015, 02:51:23 PM »
@Mtaha for sure man. It's really nice seeing how strong other people on this forum are. It helps me feed off your guy's positive vibes and gives me strength to keep fighting it. We've got this man! ^_^

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« Reply #64 on: April 12, 2015, 10:03:06 PM »
Hey guys, It's been a minute since i've posted anything. I actually had a relapse and was a little embarrassed to admit it. I'm going on 5 days strong right now though and am feeling great. I've been seeing this girl who I'm really falling for. She was over last night and things got heated. I told her it's best that we wait because I really liked her, secretly also because I was too embarrassed to admit my Porn induced ED. I got semi hard at one point but was nothing like I should have been. I'm a little nervous though because she really wants to have sex I just am unsure what to do. I dont' know how to really talk about that truthfully. It's actually to the point where I'm a little scared and hoping my little guy kicks in and doesnt embarrass me when it finally does come to that. It sucks because i love sex but now i feel afraid of it because i don't want to be soft =\ I actually decided to do a hard reboot and no MO for the time being. I'm hoping i recover fast. I'd hate her to shy away from me because of ED =\
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« Reply #65 on: April 21, 2015, 06:03:30 PM »
Today is the mark of 2 weeks, which is the longest I have gone without PMO. Last time I relapsed on day 14 when I was in another country. I've got a lot more I'm fighting for this time and am not going back. My libido is still pretty much shot, I have a hard time staying erect during sex, I've been extremely tired the past week but am going to power through this. No more porn for me ever.

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« Reply #66 on: April 23, 2015, 11:11:24 AM »
Day 16 and I'm feeling great for the most part. This is the farthest I've gotten thus far and am extremely happy. My urges the past 2 days have been slowly coming back but I've been able to with hold. I can't  ever go back to my old habits. When I think about watching it, it literally disgusts me now. 

Yesterday and today I actually felt like my energy is coming back to me even off less sleep than I'm normally getting. I am still having a really hard time focusing when working, my mind is scattered and I'm all over the place which is making me think I have ADHD. I find it hard to work for more than 15-20 minutes unless I'm doing something I am really enjoying. Thanks for the read everyone!

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« Reply #67 on: April 28, 2015, 10:11:22 AM »
It's been a few days since I've posted. Today is the mark of 3 weeks porn free so far and man does it feel good saying that. I haven't been this far yet so the rest is a mystery to me. This past weekend I confessed to the girl I have been talking with what I am going through and she was absolutely amazing and cool about it all. She is supporting me and wants to help me push through it. I feel better than ever, my libido is coming back when I am around real women but still no crazy urges while I am online. I hope it stays this way as I'm starting to realize how much of a slippery slope I started going down. Thanks all happy Tuesday!

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« Reply #68 on: May 08, 2015, 11:27:07 AM »
It's been one month today!!! I feel so accomplished but still have  so far to go. My libido has been back and kicking which has made it relatively hard the past week. I almost caved yesterday but withheld. My now girlfriend knows about everything and what I am trying to accomplish and lucky for me she has been incredibly supportive. I haven't been super active on here lately but this site has been so helpful, thanks so much everyone