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From Fappero to Hero
« on: February 15, 2015, 08:00:35 AM »
First of all sorry for my English I'm from unknown country in Europe and it's not perfect
Fapping experience: 14-21 (7 years of fapping ? wow.)
Why i decided to stop?
1. it get out of control. At the beginning seeing boobs in 16+ movie or only imagination was totally enough to explode and be heavenly satisfied. At the and it was mainly rape scenes, max 18 teens (looking like 16, i was terrified that I'll end up be a pedo pervert...
2 I'm a virgin at age 21(21,5) and its really lame. I never kissed with a girl. My whole sexual experience till now is: 1 pop kiss(girl I've just met, it was my initiative, she agreed and I'm actually very proud), few ass grabs with good reaction(but I've never touch a real boobs, like never! - it's so fucked up!!!, hugs. 1 cheek kiss(i suggested) and... that's all :(
3.i have big dreams and 0 motivation - pure laziness. I have opportunities but I'm totally squeeze out of energy.
4. i don't have friends in my city. I had a few but they relocated to bigger city
« Last Edit: February 15, 2015, 08:34:09 AM by g4px »



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Re: From Fappero to Hero
« Reply #1 on: February 15, 2015, 08:25:14 AM »
Today is 2 weeks freedom from masturbation and porn

Changes:
-Huge libido - i literally want to fuck every other girl (i even think of some prostitute :|... )
-little higher self-esteem and self-confidence
-i started to notice some attention from girls and on the other hand when they avoid eye contact with me I'm like "psss your loss :)"
-I'm calmer
-i don't feel like shit
-i can't stop thinking(having butterfly effect in my mind) what if i started this challenge 7 years ago and never masturbated. How would i look like, my hairs, my skin, my sexual life, voice, muscle mass, health, eyesight, friends etc. ???? I'm begging for Time Machine !!
-today i got first WD and felt like i was pissing but with sperm. At first i felt bad but now libido and big desire to sex came back.



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Re: From Fappero to Hero
« Reply #2 on: February 15, 2015, 01:08:38 PM »
As guys who have been damaged from porn, we cannot wish going back in time just to make things differently. We must focus on getting out of the hole we are already in. I also think about the time I'd have a real erection just by touching my dick and getting wild only by seeing women going topless, but I know now that I'm not able to do it anymore, thanks to years of porn and masturbation. If I think about it too much I'll be stuck in this situation because I won't motivate myself to strive to keep PMO free and regain my libido over time.


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Re: From Fappero to Hero
« Reply #3 on: February 17, 2015, 05:41:32 AM »
I'm sick and i watched few screen schots of porn(pics), it took maybe 10 seconds, i don't even touch myself but i wondered if it is prohibited and can slow down progress? curiosity won but my goal was to stay away from fapping(it's called NoFap or NoLookAtNakedGirls?) and then was this reminder that somewhere i read that it's not recommended too. :\
« Last Edit: February 17, 2015, 05:43:15 AM by g4px »



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Re: From Fappero to Hero
« Reply #4 on: February 17, 2015, 08:42:23 AM »
Yes it's hard not to look, right? I was getting a file I had just downloaded and of course, there were some pictures waiting for me there. But as they say, you might think it's OK, but on your brain it's still making connections. That's why I'm going for no artificial stimulation at all.

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Re: From Fappero to Hero
« Reply #5 on: March 01, 2015, 10:23:39 AM »
NoFap February ACHIEVIED! :)
what i discovered:
-when i work or workout i have no desire to have sex (when focus goes energy flows)
-i have feeling that i can recognize who is fapping just by looking at this person
-i don't want to fap and watch porn ever again (this behaviour is totally unproductive it's time and energy thief and has only one advantage(pleasure) and lot of flaws.. like fast foods.
-generally my life improved up to 10% (it's not much but it's for free:))
-when part of ma called fapper went away my self-esteem and self-confidence increased (a little but noticeably)
-1 wet dream
-at the beginning it was only not to fap but then i decided to cut off all kind of porn as much as possible i did once looked at images from porn movie so there is less days on second counter.
P.S. i remember when i was maybe 14-15 and i jerked off before school and i two hottest chicks in class asked me if i masturbated this morning(with smile but using vulgar words) i awkwardly denied and said i didn't sleep much, but in my head i was like "how the fuck do they know??" i felt and probably looked like sweaty shit.
« Last Edit: March 01, 2015, 10:32:33 AM by g4px »



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Re: From Fappero to Hero
« Reply #6 on: March 29, 2015, 07:41:42 AM »
Fuck. I'm not proud of it(or maybe a little) but it's really interesting (and it was first  and it's gonna be last time i did it because it was only to try if it is possible.)

for 56 days i first masturbated(today) but without even touching my dick. It was like conscious controlled wet dream. i was imagining my personal sexual fantasies and what i started to feel was pleasure and erection and for some reason idea to fool my brain came to me. I started to move my hand in front of my zipper like if i was masturbating but there was nothing in my hand(penis was lying untouched). After a few minutes pleasure started to be bigger and bigger just by combination of fake movement and imagination. If i accelerate motion pleasure increased proportionally. Orgasm was very weak like in wet dreams and there was large amount of semen. Once i watched a video when a man was hypnotizing a women and by words, nlp techniques and hypnosis she experienced orgasm (she was fully dressed and man touched her only to set an "anchors'"

I'm not considering this as a relapse. because this challenge is not a 90 days challenge anymore, but lifetime challenge. For past 56 days i didn't watch porn at all and didn't masturbated

New finding
-first black hairs grew up on my forearms(i always have white/brown only)
-im more aggressive
-productivity in my job increased significantly
-i think that nofap it's not some magical life changer but it's really good foundation and a first step to it.
-2 typical uncontrolled wet dreams

P.S i'm not gonna reset my counter because it will be like i'm starting from zero again and believe me i'm not.
« Last Edit: March 29, 2015, 07:44:11 AM by g4px »



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Re: From Fappero to Hero
« Reply #7 on: March 29, 2015, 03:07:18 PM »
keep going.

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Re: From Fappero to Hero
« Reply #8 on: March 30, 2015, 06:13:18 PM »
Have you been enduring this 90-day challenge for long? Because you are having quite a progress in these 56 days you've been in it. I'm on my 40th day and I rarely have a dream at night, imagine a wet dream, lol. My life and my erections are improving, but not as fast as I wished...


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Re: From Fappero to Hero
« Reply #9 on: May 07, 2015, 01:21:00 PM »
fail.

i finished 90 days challange with 2 MO. First was something about day 60, second 87. I reset ma counter today because i wanted to finish it, no matter how many times i will fail, i just wanted to know my score. It's 1MO/1,5month. It's a big progress(starting from masturbating couple times a day) but it's time for second attempt.

new experiences:
-there was a situation when i had 4 wet dreams day after day
-edging is a trap,your brain will try deceive and rising pleasure make sure that you for a moment forget about all the best arguments not to do it, it's 100% the same trap when you fantasize
-to be honest i expected more from it, nofap is like a fundament of a house and many of us expect it's fundament+house.  i must get things done in order to see what really nofap can do for me(but it's just first 90day challange with two fails, let's try again  ;))
-i added meditation routine to this, twice a day
-i think it's harder when you have shit start(lack of friends, girls and social experience) than when you have some good friends and you are active from time to time with women. (1 year ago i did nofap unconsciously, i went to a bigger city with two old friends and we were in the same room, so fapping wasn't allowed :D, and it was the best month of my life, i was very happy, energetic, outgoing, confident and we had many goood experiences, met new great people, also girls - kisses, hugs, talking, having fun, so imo NOFAP BENEFITS ARE LARGELY DEPENDENT ON YOUR SOCIAL ENVIRONMENT ) And also i earn minimum wage and i think my problem is i want to be sparing(frugal) and have many girls in my life at the same time. It's a big conflict
-i failed at days off, it's quite interesting, i didn't do nothing physically these days and i felt like my sexual energy was rising and rising and... i couldn't handle it, o couldn't stand it. P.S. it's even harder, having day off and be sick this day.

soo... this time...

1. NEVER FANTASIZE AGAIN
2. NEVER EDGE AGAIN(AVOID EVEN TOUCHING)
3. FOCUS ON DOING THINGS(BE PROACTIVE INSTEAD OF EXPECTING STH MAGICAL TO HAPPEN)


P.S. there is a success-part of it, i think i'm definitely free from pornography 8)
« Last Edit: May 07, 2015, 01:41:50 PM by g4px »



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Re: From Fappero to Hero
« Reply #10 on: June 08, 2015, 07:23:13 PM »
Great job, man! Keep going!

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i think it's harder when you have shit start(lack of friends, girls and social experience) than when you have some good friends and you are active from time to time with women. (1 year ago i did nofap unconsciously, i went to a bigger city with two old friends and we were in the same room, so fapping wasn't allowed :D, and it was the best month of my life, i was very happy, energetic, outgoing, confident and we had many goood experiences, met new great people, also girls - kisses, hugs, talking, having fun,

Staying around bros has its benefits, hasn't it?


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Re: From Fappero to Hero
« Reply #11 on: June 14, 2015, 03:29:04 PM »
social proof, competition, help, good talk, more fun, especially when they are as motivated, ambitious, positive etc. as you



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Re: From Fappero to Hero
« Reply #12 on: June 14, 2015, 08:25:54 PM »
Keep up the good work. I'm going to follow your progress.

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Re: From Fappero to Hero
« Reply #13 on: August 02, 2015, 01:49:10 PM »
It's been 165 days since i have started :O?
In conclusion i failed few times with MO - but when i realize that i MO'd 3 times in half year?? - it's fucking awesome progress. Sometimes before it, i used to accomplished it in one day and it was for few days in a row.

To be honest since February i once looked at porn photos intentionally but didn't reset counter, because it's a symbol of whole journey and it was first and last time and it would kill my motivation. I'm sincere so i confessed it. It's also awesome - ONCE in HALF YEAR? holy fuck!  ;D (no videos at all)

it's a good path :)

now i'm on 2 weeks vacation. This won't be easy  :o. From my experience - all fails was because of too much free time and lack of physical and mental activity. It was always during the weekend.
« Last Edit: August 02, 2015, 01:51:19 PM by g4px »



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