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Patrick

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Re: Patrick's Journal: A gay guy's imperfect reboot
« Reply #275 on: September 22, 2019, 04:09:45 AM »
Relapsed again on 9/22. I guess it was all too much. Anonymous sex in a gay sauna isn't the path to freedom if you want to recover from sex addiction. Duh! Living out porn fantasies without human connection is virtually (no pun intended) the same as pixel porn on the computer. I have to admit that I have a hard time letting go of the possibility to have sex with real men in a gay sauna. But it's a slippery slope from there. I'll see how it goes because at the moment I cannot say that I won't go back there.

Step 1: My pattern is to stay abstinent from porn for several months. Step 2: After a while I long for human contact and real sex. Step 3: I can't wait to have it and go to dating sites and places where I can meet men for sex. Step 4: These places are highly sexualised, well, duh again. Step 5: I still can't wait for the blossoming of a caring relationship and relapse in the end.

To be honest, the encounter I had before the anonymous one left me feeling satisfied (see post). So there is a chance to have good sex in a highly sexualised place. I just don't know if I can afford to go there. I'll keep you updated. Be well, guys!





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Re: Patrick's Journal: A gay guy's imperfect reboot
« Reply #276 on: September 23, 2019, 04:28:45 AM »
Sorry to read that you're suffering, Patrick. I feel for you. Must be incredibly difficult to use hook-up sites to make a physical connection, without then going onto P sites. I couldn't cope with that. Had to try to kill the two at the same time, but then how do you cope with the unsatisfied need for sex? Is there a way to find the physical connection without using the Internet? I must sound like I just dropped in from the stone age  :(.
Hope things stabilise for you soon.