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Re: 500 DAY UPDATE!!
« Reply #600 on: March 12, 2016, 12:19:28 AM »
Congrats on the monumental achievement, Lyon!!!

Who's a better role model than you? I want to echo the thanks from all the men who have benefited from the wisdom of your words and your amazing journey.

It is really wonderful that you stay so connected to the forum; to continue showing us the way and saving us from the missteps you encountered along your path. You inspire us to strive and thrive.


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Re: 500 DAY UPDATE!!
« Reply #601 on: March 13, 2016, 03:12:15 AM »
Congratulations, lyon! This is awesome. Thank you for your wisdom, love, encouragement, and inspiring posts. Here's to many more P free days :)


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Re: 500 DAY UPDATE!!
« Reply #602 on: March 13, 2016, 08:01:35 PM »
I cannot add to or improve on all the well-deserved kudos that you've received. 

Your work, your failures and your successes, and everything you tell us about them have been truly a blessing and an inspiration, Lyon03.

I'm just grateful that you continue to to participate in this forum, to share your thoughts and your wisdom.

Much love always,
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« Reply #603 on: March 17, 2016, 05:16:14 AM »
I woke up this morning with something I wanted to share. And what I wanted to share is that my reboot was never about my d*ck, it was about my heart & soul. Addiction was the natural result of a burning self-hatred. I get that now. I never felt complete so I naturally looked outside of myself to find something, or perhaps someone, to complete me. This inexorably led me to make a number of wrong choices. Shame became my base-line emotion and I wrongly did shameful things and sought out shameful people and situations thinking this was all I deserved. Sex is beautiful, natural and deliciously primal. But I took my God-given sexual urge and twisted it into something shameful. I did this. Porn didn't do this. It started with magazines, then masturbation, then videos, then internet porn, and finally meaningless hookups with countless men who wouldn't even tell me their names. Recent events in my life demonstrated that I still harbour residual shame about who I am and the mistakes I've made. I've struggled this past week and thought that a quick wank or hookup would make me feel better. But I did something different. I really felt these emotions and perhaps for the first time didn't hide from them. By accepting how I felt, I could then do things rather than let the feelings overwhelm me. Then I got back to work. I reached out to friends, posted here, exercised, worked, and generally tried to break the vicious cycle of shame and isolation that's always led me down the path to addiction. I did little things that brought joy into my life and brought joy to the people I love. I'm glad I did this. Today I feel shaky, but somehow stronger. And for perhaps the first time in my life, I feel like a weight has been lifted. Today I feel no shame and it's both freeing and terrifying. Why am I sharing this? I have no f*cking idea! But I'm putting it out there friends. I've done the porn reboot, life reboot, and now I'm doing a soul reboot. I can't wait to see what's next. Be well my friends. PORN IS NOT AN OPTION. 

 

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Re: THIS ISN'T ABOUT YOUR D*CK...IT'S ABOUT YOUR HEART/SOUL
« Reply #604 on: March 17, 2016, 11:24:43 AM »
Thank you for sharing your insights, lyon. This is a very touching post.


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Re: THIS ISN'T ABOUT YOUR D*CK...IT'S ABOUT YOUR HEART/SOUL
« Reply #605 on: March 18, 2016, 04:07:41 AM »
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I really felt these emotions and perhaps for the first time didn't hide from them.

Thank you for such an insightful post into your addiction. I think I'm beginning to understand my problem isn't necessarily porn, but my inability to deal with feelings.

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Re: THIS ISN'T ABOUT YOUR D*CK...IT'S ABOUT YOUR HEART/SOUL
« Reply #606 on: March 18, 2016, 05:32:21 AM »
Thanks for your post recent post, Lyon.  So, so true for me as well.  I am working very hard these days to see what triggers me, and it is almost always stress, anxiety, fear, or boredom rather than sexual desire.  I have just created a pattern - one that goes back to my school days - of sexualizing all of those emotions rather than facing them. 

I told my 12-step group yesterday that i was at an event where I had to sit for the better part of 3 hours and listen to various speakers on a video screen who had nothing to do with me.  I was the emcee, and once I handled my duties, everyone settled in to watch a live feed of a national meeting being streamed from another part of the country.  I sat on the front row, though, so I couldn't check my phone or read a book.  I just had to sit there.  The fantasy wheel started turning.  I went to my past and started trying to relive some old dominatrix encounters.  But I kept catching myself and coming back to the room, and the boredom.   Then I started trying to fantasize about things that never happened, with my wife, female friends, etc.  But after a few seconds, I'd catch myself and come  back to the room, realizing that I just needed to be present, be bored if necessary. 

This is my same pattern when I think about the challenges my kids face, about my wife's stressful work situation, about financial concerns that don't even exist yet, about work, etc.  I start running from these perceived monsters by going into a sexualized state, rather than turning around to befriend or slay the beast.    What courage it takes to be present.  How brave we are when we just take a moment for what it is and make the best of it. 

My heart and soul are at stake each time I opt to "honor my d*ck" by giving it a rise.  It's not an honor, though, it's a waste of its energy and purpose.  And it's subtly telling myself that I'm not in control, but I can be.  I can control my thoughts, and I can sit with the uncertainties and fears that typically send me running to the false safe haven of my porn-mind. 

I don't need to hide.  I just need to remind my d*ck who is in charge, and get on with things like meditation, exercise, work, and helping others.  Thanks for the reminder. 

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Re: THIS ISN'T ABOUT YOUR D*CK...IT'S ABOUT YOUR HEART/SOUL
« Reply #607 on: March 18, 2016, 06:11:36 AM »
Lyon, belated well done on a massive 500 days. Thank you for tremendous input to the Nation and the personal.support you have offered me. Having people who have demonstrated that this can be done is so important. Your input here has been and continues to be invaluable.
Your most recent post is very much my theme for the moment. Acceptance. I am learning that recovery and indeed happiness is all about understanding acceptance. Often we can't control our thoughts, what flashes across our mind is not in our control, but we do have choice of how we respond. Our choices are as I understand it are: craving resisting or acceptance. I have spent my life fluctuating between craving and resisting to any given stimuli. Both lead to from and to an unhappy mind. Acceptance allows what is to arise and pass with minimum resistance. Being in the moment with what is. That has got to be our greatest challenge and hope of deep meaningful recovery and happiness. Thank you Lyon for solid presence. Please keep coming back.
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Re: THIS ISN'T ABOUT YOUR D*CK...IT'S ABOUT YOUR HEART/SOUL
« Reply #608 on: March 18, 2016, 06:31:35 AM »
Thank you for your kind messages. If I've helped in any way, I'm humbled my friends. I should add that this is my personal journey so it'd be wrong for me to assume we're all following the same path. I'm just sharing, not lecturing I hope, about my truth. I am an addictive person and there is a long history of addiction in my family. I was on the phone with a fellow rebooter who seems to have given up porn relatively easily. This kind of pissed me off if I'm being honest. But it also reminded me that not everyone shares this 'life or death' struggle with porn addiction or addiction in general. I've learned that my life is an iceberg and just the top part, addiction, was visible. Like an iceberg, 9/10ths remained below the surface. But I had to expose and overcome my porn addiction in order to reveal the jagged memories, emotions, and coping mechanisms that resulted in my addiction. It may take 5, 50 or in my case 500+ days to expose what really caused the addiction. After all, addiction is just acting out. Now I'm working to mend my broken heart and soul to avoid all addictive behaviours. And with your love and support, I think I'm getting there. Thanks again my friends. ADDICTION IS NOT AN OPTION.   

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Re: THIS ISN'T ABOUT YOUR D*CK...IT'S ABOUT YOUR HEART/SOUL
« Reply #609 on: March 18, 2016, 07:05:02 AM »
Yes I would really identify with iceberg analogy. I think our acting out behaviours are the tip.
 So much to learn.
But once we the embrace the journey we can enjoy it too. Recovery needn't be torturous. Least not all the time. It surely must be fascinating and joyful too!

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Re: THIS ISN'T ABOUT YOUR D*CK...IT'S ABOUT YOUR HEART/SOUL
« Reply #610 on: March 18, 2016, 10:09:19 AM »
Thanks Lyon.  My experience is similar to yours.  I did also get naturally jealous when I meet someone that just walks in and drops the rock.  My twenty plus years of working on this, though, as also taught me that nobody gets a free pass.   Nobody.

Those that "dropped the rock" usually pick it back up when no one, including themselves, is looking.  We're actually better off then the "rock droppers," because we don't have the extreme consequences that they have after picking their rock back up - maybe five years later.  People like you and I, by staying close to the campfire, end up having far less severe consequences than those who dropped the rock and "moved on with their life."  Yah, right.

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Re: THIS ISN'T ABOUT YOUR D*CK...IT'S ABOUT YOUR HEART/SOUL
« Reply #611 on: March 18, 2016, 02:40:34 PM »
Sir, I take my hat of to you. Truly amazing.

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Re: RANDOM THOUGHTS
« Reply #612 on: March 21, 2016, 05:47:38 AM »
I'm 500+ days into my reboot and haven't watched porn since October 29, 2014. While posting on another thread, I shared some previous porn surfing techniques that made me feel rather ridiculous if I'm being honest. Thinking back to my former porn habits reminded me how much I've come along. I've also shared about how I continue to struggle with porn subs like Facebook, YouTube, and mindless screen surfing. Why is this a priority? As much as I've avoided coming to this conclusion, my internet/screen addiction is hurting my professional life. I'm going to start posting regularly about overcoming these porn subs and add a new counter.

Now that I've gone 16 months porn-free, I've learned a few things that I'll apply to this reboot from porn-subs, namely:

1. Hope: My dream is to wake up tomorrow and go porn-sub free for the rest of my life while working productively and without distraction for 8-10 hours. While this is my dream, that also leads to:

2. Accept: I've tried and failed to stop using porn-subs (like trashy TV, Google News Feeds, News Websites, YouTube, Facebook etc) for the past year. So I need to accept that these are all are addictions that continue to give me a secondary form of dopamine hit. So these need to be addressed in the same way I've overcome my porn addiction. I've accepted my current strategy - no plan; not sharing about them; and denying these are problems - isn't working. I've also accepted that hoping for an overnight miracle is a pipe-dream. 

3. Reflect: I'm going to apply the same techniques to my porn-sub addiction that helped me overcome my porn addiction.

4. Plan: So my plan is:

Step One: Set goals of 30 days without using my porn subs and I'm going to set a goal of total hours worked for the next 30.
Step Two: Create a counter for porn subs.
Step Three: Check in here daily with updates about my progress.
Step Four: Get a sobriety buddy who I can call/text daily to ensure I'm accountable.
Step Five: After the initial 30 days, review my progress, and set another 30, 60, or 90-day goal. 

5. Execute: It's time to be pro-active in this second stage of my recovery.

Thanks for reading my rambles friends. While I'm weary about this next step, I know it's necessary. PORN (AND PORN-SUBS) ARE NOT AN OPTION.
« Last Edit: March 21, 2016, 06:11:30 AM by lyon03 »

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Re: RANDOM THOUGHTS
« Reply #613 on: March 21, 2016, 10:20:30 AM »
I appreciate your honesty in your struggles and victories, Lyon- you are truly an inspiration.

Like yourself (a couple posts above), when you commented on someone who just 'dropped' their habit, I've thought on various struggles I've had down through the years. This one was/is certainly different. Smoking was difficult at age 19-20, marijuana at age 18-19, before that was other illicit behaviors that I just dropped- or changed from at my conversion experience.

Sex addiction was different, 20-plus years into it, and I'm finally seeing light at the end of the tunnel.

Like yourself, porn-subs are a danger. To avoid those equate for me to long term victories.

But may I ask you- are the porn-subs you're talking about actual sexualized things, or are they simply bad computer (or time management) habits? Are you simply calling them 'porn-subs' because they remind you of your [former] porn addiction? Or, are these actual sexualized things (with clothes on more or less) that might take you down wrong paths?

The reason to ask for this clarification is, I'm thinking, maybe you're being too hard on yourself? Though, of course it's important to curb time-wasters like FB. I certainly have my own strategies to enjoy FB, while at the same time, not let it take up too much of my time.

Peace.

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Re: RANDOM THOUGHTS
« Reply #614 on: March 21, 2016, 11:56:14 AM »
Thanks for reaching out brother. My porn-subs are all g-rated so none of these are gateway or 'middle circle' habits as they're often called in addiction parlance. I'm going by this definition of addiction:

"Addiction is a persistent, compulsive dependence on a behavior or substance."

Or my own definition which is something like, "No matter how much I get, it'll never be enough." Perhaps I am splitting hairs by calling YouTube, Facebook, and the like 'addictions' but I could see a familiar pattern developing. I'd start clicking rather than working. I was starting to lose time while mindlessly surfing, and I was going to bed even later. I've had a few episodes the past month where it was 2 a.m. and I was still reading stories about the presidential election. In essence, my g-rated internet habit felt a lot like my x-rated habit. That's why I've decided to undertake a secondary reboot.

Overkill? Perhaps. But I don't think my life will end if I stay off Facebook or YouTube for a month. So I'd prefer to go cold-turkey for 30 days, and then see if I can develop healthier internet habits.

I hope I addressed your questions/concerns. Thanks so much for checking in brother. I appreciate it.   
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Re: REBOOT PART 2
« Reply #615 on: March 21, 2016, 04:20:23 PM »
Day 1 w/out porn subs down. Just checking in at the end of the day. I've kicked the porn (500+ days porn-free) and am now working on porn subs. I reached my hourly work goals. I also made it through the day without my favourite subs like YouTube, news feeds (I LOVE following the train-wreck that is the election but resisted today), but did check Facebook for about 5 mins to write a friend's quick b-day message and to accept an Easter invitation. I'm deleting FB from my smartphone so I don't get the notifications which are too distracting/tempting. I'll check in again tomorrow. PORN (AND SUBS) ARE NOT AN OPTION.   
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Re: RANDOM THOUGHTS
« Reply #616 on: March 21, 2016, 04:23:40 PM »
Best of luck with your new endeavor, Lyon.

I've never been a fan of social media in any form, and I feel very fortunate that I never created a facebook account. However, I do understand how you view them as addictions as I have become quite addicted to this forum. I'm not worried about it, but I am conscious of it.

A similar pattern emerged when I joined AA. Today, I spend about 4 hours on week at meetings which I believe is completely healthy.


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Re: REBOOT PART 2
« Reply #617 on: March 21, 2016, 04:43:46 PM »
Thanks Harry. I don't think it's unhealthy to get obsessed about reboot/recovery in the beginning. However, I would try to avoid making this or similar sites an obsession. And I've just realized how ironic that must sound as I post for the 3rd time today! Enough. It's late here in Europe and I'm off to bed. Be well RN. Goodnight.

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Re: REBOOT PART 2
« Reply #618 on: March 22, 2016, 03:30:46 PM »
Day 2 w/out porn subs down. Today was more of a struggle as I spent quite a bit of time darting around the internet, but without using my favourite porn subs like Google News & YouTube. I was on Facebook briefly as I've recently made contact with my long-term partner's sister-in-law. She had a baby girl a few weeks ago. I don't have her cell so we communicate via FB and she wrote to confirm a brunch date next month. More on that later.

Why am I sharing this? Stick with me because there is a nugget of information near the end for rebooters who continue to relapse. Anyhow, my boyfriend is semi-closeted. It's also referred to as 'splitting' or 'compartmentalizing' in psycho-parlance. This means that he's out in the city where he lives/works and yet closeted when visiting his family in the country. Like me, he thought this was 'fine' but now that I'm out to everyone, it's causing problems between us. I now understand that 'fine' means anything but. I've long shared that my porn addiction was the result of a burning self-hatred because of my homosexuality. I recall coming out to my mother two years ago. [Gosh time flies.] I first came out to my sister and then decided to come out to my mom the next day. Right up until the half second before coming out, I thought I was fine. But when I started to say, "I'm ga....." I couldn't even say "gay", my sister had to, because I was so wracked with sobs. The emotional damn broke and I felt a flood of shame...35+ years worth really. It was as if I suddenly let down my guard and for the first time felt EVERYTHING that I'd hidden since my first gay feelings at age 5. It was overwhelming but necessary to overcome my addictions to porn, sex, and masturbation.

Back to my boyfriend, he's struggled to come out to his family. We're the same age, 44, and like me he's been lying to himself for most of his life. This is far too long to be healthy. And like me, he continues to claim that he's 'fine' even though his 'fine' armor is starting to crack. I can see the signs because I've been there. He recently claimed that he'll never come out to his family. I met his parents years ago and they clearly knew their son is gay. Even though I was introduced as just a 'friend', the knowing looks said it all. I've met a number of my partner's cousins and they all confirmed it - the whole family knows he's gay. And like most families, they're too scared to 'out' him for fear of losing him or shoving him off an emotional cliff. Stalemate. Then enter me. I refused to out my boyfriend or anyone else for that matter but now out/proud I was more than happy to help things along. While a gay man has to say, "I'm gay" to his own family, he very strongly hinted that he wanted someone to do it for him. So I contacted his sister-in-law via Facebook. "Hi, I'm _____'s boyfriend. I've heard a lot about you. Congratulations on the birth of your baby girl." Given her response, "I've heard all about you! Can't wait to meet you etc." An exchange of messages followed and this confirmed the family knows EVERYTHING. Technically this wasn't outing my boyfriend, that's his job, but I did tell him about the messages, becoming Facebook friends etc. He was relieved and yet adorably nervous about seeing both his brother and sister-in-law today. He says he's going to come out to his sister-in-law tomorrow...we always start with the women, rarely a man. When I asked him, "Are you scared?" I could hear all of the pain and suffering we all go through when we finally accept a long-held secret and then share it with others.

So what's my point? If you're relapsing over and over again, like I did, it's probably because you haven't uncovered the true cause of your addiction. I'm not suggesting everyone is gay, but I am suggesting that people who suffer from addictions are often using drugs or a behaviour like watching porn to hide something. It might be painful memories or perhaps abuse but it could be anything really. My advice is to reach out to another porn addict for help. Call this person a sponsor or sobriety buddy, but don't isolate. Posting here is one thing but having a weekly phone call with another human being helps so much. I know from experience. And it can't be your wife/partner/significant other. They have their own journey and it's unlikely you'll be 100% honest with a life partner. I'm not going to lie to you. It may take weeks, months or even years but don't give up until you've uncovered the dark secret that keeps leading you back to addiction. My dark secret was shame about being gay. While it is hard to confront a lifetime's worth of shame, it's the only way for me to overcome my addictions.

Thanks for reading my rambles friends. PORN (AND PORN SUBS) ARE NOT AN OPTION. 

   
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Re: REBOOT PART 2
« Reply #619 on: March 23, 2016, 05:26:01 PM »
Day 3 w/out porn-subs: Just about to go to bed friends. It was a choppy work day today and I didn't meet my goals. But I'm feeling relaxed and confident. It's a pleasure to go to bed without hours of porn on the brain and that queasy shame from having wasted another day of my life fapping in front of a screen. Had a great chat with my 12-step sponsor (I'm part of www.pornaddictsanonymous.org) which was a high, but then got sucked into to a sh*t-show of a telephone conversation with my ex-wife (low), then fun dinner with my boyfriend (high). So not a bad day. My ex-wife manages to mix compassion with both condemnation and guilt. Compassion: "How are you REALLY doing?" Condemnation: "[Our daughter] knows you're lying about your boyfriend." Guilt: "She didn't sleep very well Sunday night after staying with you. I know she's relieved to be staying home this weekend." I can't lie. She got under my skin but less than in previous go rounds. As many of you know, there is a dance when long-term couples fight. But reboot/recovery has changed me. What struck me was that she kept pausing as she waited for my normal reactions: an angry outburst or weak self-defence. But I didn't bite. I just listened silently and I guess that threw her off stride because her words got more intense/emotional. When she went in for round three or four, I lost count, I said a friendly, "So I'll see you and the kids Sunday morning for Easter? Have a good evening." Click. I can't lie. That click felt really f*cking great. I live to fight (porn subs) another day! Be well my friends. PORN IS NOT AN OPTION.     

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Re: REBOOT PART 2
« Reply #620 on: March 23, 2016, 07:39:00 PM »
Lyon

I just want to say that you're a true inspiration to me. 

Thanks for posting.

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Re: REBOOT PART 2
« Reply #621 on: March 24, 2016, 01:58:52 AM »
Day 4 w/out porn-subs. Morning gang. Now that I've slept on it, I finally accepted something about my current relationship. I've created a 80/20 split. That means I'm putting in 80% of the effort, while he's putting in about 20%. I don't write this with any anger, just with a sort of solemn realization. I realized this last night at dinner. He asked when I was coming to visit him...he lives about an hour away from me. I then thought, "Wait. I always come see you when the last time you stayed here was early February." As I journey through reboot/recovery, I find my ability to self delude is waning. I now see my relationships in the blinding light of sober honesty, rather than through the foggy lens of an addict's brain. My previous reaction would have been to suddenly and angrily exclaim, "It's over!" My addict response to any difficult situation or emotions would be to run, isolate, drug (with porn/sex), and then drug some more. I'm learning to break that cycle. It kind of feels like my b*lls are growing back...albeit slowly. So I've made a decision. Rather than b*tch about this situation to everyone else, what I used to do to justify situations or blame others for things that I'd largely created, I'm going to have a calm chat with my boyfriend about the kind of relationship I want, what I'm willing to do to get there, and for how long. If he's willing to put in the work to make this a more equal partnership, fantastic. But if he's not, I know my self-esteem will eventually erode to the point that I'll be back fapping in front of a screen to compensate and I don't want that future. I feel better for sharing this my friends. Thanks for reading. Be well fellow rebooters! PORN AND PORN SUBS ARE NOT OPTIONS.   
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Re: REBOOT PART 2
« Reply #622 on: March 25, 2016, 01:35:30 AM »
Day 0 w/out porn-subs. Good morning from Europe everyone. I'm just checking in before starting work. I've re-set my porn-sub counter to zero as I was all over Facebook yesterday in a porn-like way. I am still off YouTube and the news feeds though. Why am I doing this? My g-rated internet habits were becoming much too similar to my former x-rated porn habits. As someone with an addictive personality, I want to avoid the slippery slope. I also want to develop healthier internet habits hence this 30-day goal which I'm restarting today. So while I am still porn-free, and damn proud of it, I've reset my counter to go porn-sub-free. I've re-set my reboot goal to 2 years. These are honest steps I think. Wish me luck my friends! PORN AND PORN-SUBS ARE NO LONGER AN OPTION.
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Re: REBOOT PART 2
« Reply #623 on: March 26, 2016, 03:30:17 AM »
Day 1 w/out porn-subs. Good morning from Europe nation. Yesterday was a bit of a sh*t-show which demonstrates that my addiction to porn-subs (YouTube, Facebook, Newsfeeds etc) is a deeper problem than I initially thought. I had a lot of trouble concentrating, didn't sleep very well, was obsessing about my relationship and MOed which is something I rarely do anymore. I'm also wondering if this is the right forum to keep posting about a general cyber addiction as I haven't watched porn in over 500+ days. Your thoughts? Today the sun is shining, I'm going to go for a run, then gym, and then do some of the work/things I didn't accomplish yesterday. Shame was a huge part of my porn addiction. I used porn to hide from negative emotions (like shame) and yet porn then made me feel more ashamed, which led to me using more porn. It was a downward spiral. I don't feel ashamed per se about my porn-sub addictions, and they are truly addictions, perhaps because they are g-rated. So while yesterday was tough I remain committed to reaching 30 days (and beyond) without them. A friend gave me some great advice, "You're a hell of a lot further along in this journey than just a year ago." So yes I need to count my blessings, get organized, stay pro-active, and strangle the sh*t out of this last part of my addiction. Feeling better now that I've shared here. PORN AND PORN-SUBS ARE NOT AN OPTION.   

UPDATE: I've moved my posts to another thread: http://www.rebootnation.org/forum/index.php?topic=8545.0. Rather than clog up this original thread which mainly dealt with porn addiction, I'm going to post about my porn-sub journey there. Feels like the right thing to do. Wish me luck!
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Re: REBOOT PART 2
« Reply #624 on: March 26, 2016, 06:48:00 PM »
A fellow rebooter made an excellent observation that I'm happy to share here. What I'm referring to as 'porn subs' was incorrect. I'm not looking at any adult/sexual content online, nor have I jerked off to screens. So I'm going to refer to my reboot 2.0 as recovering from 'cyber addiction.' I'll better define my goals in the next few days but in general I want to better control my use of g-rated websites like Facebook, YouTube, and Google News. Goodnight!