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Just a thought
« on: February 06, 2020, 01:50:00 PM »
Last night I was watching videos on YouTube about castles. I started watching a video about the Game of Thrones show. Suddenly there was a scene with a beautiful woman and a man and it looked like it was heading towards some kind of sexuality. A bell rang my head saying “I should turn this off”. But I felt a mesmerizing fiery urge to keep watching so I ignored it. Fortunately my wife walked into the room and I turned it off. Latter I realized I could of fallen off a cliff. Past experiences that started with just one sexually charged image have ruined my sobriety. I can think of two lessons that I learned. For me I cannot watch YouTube, or TV for that matter, when I’m alone until I’m strong enough to do it. Also I need to listen to the bell in my head, that feeling in my gut and take action immediately. Because next time I might not be so lucky. I think people here know that feeling?