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Freddy

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #50 on: January 01, 2020, 06:20:14 AM »
Day 34, no libido nor MW yet to be seen anywhere, a line flat as pampas.  In it for the long run though so not stressing out. Will try to continue hard mode for a while still although the Mrs might expect some action soon.


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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #51 on: January 01, 2020, 09:56:54 AM »
Keep it up man, you're really doing the best thing, especially for the Mrs. It will be worth the wait!!!!  You can do it
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Freddy

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« Reply #52 on: January 01, 2020, 02:06:58 PM »
Keep it up man, you're really doing the best thing, especially for the Mrs. It will be worth the wait!!!!  You can do it

Thanks,
I am quite confident and relaxed this time, just truly hoping to get rid of the PIED and to be able to connect again and be present in a more normal way.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #53 on: January 02, 2020, 06:51:03 AM »
Day 35, almost relapsed due to some stupid dating advertisement which made me browse the offering. Stopped though before any MO entered into the picture. Damn this addiction is difficult.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #54 on: January 03, 2020, 02:22:40 AM »
Day 36, sex with wife yesterday, managed to maintain an erection ok. Hit the gym and cold shower after.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #55 on: January 04, 2020, 03:27:14 AM »
Day 37, managing nicely again. Weird tingeling sensation in my balls.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #56 on: January 05, 2020, 05:34:45 AM »
Day 38, nightly ejaculation again out of nowhere.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #57 on: January 06, 2020, 02:05:20 AM »
Day 39, slight morning wood waking up this morning. Some mood swings(irritable) yesterday.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #58 on: January 07, 2020, 01:05:29 PM »
Day 40, everything as normal, no urges for p, flatlining I guess.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #59 on: January 08, 2020, 01:21:12 PM »
Day 41, had some strange sudden urge to view classifieds yesterday. Looked for a while but was boored. Stopped without even M.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #60 on: January 08, 2020, 02:56:16 PM »
Good job for not M-ing. I guess being bored is a good thing here.
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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #61 on: January 10, 2020, 11:35:42 AM »
Day 43, totally flatlining, no urges, no P, no M, no O, no Sex. Feeling alright otherwise though and hit the gym, sauna and took a cold shower afterwards.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #62 on: January 12, 2020, 12:34:39 AM »
Day 45, urges are back and my mind is trying to play tricks on me again.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #63 on: January 13, 2020, 03:33:31 AM »
Day 46, same situation still with bad urges and my mind playing tricks on me. Happy with 46 days without a complete relapse though.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #64 on: January 15, 2020, 03:12:50 AM »
Day 48, still no relapse. However I feel my fantasies are still strong and I am at the verge of completely relapsing from time-to-time. Need to find some new measure to deal with the urges and fantasies in order to manage to completely reboot. Still proud of the 48 days without PMO though.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #65 on: January 16, 2020, 07:19:55 AM »
Day 49, had a "slight" relapse last night and watched some light porn. No PMO though. Thought about resetting the counter to punish myself but think I will balance it by having two counters for a while at least.

49 days since PMO, 0 days since P.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #66 on: January 17, 2020, 03:55:45 AM »
Day 50 no PMO
Day 1 hard mode.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #67 on: January 17, 2020, 11:03:56 AM »
Good of you to be lenient to yourself. It's not the end of the world and also part of the difficult process. Keep on going strong.
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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #68 on: January 17, 2020, 01:19:38 PM »
Agree, no problems or cravings today, lucky me.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #69 on: January 18, 2020, 02:08:09 AM »
Day 51 no PMO, day 2 hard mode.

My sex drive is playing tricks on me again - or, is back. Some MW yesterday and today, in general I feel like having sex. Dangerous because I know my mind will try to make me relapse when I am in this state.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #70 on: January 19, 2020, 08:51:12 AM »
Hey Freddy, I can relate with the need for sex and the danger for relapsing. Especially when there is no chance of sex.

So on the other hand you have a sex drive, which is good and healthy. But with no release it adds extra tension to the possibility of relapsing..

Maybe you can approach it from the positive side: Yes, I have a sex drive and I'm in need of sex. This means that stopping porn is working. I am actually achieving what I'm struggling so hard for. Maybe this will help you through these difficult times.

Good luck
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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #71 on: January 20, 2020, 04:44:50 PM »
Day 53 no PMO, day 4 hard mode. Going nicely again, staying away from the bad stuff.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #72 on: January 21, 2020, 07:06:34 AM »
Sounds like you've got things back on track. Nicely done!

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #73 on: January 28, 2020, 05:56:35 AM »
Day 61, still on track, P or M whatsoever in the past week, real sex once... Some night and morning wood. Hitting the gym a lot.

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Re: Getting my life back
« Reply #74 on: January 29, 2020, 02:25:25 AM »
Day 62, feeling healthier, some MW. Lost a couple of kilos and gained some muscle over the past weeks. Will try to continue the good development.