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« Reply #50 on: December 04, 2014, 12:07:49 AM »
Great progress brother. We're all rooting for you. With regards to MO, perhaps it comes down to what you do and how you feel after climax. If MO is just like the addiction without the P and leaves you with feelings of shame and guilt, perhaps it's best to give your d*ck (and brain) a bit of a rest. For me I stopped PMO completely and let me write that I REALLY loved my masturbation. That's my two cents. Stay strong. PORN IS NOT AN OPTION.

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« Reply #51 on: December 07, 2014, 05:54:18 PM »
Hey buddy
Forward ever. You're on 42 days PMO free. That's great. Keep that focus. You can do it.

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« Reply #52 on: December 09, 2014, 05:34:12 PM »
Thanks, guys.  Still struggling with MO, but working on it :-\    I still come to this site for motivation and for the wisdom of the others posting here.  I'm going to go work out - it helps me to relieve stress (which is a trigger for me).


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« Reply #53 on: December 11, 2014, 05:56:49 PM »
Still struggling with MO, but working on it :-\   I'm going to go work out - it helps me to relieve stress (which is a trigger for me).
I know 2H, I have empathy with you and this trigger. I am confident that you have the resources within to see it through. For me too, a workout routine is a good way to handle it. And having a workout buddy or personal trainer is even better. It helps keeping that workout commitment. 

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« Reply #54 on: December 11, 2014, 05:57:59 PM »
 8) btw, 4 days no MO is great

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« Reply #55 on: December 23, 2014, 12:25:04 AM »
Hi 2H
Just checking in to say Hi! Haven't forgotten about you :D
Rooting for you.

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« Reply #56 on: December 23, 2014, 07:48:18 AM »
Yes 2H -

Hope all is going well with you!

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« Reply #57 on: December 24, 2014, 11:56:52 AM »
Thanks, guys.  Still having problems with the MO, but PMO is still in check. Been keeping busy so haven't been on here much.  I need to get back to reading journals - they keep me motivated.  Thanks for checking on me Horpio and SMS.


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« Reply #58 on: December 28, 2014, 08:55:51 PM »
No sweat brother. You're doing good on the no PMO, and that's your goal aint it? 63 Days no PMO is awesome. 

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« Reply #59 on: December 28, 2014, 09:21:47 PM »
Actually, Horpio, it's more like 155 days on the PMO.   I just haven't had the nerver to attempt to correct the counter.  Always afraid it will reset to zero and mess it up...lol. 

I'm happy about the PMO, I'm disappointed in the MO.  I just can't seem to beat that one and I know it's probably the key to my healing - or at least why it's taking so long.


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« Reply #60 on: December 29, 2014, 01:35:17 AM »
Wow 155 days no-PMO, congratulations! What is your goal with MO? Perhaps if you set a goal and created a counter for this MO-free goal, you could then focus on the success (positive) rather than avoiding a negative behaviour (negative). Be well brother. MASTURBATION IS NOT AN OPTION.

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« Reply #61 on: December 30, 2014, 06:15:47 AM »
Hi 2heal,

We will be happy to fix your counter for you if it gets stuck at zero or you cannot set it to the correct value.

Best wishes,
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« Reply #62 on: December 30, 2014, 05:39:12 PM »
Thanks, PMO-Tracker!  You gave me the 'courage' to reset it...and it worked just fine.  I won't worry about it in the future!  Thanks!


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« Reply #63 on: December 30, 2014, 07:35:15 PM »
 :) Now look at you, leap-frogged us all to 157. That's awesome buddy.

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« Reply #64 on: January 29, 2015, 11:23:35 PM »
Just checking in.  It's been awhile since I've been here.  I'm still hanging on here, but I need to get back on the forum for the support I was getting.  MO is still a problem.  I need to work on that area for sure.  I joined a gym and started a weight lifting program, so I'm keeping myself occupied.  I feel better about myself. 


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« Reply #65 on: January 30, 2015, 08:17:41 PM »
2heal

I feel your pain. I tried rebooting for a year without results although I masturbated from time to time. I then went 4 months without PMO. Got great erections during the night. When I tried to have sex with my wife it wasn't successful. I'm very frustrated and just want to be able to get a firm erection.
I attempt to have sex with my wife from time to time but no positive results thus far.
Are you having any positive results yet?

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« Reply #66 on: January 30, 2015, 11:05:30 PM »
Hi, tachieman.  I've been getting good erections at night.  If I were to have sex first thing in the morning when I have a morning erection, I might be successful, but being single, haven't had the opportunity to try.  Otherwise, I get enough of an erection for satisfactory oral sex, but I start to lose it when I attempt penetration.  I too am frustrated.  I haven't gone PMO free for a year yet.  I still MO on occasion.  The longest stretch I've been able to hold out is 14 days.  I'm thinking I might need to commit to no MO for an extended period and see if that helps.  I'm kind of at wits end and want it back so bad.  I've read through forum after forum but haven't read of an account of someone my age (55) that has PMO'd as long as I have getting 100% back to normal with every attempt.  There are varying degrees of success and I don't mean to say it doesn't or hasn't happened, but I haven't run into an account as close as mine to know if they completely overcame the problem.  I read where a guy says he has had successful sex, but then might flatline and be awhile before he is successful again.  Again, I don't mean to say it doesn't or hasn't happened, I just haven't read a case like mine that has.

I'm going to attempt to no MO and see if I get anywhere.  I am so frustrated.


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« Reply #67 on: January 31, 2015, 02:36:26 AM »
Dude, be easy on yourself.  Night erections, hard for oral sex...that's a lot more than I get.  Give it time, it will come.  And in the meantime, enjoy some head!  :D


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« Reply #68 on: January 31, 2015, 02:21:38 PM »
I would be interested in hearing how long it took guys over 50 to be cured and able to get a firm erection for sex.
I am willing to keep rebooting but I want to know that I will be cured down the road.

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« Reply #69 on: July 18, 2015, 09:53:59 PM »
I've been away for awhile.  Needless to say, I gave in and fapping (to porn) became a habit again.  I had some degree of success before, so I know it was helping.  I had the opportunity for intimacy last night and was unable to perform.  I'm sick at myself for letting this go and giving in again.  I am recommitting to this.  Before I concentrated on porn exclusion only.  I continued to MO on occasion which I think was a big mistake.  I plan to remove porn and masturbation totally.  I'm committing to doing this, eating healthy, working out, meditating and becoming a better person.


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« Reply #70 on: July 25, 2015, 10:08:28 PM »
Hey. I have found meditation to be a great help. There's a free app Headspace that walks you through how to meditate. It is extremely helpful. I would stop worrying about the counter and realize what your goals are. All the success stories on here have a basic theme. They all wanted something more then what they were getting from porn or texting or chat rooms. Connect with real people. I have found doing this on hard mode sucked for the fist ten days and then I have kind of gotten into a calm. When an urge hits I take a cold shower. Or mediate. Keep it in mind it is a lifestyle change. Finally, stay away from anything that gives you a dopamine spike. I mean anything. For the longest time for me it was a lot of caffeine in the morning . You can do this.