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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #25 on: December 09, 2014, 11:06:51 PM »
Day 1
Hey guys, I'm back. I did relapse, but I've learned to keep on trying and that success takes many failures. So here I am. Gonna try my best until I stop my PMO addiction. I have a huge headache so I'm going to go to bed. Had major urges today, but I stopped them by playing Basketball and doing homework. No flashbacks so far. Until tomorrow- Rec101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #26 on: December 10, 2014, 09:09:47 AM »
Good to see you're back mate!
Keep holding on and who knows how far you'll get this time!

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #27 on: December 11, 2014, 03:28:32 AM »
Day 2
Thanks for your guys' support! I really appreciate it and it helps ALOT. It feels like my counter is off though. I know I PMOed 2 days ago, but when it goes to 7days I'll reset it. I know it doesn't make sense now but it will a week from now. Anyway, no major urges cuz I've been reading most of the time, but when I'm not the urges are strong. Tomorrow I'm going to start studying the recovery process more and what I need to do to have a good reboot. Sorry for the short content, but I'm doing these late at night before I sleep.- Rec101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #28 on: December 12, 2014, 02:51:19 AM »
Day3
Today we had our holiday concert. And school is cancelled tomorrow since there's a storm coming. I  am going to have a lot of homework during the weekend. The urges we're strong today. I've have minor flashbacks and fantasies pop into my head every now and then, but I just slap myself and try to focus on the task at hand. It's really late, and I need my energy because I have plans this weekend. Until next time-Rec101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #29 on: December 14, 2014, 02:14:27 AM »
Day 5
Sorry I forgot to post yesterday. Mostly because I was out and when I came home I just dropped...
The urges were really strong,but I just opened a book and read. It's a really good way to pass time and keep your mind of PMO. I've mentioned before that I have lower back pains, but now that pain has extended to my right shoulder joint on my back. It hurts if I try to reach for something with my right arm. Good thing I'm left hand dominant. Lol. Is there any chance that this pain will go away anytime soon? Feel free to tell me your guys' response. Thanks, Until next time- Rec101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #30 on: December 16, 2014, 03:13:23 AM »
Day 7
Yesterday the urges were really really strong. I started touching myself for like 3 seconds then stopped and asked myself, "is another relapse really worth it?" I had made up my mind quickly and said no and went outside to practice basketball. Since I've reacted my goal of 7days tomorrow I will my goal 2weeks and when I achieve that I'll keep expanding it. Thanks to all of you who still have faith in me. I know I'll fall along the way, but that doesn't mean I'll stay down and give up. I will keep fight and praying to god until i conquer this addiction. -Rec101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #31 on: December 22, 2014, 01:00:48 AM »
Day 0
Sorry for not posting, but I've been busy the whole week getting Christmas Decorations up. Anyway I relasped...well my version on relapse. In this reboot my goal is to not to PMO, avoid P and MO, and basically not ejaculate besides in wet dreams. Well I didn't watch P, but I did ejaculate. I was playing a video game and there was a nude seen and I got aroused...and you can guess what happened next. I'm not proud of what I've done, but that's what I'm here for: to get over this PMO addiction. And I'm not going to quit no matter what. -Rec101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #32 on: December 22, 2014, 01:35:57 AM »
I think a good idea would be to stop watching P. If you have any files in your computer, USB, tablet, mobile phone, video console, (well, you get the point), etc., you MUST delete them. If you have any sex magazines, throw them to the trash can or burn them or whatever you want, but get rid of them.

I consider you should not focus on PMO altogether, but only in P. In my case, once P was entirely removed, my masturbation frequency dropped to around once a week. I no longer feel the need to orgasm anymore unless my body really aches for it. And when that happens, believe me, you won't need any porn.

P always lead to M and edge or to MO. But when you are very horny because you've been abstinent for some time, M does not call for P to get a good O. I think that M when your body is telling you it wants some sexual-tension release is good, but watching P --to MO or not-- is a bad idea. Tell us what you think.

Keep going.
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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #33 on: December 23, 2014, 03:50:06 AM »
Day1
Today has been pretty tough. Temptations are pretty strong but somehow I'm more than able to get over them now. I now realize that rebooting is not easy, especially the first couple week, but from reading the success stories, I know that it's possible. Thanks for all of your advice and support, and ever since I started his reboot, I've never given less than %100. So I will keep giving %100 until this PMO addiction stops. Until next time -Rec101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #34 on: December 23, 2014, 06:52:40 AM »
Day 30 here, I'm feeling like shit.. Never in my whole life, I've felt this worse. I've had symptoms of pretty much every disease, but nothing in diagnosis.

Im 17, and I've missed my college for like almost 2 weeks now.

Body pain, Muscle spasms, Sinus infections, Hay fever, Allergic Rhintis, Anxiety, Slight Tremors/Shaking, Fatigue, Irregular breathing, Anxiety Attacks... etc -.-

Anxiety is taking a big toll on me.

It's so freaking hard, all this can go away, with just one P session.. But I've come up so far.. I cannot give up now.
« Last Edit: December 23, 2014, 06:56:20 AM by Saadz »

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #35 on: December 24, 2014, 03:19:42 AM »
Day2
So one of the reasons of why I'm rebooting is because of my acne. I'm in middleschool and I'm about to be in highschool next year, and I want girls o be attracted to me. Other than PMO, Acne is really affecting my self confidence. And if you guys say that "M doesn't cause acne." Well I can say that that's %100 load of bullshit (lol) cuz everytime I go a certain period without PMO or MO, the breakouts start to lessen. When I relapse and PMO, the breakouts get worse. So hopefully if i can make it more than 2 weeks without PMO, maybe I won't have that much acne next year in highschool. Also, I'm going to change my diet and excrsise more (my New Year's Resolution). Anyway, the day went by pretty fast today, believe it or not. Mostly I was out of the house cuz of Christmas shopping, and when I got home, I just played guitar and looked up online lessons on guitar lessons. The urges weren't that strong today. I'm managing to keep my mind of PMO and on other things. Until next time - Rec101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #36 on: December 27, 2014, 02:10:43 AM »
Day4
Well I'm happy to say that I'm still going strong on this reboot. I haven't been posting in the past few days because of the holidays. My whole family is having a gathering at my grandparents for New Years. It's pretty hard to find time to post with ur cousins always hanging around you. I barely even have time now. I'm sharing a room with 3 other ppl! The temptations are there but are immediately denied at the moment Cuz I'm with other ppl. I've metioned my Lowe back pain before, and it's still there, but the more I go without PMO, it seems to be fading away little by little. Anyway I better get back to bed before one of my cousins wake up and wonders what doing. I'll try and find more time to post and update. Until next time-Rec101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #37 on: January 02, 2015, 03:37:52 PM »
Day 11 Part 1
Happy New Year! I know I'm a bit late, but i was spending time with my family and had no time to post. Anyway, I'm got home late last night and this morning I woke up and my underwear was wet. Yup that's right! I had a wet dream. But the wierd thing is that I have no memory of what I dreamed of. Ussualy when I have wet dreams and wake up I remember it for awhile, but now I don't. This has happened twice. Is it normal? Is it because of the reboot? Plz feel free to post and tell me what you think. On to other news, the urges are REALLY STRONG! As usual the second week is a bitch for me. I can never seem to get past it, but now I have the confidence that I can. I'm praying to God for the strength to get over this addiction, and now I have the power. I will post later tonight. -Rec101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #38 on: January 03, 2015, 08:26:20 AM »
Day 11 Part 1
Happy New Year! I know I'm a bit late, but i was spending time with my family and had no time to post. Anyway, I'm got home late last night and this morning I woke up and my underwear was wet. Yup that's right! I had a wet dream. But the wierd thing is that I have no memory of what I dreamed of. Ussualy when I have wet dreams and wake up I remember it for awhile, but now I don't. This has happened twice. Is it normal? Is it because of the reboot? Plz feel free to post and tell me what you think. On to other news, the urges are REALLY STRONG! As usual the second week is a bitch for me. I can never seem to get past it, but now I have the confidence that I can. I'm praying to God for the strength to get over this addiction, and now I have the power. I will post later tonight. -Rec101

Wet dreams are very normal when you keep yourself away from orgasms for some time. If you can't O during sex or M, at one point you'll ejaculate while you're asleep.



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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #39 on: January 04, 2015, 02:32:51 AM »
Day 11 Part 2
Sorry for posting part 2 so late. I had ALMOST relapsed cuz I wasn't thinking and the urges were so strong. I prayed to God and managed to keep my self together for the rest of the day dwelling on other things. This wasn't my first time over coming a huge urge like this and I know that there will be more to come, but I will be prepared and ready with God on my side when they come.-Rec101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #40 on: January 04, 2015, 02:50:15 AM »
Day 12
So last night one reason I did not relapse was I was watching this show called Jessie on Disney Channel Cuz y not, and I saw the most beautiful girl who guest starred. I looked her up on google and said to myself "one day I want to meet someone this pretty" then I realized that was not going to happen with getting over my PMO Addiction. So now I found another motive to push me into getting over PMO and I have become more determined to do so. Today, I was mostly out of the house because it's my little sister's 11th b-day. We had lunch at the Cheese Cake Factory, and personally I give them 4.5-5 Stars. XD So the urges were really small today because Im focused on other things. I started working out again today becuz it's one of my New Year's Resolutions. And it feels great. It really takes some stress out, and give u a bit more confidence in yourself. Remember when I talked about my ance issues? Well if u do, they have gotten ALOT BETTER! They are starting to fade and dry up. What I'm really concerned about now are the scars they have left behind. If anyone who is reading this has a natural way to get rid of ance scars or any other advice plz feel free to post. Until next time-Rec101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #41 on: January 04, 2015, 04:44:17 PM »
Go to a dermatologist.



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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #42 on: January 06, 2015, 10:21:05 PM »
Day 15
The urges go on and off. For the past couple days, I haven't felt the urges that much cuz I've been pretty busy. I started working out again 2 days ago. It feels good. The stress just fades away. I know this is a short post, but I don't really have much to post. Until next time-Rec101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #43 on: January 07, 2015, 12:19:59 AM »
Good job Recovery101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #44 on: January 08, 2015, 06:04:41 PM »
It's great to see you're working out again!

Keep that up man, I also feel the urges when I'm in less of a good mood but exercise works great for that :)

Just noticed you almost reached your goal and that's great!
Let's try to keep this up together as we're at the same amount of days :)

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #45 on: January 13, 2015, 01:31:08 AM »
Day 21
Well I can honestly say, damn....I did not think I would make it this far. Maybe I should start having more self confidence. The urges are only really there if I think about them. Other than that, they are practically gone! In other news, I've been working out and feeling great. There more free time in my hands to do other things more productive. My health is doing pretty ok...my back pains are somehow getting worse-ish, but the old saying is things have go get worse before they get better right? So hopefully that clears up a bit of the pain. So one advice I would give to all of you guys out there struggling with relapsing is to find something or someone you're willing to commit yourself to. It may seem like hell at first, but eventually things will look up...-Rec101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #46 on: January 17, 2015, 03:14:35 AM »
Day 25
So today I went on my first date!  ;D I feel like I can do anything now.  If you're wondering what we did, all we did was watch a movie and get frozen yogurt afterwards. It might not be a big fancy restaurant, but that's the best could afford with my allowance. Lol. So that's how I spent my Friday Night. Anyway, on to recovery. 2 days ago I had a wet dream, but there were barely any urges after that. Yesterday, fantasies of P kept flashing in and out of my head, but I try to think about something else. The urges were very strong today before and after my date. But when I was on my date, her beauty kept my mind off the urges. Lol. I've also started to get into playing basketball. I can now do crossovers (don't judge man, took me a long time to perfect it). But when I play basketball or do any physical activity, too long my back starts to hurt. I knew that lower back pain is one of the symptoms of PMO. Does anyone else have lower back problems from PMO too? If so, have you gotten over it? Feel free to post below. Until next time-Rec101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #47 on: January 17, 2015, 03:30:54 AM »
Tell me how I live at the university and I spent my Friday night smoking weed and chilling with  my roommate haha. Congrats kids

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #48 on: January 23, 2015, 02:17:50 AM »
Day 31
Feeling absolutely AMAZING! I've made it through my first month of this reboot! The urges are non-existent unless I think about it. Same with the urges. My lower back pain has eased a bit, and I feel energetic and happy. Before I go any further, sorry I haven't been posting as much. 8th Grade is more stressful than it seems. I've had so much homework and little free time. Its getting pretty late, I'll try to post tomorrow night too. Until next time -Rec101

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Re: Time for A Fresh Start
« Reply #49 on: January 23, 2015, 01:09:47 PM »
Ha wait till youre in university little buddy. Its gonna get hectic! Having this addiction and brain fog in Uni is killing me!