Author Topic: 19th birthday but still depressed , need help from anyone. please reboot nation  (Read 1834 times)

rcl5354

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 50
  • Personal Text
    this reboot is a beast but gotta take it head on
    • View Profile
Hey everyone my name is Robert. I'm 19 today and I've been rebooting since July 15, 2014. I knew I needed to quit porn use and masterbaition because it was affecting my life. I had PIED so bad I couldn't even get it up with porn anymore. What was even scarier was that my porn tastes started to creep out of my sexual orientation. I grew up straight, but as my porn use got worse, I used gay porn a couple times to get off. I always felt disgusted with myself afterwards. Then, after I couldn't get erections worth a shit, I found this website. I watched Gabes' videos and began to have hope. Ive been doing this reboot cold turkey. Now, if I think of a certain girl I can actually get a half erection sometimes even more. Doesn't seem like much but its a lot of progress for someone in my position. Recently, I just started having wet dreams. Not so bad, but they involved gay things that made me feel unnatural when I woke up with my dick all wet. Fast forward a few more gay wet dreams and now I'm afraid to sleep. I haven't been able to sleep at all because I'm afraid of having wet dreams that might have gay things in it. (Please do not think I'm anti gay, but I always thought I was straight, I had a gf and I had my first crush in a girl in 1st/2nd grade). Please anyone help me, I literally pray and pray that I won't have these weird dreams and I never sleep. Its affecting my life badly. If anyone can give me advice, I would be very grateful. Please rebooters, a fellow Rebooter needs help. Sometimes my thoughts get to me. Like am I going to be able to have kids? Am I ever gonna find women sexually attractive again? Will I ever be at peace? Have I been gay all these years and never knew it? These questions keep me up at night.

Marko7776

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 96
    • View Profile
Hey man! stop being depressed. You have 209 days, 209 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!! and you are probably not gay man, I've reached some crazy stuff too.. Just keep going! Porn dreams/flashbacks will fade over time. Also I don't think fantasizing is a good idea (as most people here) so you shouldn't fantasize.

rcl5354

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 50
  • Personal Text
    this reboot is a beast but gotta take it head on
    • View Profile
Even though I had gay wet dreams ? Now all I think about in my day is the gay wet dreams and I don't want to but they stand out in my mind. & yeah I've been porn free for a while. I've accidentally run into some mudes while on YouTube or while on Google so I've limited my internet use so I don't bump into things like that. & I always loved girls but yeah all these gay thoughts are depressing me. How do I sleep? Let the dreams happen?

Marko7776

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 96
    • View Profile
Yes, let it happen and do not overthink them

rcl5354

  • Member

  • Offline
  • **

  • 50
  • Personal Text
    this reboot is a beast but gotta take it head on
    • View Profile
Thank u man. Just this little conversation has brought me some help!