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Transformation, a New life!
« on: October 04, 2014, 02:58:23 PM »
Hi everybody

I am Arya  I’m very glad to be among you , like most people I ‘been struggling porn since young age, I tried to stop it many times but still haven’t achieved my goal , my best score till today were about 35 days without porn…

So I set a goal of 90 days without porn today, and will be writing my journal here. During my years of struggle I learned that the things caused my failure most of time were: being fooled by my mind tricks when it says: just watch for 1 minute, or “there is no harm in watching porn” etc..., and I found that mostly when I am in a bad mood or tired porn is more powerful to overcome me so I think being happy and in good mood, also making yourself busy with your favorite works is very effective in passing hard times!

I am really overwhelmed by damn porn and want to finish it this time and get my life back!  I ask for your support best wishes and positive energies !  :D :)


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Re: Transformation, a New life!
« Reply #1 on: October 05, 2014, 04:36:05 AM »
If you have gone 35 days without porn in the past then you are strong enough to go all the way, good luck.
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Re: Transformation, a New life!
« Reply #2 on: October 07, 2014, 03:23:02 PM »
My third day of reboot went well , my energy is restoring , so it's not at high level to fight me yet, I hope I'll be powerful enough to confront it when it's high!

maybe the biggest problem in rebooting is that of course you can pass the tests when you are happy and fresh ( in a good mood ) but that's a big challenge to pas it when you are not good and it's much more harder to be in control!



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« Reply #3 on: October 07, 2014, 03:41:38 PM »
Good luck  ;)

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Re: Transformation, a New life!
« Reply #4 on: October 09, 2014, 09:47:44 AM »
I had rough day today , heavy pressure was on me till night, but it passed finally. no emotion is permanent so if we bear enough and wait it will pass , the tip is to stay in control in hard times :)

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« Reply #5 on: October 11, 2014, 05:16:22 PM »
I am very glad to complete my first week of porn free life boys ;D I feel like rebuilding my self ! Wish you all the best  ;)


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« Reply #6 on: October 12, 2014, 02:27:07 AM »
I pas ten days my general mood was average, not too bad not perfect! sexual pressure were with almost every hour. but everyday some little changes happens, my general symptoms are my body feels pressure and hot, I feel sort of pain in my bones.

I already experienced some addiction recovery symptoms, most of them will disappear  in less than 1 month I think.


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« Reply #7 on: October 21, 2014, 04:46:47 AM »
amazing!

I feel more active and energetic, i became more cheerful and outgoing , my self confidence and power of self expression is increasing ! yeah! Thanks GOD ! Thanks All! ;D :D

 
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« Reply #8 on: October 21, 2014, 04:54:13 PM »
Good work Arya, keep plugging man.

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« Reply #9 on: October 21, 2014, 05:11:38 PM »
Good work man! keep it up and try to stay positive. DOnt forget thought that this process can have its UPS and DOWNS, so if you dont stay feeling this great dont get discouraged! its a long process! You got it man =)

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« Reply #10 on: October 25, 2014, 03:28:00 PM »
I have to admit I never felt this much power and confidence at least in last 3-4 years. since I started rebooting.


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« Reply #11 on: October 27, 2014, 02:13:44 AM »
Report for today:

I feel powerful and energetic , I feel little nervous and sensitive but I am much more in control of my emotions comparing to past. I feel I'm more dominate in my social interactions , I mean I can have more positive impressions on others.

I feel heat in my lower body specially feet.



 


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« Reply #12 on: November 16, 2014, 11:54:06 AM »
Hi My Dear Warrior friends   :D

today is my 42th day without porn, absolutely! Thank You GODDDD!

Wish you all the best. 


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« Reply #13 on: November 26, 2014, 08:23:31 AM »
yesterday's night at the 52th day, I experienced a wet dream this was the first time in 52 days of absolutely porn and masturbation free!


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« Reply #14 on: November 26, 2014, 05:15:36 PM »
my original goal was to leave porn, not masturbation, but naturally I didn't masturbated for 53 days along my pornless days but after I had wet dream yesterday , my energy became wild again and temptations started!  so I was in an almost heavy pressure today, tonight I examined to discharge heavy feelings by masturbating and did it! but I am happy that I am free from porn yet. I hope my masturbation doesn't hurt my reboot!   


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« Reply #15 on: December 04, 2014, 04:39:37 PM »
Now I announce that I completed two third of my reboot (60 days) , I were absolutely free of porn in last two months. I love you all , Wish you all the best  ;D


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« Reply #16 on: January 02, 2015, 01:50:39 PM »
It seems I completed my 90 days reboot, although it wasn't as good as I wanted... but I didn't engaged in any porn unless some lite scenes that I saw in movies that can't be called porn I think. 

But any way , I don't feel good enough yet, because I still feel a great tempt to watch porn! it is no like before and it seems like 20% power, but is is bothering me, I have no sex, I just masturbate sometime but I don't feel satisfied so something forces me to porn yet! I don't know when will I find a relationship to have healthy sex, so I am worried about returning to porn again! because I feel a lack and un-satisfaction

what should I do ? 


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« Reply #17 on: January 02, 2015, 05:37:31 PM »
I envy you for your 90 days :D Just go out, have some good time and meet women it's a numbers game don't expect it'll come to you...

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« Reply #18 on: January 02, 2015, 06:34:57 PM »
90 days porn free is a fantastic first achievement, don't feel disheartened because you didn't see the results you expected because the results you have seen tend to be the norm for people in our age group. As for masturbation, i'm now a big believer in hardmode as masturbation prolongs the reboot and orgasm can send you back into a flatline, need i mention the added benefits of attracting more attention from the ladies  8) Best of luck with the rest of your reboot.
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« Reply #19 on: January 02, 2015, 06:49:17 PM »
Wow, congrats on 90 days man. I'm so envious of your streak! Be patient, I'm sure the good feelings will come in time. For now, you should be celebrating big time! :)

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« Reply #20 on: January 02, 2015, 11:22:28 PM »
Thanks guys, I gonna do another reboot, this time without masturbation.


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« Reply #21 on: January 03, 2015, 04:35:19 AM »
anyway...WOW man! 90 days without porn after 13 years of addiction! before this I tried to quit porn thousand time but I never succeeded I almost though it is impossible! 


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« Reply #22 on: January 03, 2015, 04:48:01 AM »
Good job man! That's inspirational. I have 9 days, and that's the longest I've gone since I can remember. Way to go, keep it up and don't doubt yourself!

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« Reply #23 on: January 13, 2015, 05:32:25 PM »
I don't know how to confess this, but after 96 days of porn free I relapsed , I just fooled myself and did it. by the way I don't want to condemn myself! I am restarting another goal that is :reach 108 days of absolutely porn free... 



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« Reply #24 on: January 13, 2015, 05:58:14 PM »
Well congrats on 96 days and well done for getting back on with it immediately.
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