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« on: April 23, 2020, 05:52:09 PM »
So hey everyone, I am 17 years old and been real depressed lately, like extremely depressed. Ever since I was a kid I was always into feet always(even before porn). Then later on I started getting into femdom and stuff. My problem is i’ve never been attracted to sex. I’ve also really never been attracted to ass or tits from my teen years at least. I have flashbacks from a kid I once watched a guy get smothered with boobs and I loved it. I feel asexual and it really gets me sad. I want to have a wife and kids but how can I if i’m only attracted to feet femdom. I used to fap like 3 times a day for years, sometimes 2. I am really want to change and I am willing to put in all the effort it takes. Do you think taking a hard reboot will reduce my fetish and get me to start liking ass and tits and more vanilla stuff? Again I’m 17 and really trying to change my life around every guy talks about ass and tits but I never really ever jerked off to that or found it that interesting but why do I remember small things from a kid of me liking this but now I don’t and feel asexual any hope for me? (sorry for bad grammar i’m typing fast because i’m always stressed)

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« Reply #1 on: April 24, 2020, 04:07:18 AM »
Hoi , you must stop watchting porn man its a Demon

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« Reply #2 on: April 24, 2020, 10:19:32 PM »
Im 6 days free bro I can make a promise I wont jerk off to femdom porn anymore eventually when I get my vanilla tastes back I will be the most confident man on this earth.

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« Reply #3 on: April 24, 2020, 11:13:31 PM »
Count them one day at a time bro. It's going to be a fight, most likely a hard fight. But it will be worth it, very, very worth it.

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« Reply #4 on: April 25, 2020, 10:53:14 AM »
thank you for the kind words appreciate it.

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« Reply #5 on: April 27, 2020, 08:09:08 PM »
Post your progress daily, or every couple of days. Whether you fall or not, it's a way to keep you accountable, not just to us, but to you as well. Here's humility when you have to restart your streak...I'm on day 38, with absolutely no PMO...and I post daily.

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« Reply #6 on: April 28, 2020, 03:06:12 PM »
Post your progress daily, or every couple of days. Whether you fall or not, it's a way to keep you accountable, not just to us, but to you as well. Here's humility when you have to restart your streak...I'm on day 38, with absolutely no PMO...and I post daily.
your right I should I am now I think 9-10 days in, still changing myself as a person. Ive matured more in the past 2 weeks than I have my whole life. I go outside everyday for bike rides and runs, I work out, I am watching femdom 100%. It has gotten too far and has made girls less attractive. I am gonna stay strong and continue on this re wire.

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« Reply #7 on: April 29, 2020, 10:49:47 PM »
Yo man, I think I could help you get the motivation. I am 19 years old and your story seems to be almost the same as mine. Where can we talk more easily? Because man you need help, I just wanted I would have got help when I was couple years younger in your spot...

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« Reply #8 on: April 30, 2020, 12:37:32 PM »
Yo man, I think I could help you get the motivation. I am 19 years old and your story seems to be almost the same as mine. Where can we talk more easily? Because man you need help, I just wanted I would have got help when I was couple years younger in your spot...
I would love to talk my email is dewyy27@gmail.com . Id love to have a conversation with you.

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« Reply #9 on: April 30, 2020, 08:26:30 PM »
today I went for a 5 mile run in the rain and worked out for 2 hours. Its part of my re wire process. I feel like the re wire process with be easier if im actively trying to change myself. Still not attracted to ass or boobs yet but im only like 11 days in so I dont really expect anything at all currently.

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« Reply #10 on: May 01, 2020, 07:40:00 PM »
Went for a long bike ride which I am gonna continue doing until quarantine is over. I havent seen anyone so its hard to rewire when Im by myself but I dont have any urges to watch fetish porn.

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« Reply #11 on: May 06, 2020, 10:34:48 PM »
so I am now 17 days into Hard Reset I have been keeping active going on bike rides and working out. I can only hope that my vanilla tastes will come back, I am trying to stop worrying about it and trying to focus on something else but during quarantine, it is a little harder

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« Reply #12 on: May 06, 2020, 11:35:26 PM »
Keep on man !

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« Reply #13 on: May 10, 2020, 04:44:27 PM »
thanks man, I dont know how deep I am into nofap dont really care still dont plan on ever fapping to femdom porn again. Sometimes I get thoughts but I get rid of them as fast as possible. Still going outside working out (I got way stronger in the past 2 weeks, built a lot of muscle) . Trying to find new things and discover my true self but its been really hard during the quarantine as I cannot hang out with friends or socialize with pretty much anyone other than neighbor whenever I sneak out. Still have some urges occasionally but not that much and when I do I fight them off.

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« Reply #14 on: May 16, 2020, 09:25:41 PM »
Man, you can definitely get over this! It may be difficult but you can do it and you are doing the right thing! Our brains are very very plastic and tastes absolutely can adapt. You will absolutely come to enjoy sex and it'll be far far far more gratifying thing this old other stuff.

Even if before porn you felt like you had that preference it is very very possible that you may have had an experience while young that you can not remember, which led to this initially. For example some people as kids (Even if they don't remember it) see a movie and a woman hits a guy in the crotch, that is the first time they see anything involving a woman touching a man's crotch and the association starts even if they don't remember it. Something similar probably happened to you with the feet then the porn expands on it substantially. When you avoid the stuff and evntually start to be with real women, it'll fade. At first you may be with a girl and all the porn/fetish junk stars popping into your mind, but it'll fade over time.

I had some crazy fetishes and they'd pop into my head but as I'd have sexual experience with women I returned to my natural roots, even if I couldn't remember them (and you will too)! Just remember to keep going! You are catching this really young so give it everything you got! You can be pretty well recovered and have a great college experience hopefully

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« Reply #15 on: May 21, 2020, 03:24:41 PM »
Man, you can definitely get over this! It may be difficult but you can do it and you are doing the right thing! Our brains are very very plastic and tastes absolutely can adapt. You will absolutely come to enjoy sex and it'll be far far far more gratifying thing this old other stuff.

Even if before porn you felt like you had that preference it is very very possible that you may have had an experience while young that you can not remember, which led to this initially. For example some people as kids (Even if they don't remember it) see a movie and a woman hits a guy in the crotch, that is the first time they see anything involving a woman touching a man's crotch and the association starts even if they don't remember it. Something similar probably happened to you with the feet then the porn expands on it substantially. When you avoid the stuff and evntually start to be with real women, it'll fade. At first you may be with a girl and all the porn/fetish junk stars popping into your mind, but it'll fade over time.

I had some crazy fetishes and they'd pop into my head but as I'd have sexual experience with women I returned to my natural roots, even if I couldn't remember them (and you will too)! Just remember to keep going! You are catching this really young so give it everything you got! You can be pretty well recovered and have a great college experience hopefully
thank you so much for the words really motivating me. Absolutely I want to have a good sex life by college that is why I am starting now. I will never watch femdom again I sitll get thoughts here and there only 30 days in though after watching foot stuff/femdom for 7 years. I am ready to beat this and move on from this rough point in my life.

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« Reply #16 on: May 21, 2020, 03:26:36 PM »
Man, you can definitely get over this! It may be difficult but you can do it and you are doing the right thing! Our brains are very very plastic and tastes absolutely can adapt. You will absolutely come to enjoy sex and it'll be far far far more gratifying thing this old other stuff.

Even if before porn you felt like you had that preference it is very very possible that you may have had an experience while young that you can not remember, which led to this initially. For example some people as kids (Even if they don't remember it) see a movie and a woman hits a guy in the crotch, that is the first time they see anything involving a woman touching a man's crotch and the association starts even if they don't remember it. Something similar probably happened to you with the feet then the porn expands on it substantially. When you avoid the stuff and evntually start to be with real women, it'll fade. At first you may be with a girl and all the porn/fetish junk stars popping into your mind, but it'll fade over time.

I had some crazy fetishes and they'd pop into my head but as I'd have sexual experience with women I returned to my natural roots, even if I couldn't remember them (and you will too)! Just remember to keep going! You are catching this really young so give it everything you got! You can be pretty well recovered and have a great college experience hopefully
The thing is I do remember signs of feet at an early stage, I also lost my dad at 7 years old which I think has a huge impact on it because no guy was there to tell me about sex like most parents lol. Only me my mom and my brother and my mom never told me about sex, school introduced me after I was already sucked into feet fetish world

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« Reply #17 on: May 22, 2020, 08:43:20 PM »
31 days strong we chillin still depressed and since its quarantine its easier but I forgot what being social is like.

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« Reply #18 on: May 23, 2020, 07:41:10 PM »
got some bad news. I relapsed today to foot femdom by choice but I will not let it happen again I just wanted to see something. Ever since starting nofap I have been getting HOCD thoughts because ive never masturbated to vanilla sex. Those thoughts started to eat me alive and its weird because Ive never watched gay porn before and whenever I hear it I just cringe. But never fapping to vanilla stuff and only femdom really makes this hard. I am not going to fap again this was just an experiment I was totally able to control it but I was just testing to see that I still get turned on by stuff but definitely should have not used my femdom shit but I am not gonna watch it again. 1 relapse thats all im allowing. I just really want to start liking sex like I do femdom that is my goal. I really feel like if I had my father alive to tell me about sex and girls and stuff I would have went a whole different path. I also think those HOCD thoughts came because I am quarantined and literally have not seen a girl IRL in like 50 days. I am gonna get back on nofap path this time with no relapses.

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« Reply #19 on: May 25, 2020, 05:55:42 PM »
Im back on nofap but HOCD is starting to come with it. I am really starting to question my sexuality just because I am not interested in real sex and these thoughts are ass I am going to continue nofap but Im pretty sure its just my brain fighting me. The HOCD thoughts are coming strong every day. This might be from quarantine because I haven't seen a girl IRL in like 50 days. Ive only seen guys but the thing is before nofap I never had these thoughts ever. I was only fapping to foot femdom and thats all I thought about. Now on nofap Im like what if my sexuality changes on nofap. I read all the symptoms and I have them all currently I am just overthinking too much because it is quarantine and I have nothing to do Ive been going outside but recently the thoughts have been eating me outside. I try so hard to resist something that isnt true like what.

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« Reply #20 on: May 28, 2020, 03:19:32 PM »
relapsed again to femdom gonna start back up tomorrow. Still getting HOCD thoughts tho randomly when watching any video that has a guy in it. I start to look at it differently than I would now I cant laugh at videos I used to find funny because HOCD kicks in and its ass its starts making me thinking intrusive thoughts trying to resist a boner to something I never used to get a boner to now I just overthink everything and now look at everything differently because of this evil voice in my head. I am gonna start nofap again tommorow I was on a 3 day streak but idk man im a fucked up person.

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« Reply #21 on: May 29, 2020, 08:31:29 AM »
Stay away from everything: Don't peek, don't touch yourself, try to divert your attention from porn thoughts and fantasies. The addicted brain won't like this and it will rebel. The withdrawal will get strong but it's inevitable. The only way out is through withdrawal. One day it will stop. If you relapse, you just postpone the withdrawal for a while and then it comes back again and again. You will re-live it over and over again and it won't get better. The withdrawal will be as hard as ever. One day you will have to face it, go through it and escape.

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« Reply #22 on: June 01, 2020, 08:53:18 PM »
Stay away from everything: Don't peek, don't touch yourself, try to divert your attention from porn thoughts and fantasies. The addicted brain won't like this and it will rebel. The withdrawal will get strong but it's inevitable. The only way out is through withdrawal. One day it will stop. If you relapse, you just postpone the withdrawal for a while and then it comes back again and again. You will re-live it over and over again and it won't get better. The withdrawal will be as hard as ever. One day you will have to face it, go through it and escape.
thanks yea I stopped im 3 days free and this time going for good because in 90 days in my first day of school and that motivates me because I really want a good sex life. Ive been going out with friends and vibing the HOCD thoughts have been getting better I have been telling myself how stupid that stuff sounds.

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« Reply #23 on: June 02, 2020, 08:25:59 PM »
Hello there young man. I'm allowed to say that cause i'm in my early 50"s :) I was just reading through your message history. That's a really interesting story you have. Shows you how crazy our brains can get. But don't call yourself F'd up. We're all just human and subject to the things we are bombarded by in today's world. And with the internet you never know what you might get hooked on. Remember if you slip it's only a setback, not a failure. Keep your eyes looking forward and ignore that rear view mirror. Message me if you want to chat.

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« Reply #24 on: June 30, 2020, 02:24:45 PM »
Its a rough one boys but its alright I didn't expect this to be an easy journey. Depression is still at peak 11 days into nofap simply because of my HOCD its making me think im gay now all of a sudden and reall making me sad and suicidal :(