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Navtel96

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Starting my journey
« on: February 12, 2020, 12:02:47 AM »
I am just starting my journey of reboot I am 37 and have been on porn for 24 years found that I would rather get off to porn then have sex with my fiance even when I know that she would love for me to wake her up with sex I am going to start my day counter at 1 today and post when I feel that I need support going forward.

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Re: Starting my journey
« Reply #1 on: February 12, 2020, 05:55:36 PM »
I am on day 2 and feel the urge to go to the bathroom and relieve stress by masturbating am curbing those feelings and doing good but can really tell that this is going to be a hard road to reboot but I am committed to a better and more intimate life with my fiance.

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« Reply #2 on: February 13, 2020, 06:04:01 PM »
Day 3 started right away this morning with wanting to view porn was very eye opening that I just feel I need it right away but got over it I just know that this is a hard road and the cravings are going to get worse before they go away but fighting on

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Re: Starting my journey
« Reply #3 on: February 14, 2020, 07:10:13 PM »
Day 4 finding out my triggers is harder then I thought as I have had thoughts when I would not think I would has been ok today as only a couple of times thought about going to porn sites. Better today and focusing on the now and working toward the future.

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« Reply #4 on: February 15, 2020, 09:45:21 PM »
Day 5 today was a little different for me as I was off of work but had a good and bad day had several urges to get on porn but held myself off and found that I truly do need something to occupy my mind as it only goes to porn when I am bored and my mind starts to wonder our I am truly stressed out thanks for the support and allowing me to write my thoughts out

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« Reply #5 on: February 16, 2020, 09:00:13 PM »
Day 6 and today has been a rollercoaster most of the day has been a long climb up to wanting to watch porn but never really thinking about it tell that very top and the crashing back down to realise that I am trying to rationalize it and the back up to wanting to do it and back down to ground so has been very hard at moments today

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Re: Starting my journey
« Reply #6 on: February 18, 2020, 02:14:58 AM »
Day 7 today was good while I was busy but the little time in between I wanted to orgasm so bad but realized that I was rationalize it and stopped doing it but got busy doing other things right after that

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« Reply #7 on: February 18, 2020, 09:54:38 PM »
Day 8 did not think about porn to much today but have been busy with other things and other problems that came up so was a weird day but easier to not look at porn.

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Re: Starting my journey
« Reply #8 on: February 22, 2020, 05:00:36 AM »
Hey man,


Welcome. Good of you to take control of the addiction and starting to post here.
You made the first step!