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first time making?
« on: December 06, 2019, 12:46:11 AM »
Hi everybody

This is my very first time making it 22 days of nofap hard mode. I was playing a game earlier and eventhough it wasnt triggering at all, i found myself getting uncomfortably horny. I had to keep getting up and walking around, and that didn't help much. The urge to watch porn wasnt there I just wanted to fap raelly bad and I had some hot images in my head from girls at school.
I felt like I could ejaculate without touching myself thankfully I didn't but deep down I sorta wanted to so I could have an excuse to binge fap. I did drink alot of water earlier and since I been urinating frequently my urges have died down alot. I felt that eurphoric feeling and brainfog (its gone now ) that I do after I intentionally relapse, thats why I'm worried now. Did I ruin my streak, or is it ok aslong as I dont seek out arousal and fap?
I asked this on reddit and some person said because I got the dopamine rush and brainfog that I have relapsed, and should reset because I was conscious and awake during the whole ordeal. I'm not going to do it but I'm having doubts now.
Any suggestion would be greatly appreciate. Thank in advance.


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Re: first time making?
« Reply #1 on: December 06, 2019, 02:03:54 AM »
I think the person who said you relapsed is completely wrong. You haven't engaged in the previous addicting behaviors so you have no relapsed. You can't avoid sometimes getting horny. The idea that  you can completely starve yourself of dopamine isn't possible. I would relax and just be mindful of possible triggers that could turn into a relapse. Also, 22 days that's awesome I am hoping to get a month in this December.


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Re: first time making?
« Reply #2 on: December 06, 2019, 07:39:29 PM »
If I'm understanding right, you were triggered and felt strong urges but you didn't do anything. Is that right?

Whether you're 22 days clean or 200, urges are going to come whether you want them to or not. Experiencing urges, even strong urges, is not a relapse. A relapse happens when you act on those urges and give your addicted brain what it wants (P, M, or O).

I would probably say you're okay as long as you didn't act out on those urges. In a lot of ways, it's up to you, but it's still a chance to learn whether you count it as a relapse or not: are there any triggers you can avoid moving forward to prevent something similar from happening again?