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WoundedSparrow

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Reboot Roadmap
« on: September 04, 2019, 06:37:24 PM »
I've attempted a reboot several times over the course of the past year. As an addict going on 6 years, I'm proud to say it's been my most productive year ever. However, I'm afraid that I still have far to go before I'm capable of reaching 90 days. I've only ever lasted a total of 5 weeks and in my experience, the first 2 are when the brain fights tooth and nail to reclaim me back into porn addiction. After that, it's usually smooth sailing. I feel better, more alert and charismatic. Cravings are easier to manage. I'm not foggy or lethargic. I almost feel like I did before porn. Then around the 1 month mark, I always seem to suffer intense cravings that overwhelm me and drive me back into a spiral of abuse. After relapsing once, it usually takes several weeks or even months before I'm able to go a full week without porn again.

I'm here asking those of you who have successfully made it past 30 days what your experiences are after that point. I can prepare myself for intense cravings, but I have no clue what to expect after that point. I realize we all recover differently but many of our symptoms of both abuse and withdrawal are shared. I want to brace myself so I don't get knocked on my ass by things I never saw coming.

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Re: Reboot Roadmap
« Reply #1 on: September 05, 2019, 05:39:01 AM »
one time i was 8 months on nofap. it was my first time. i was 21 and i lost the ability to have sex (PIED). i was so frightened i did not experienced a single craving and i relapsed just because i separated from my sex partner for 3 weeks (started masturbating as an alternative for sex), so i dont even count those 8 months because i cant replicate that fear now that i know things will get better if i reboot.

i agree with you, im 17 days today. for me too, around 40-45 days is brutal. its like you gotta be a little nuts to go through that. seriously evaluated as little off the chart here and there. i dont know whats after that but whatever it is, unless its even stronger cravings, it can only get better.
My last relapse: 03.Oct.2019 // My total # of relapses in the last 30 days: 10+