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20 Year Old Guy Trying To Recover From PIED
« on: August 13, 2019, 02:34:21 AM »
DISCLAIMER: This is a continuation of my previous journal. If you're interested in reading it here's the link:
http://www.rebootnation.org/forum/index.php?topic=16818.0

I’m a 20 year old virgin guy who has developed severe PIED. I have watched porn and masturbated since the age of 10. Over the years my porn use gradually increased until I was watching porn 4 times (or more) everyday. Overtime, I started noticing a noticeable decrease in sensitivity and quality of erections. Masturbation started to feel more like a chore than anything. Additionally, I realised that I haven’t had morning wood or spontaneous erections in years. Initually, I paid no mind to the fact as everybody told me that masturbation is completely healthy. However, I started suspecting that my problems might be connected to my excessive masturbation so I started searching the web for info. Eventually, I stumbled upon NoFap and Your Brain On Porn and realised that my issues were caused by porn.

I started trying to reboot since mid-December of 2018 but I have had numerous relapses and only now I have managed to achieve a streak that lasted a month and I have already noticed an increase in my libido and quality of erections. Let's see how it goes.

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Re: 20 Year Old Guy Trying To Recover From PIED
« Reply #1 on: August 13, 2019, 02:34:49 AM »
Day 30

So I've finally reached a month of abstaining from porn. Last week was pretty great as I was getting a lot of erections without even touching myself but I'm starting to flatline a bit.

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Re: 20 Year Old Guy Trying To Recover From PIED
« Reply #2 on: August 13, 2019, 04:55:54 PM »
how would you describe your severe PIED?
My last relapse: 03.Oct.2019 // My total # of relapses in the last 30 days: 10+

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« Reply #3 on: August 13, 2019, 11:56:14 PM »
how would you describe your severe PIED?

Well, often I couldn’t get it up even with porn and I had to force an erection and even then it would be about 50% hard.

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« Reply #4 on: August 13, 2019, 11:58:47 PM »
Day 0

Well, I messed up and managed to relapse again yesterday. I didn’t go to porn sites but I masturbated to pics and now my penis feels tired and flaccid. At least I know what I should and should not do now.

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« Reply #5 on: August 15, 2019, 02:02:48 AM »
Day 1

I was flatlining yesterday but today I woke up with a semi (it went away pretty quickly though).

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« Reply #6 on: August 20, 2019, 08:05:23 AM »
Day 4

I decided to reset my counter last Thursday because I felt that I was kind of half-assing things and now I’m on day 4 of my reboot.

Yesterday was ok. I got a couple of semi-erections throughout the day but right now I’m feeling like I’m flatlining. I also had a pretty graphic dream about relapsing to porn. I am quite grateful that it was just a dream! :D Sexual fantasies are a bit of an issue but they will disappear.

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« Reply #7 on: August 20, 2019, 09:09:28 AM »
I've had those dreams too. I woke up once and it took me like 5 minutes to realize whether it was a dream or not. It felt so fucking real. The flashbacks and fantasies (what I like to call "porn in my head") have been the hardest things for me during this streak.

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« Reply #8 on: August 21, 2019, 12:24:31 AM »
Day 5

Yesterday was meh. Dreamt about relapsing again. I wasn’t feeling any urges but my libido is low and I didn’t get any erections.

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« Reply #9 on: August 22, 2019, 02:57:54 AM »
Day 6

I have mixed feelings about yesterday. It was a total rollercoaster and I can’t help but feel that I messed up. I was kind of tempted not to post this but I feel like I would be gaslighting others and I always feel very guilty about lying.

First, I got a semi-erection and even without touching I could feel that my penis is very sensitive. Unfortunately, I tend to be very self-conscious and obsess about things so I went on Reddit to see how to combat premature ejaculation and then I stumbled upon a blog about tantric sex. Well, as I was reading I got rock-hard (I mean hard as a baseball bat!), got incredibly aroused and started leaking a lot of pre-cum. After that I stumbled upon a pic of female genitalia and immediately noped the hell out. Then, I re-installed Tinder to check if I got any likes. Some hours later, just before going to sleep, I (for some reason that I don’t remember) decided to look up sex techniques. Unfortunately (What did I expect?), the article had some basic drawings of sex and I again got rock hard for ~10-20 minutes and I leaked a lot of pre-cum again and after that I went to sleep.

Right now I feel like my libido is gone and my penis doesn’t really want to get hard. I feel like I have messed up big time and that I have relapsed.

Did I relapse? Or was it just a slip? What do you guys think?

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Re: 20 Year Old Guy Trying To Recover From PIED
« Reply #10 on: August 22, 2019, 03:06:49 AM »
Do you want my honest opinion? Sometimes I could be annoyingly honest. You play with fire. Stop looking for trouble when you are an addict.

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« Reply #11 on: August 22, 2019, 03:12:01 AM »
Do you want my honest opinion? Sometimes I could be annoyingly honest. You play with fire. Stop looking for trouble when you are an addict.

You are not annoying. You are absolutely right.  :-\

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« Reply #12 on: August 22, 2019, 03:12:59 AM »
You are not annoying. You are absolutely right.

Your Tinder is full of jerking off material and I'm sure your Trantic sex stuff has some stuff like this too. Stay away from all this shit until you heal.

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« Reply #13 on: August 22, 2019, 03:15:00 AM »
You are not annoying. You are absolutely right.

Your Tinder is full of jerking off material and I'm sure your Trantic sex stuff has some stuff like this too. Stay away from all this shit until you heal.

Do you think I should reset?

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« Reply #14 on: August 22, 2019, 03:17:22 AM »
Do you think I should reset?

This doesn't have a simple answer. Did you look for "jerking off material" deliberately? Or did you find it by mistake? However, at the end of the day, what helps you go on with your reboot is what matters. If not resetting helps you, then don't reset. But the question "resetting or not resetting" is not what matters here. What matters is staying away from material. If you know that what you are searching for includes jerking off material, delete that right away and don't look back. Wait at least until you are not an addict anymore.

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« Reply #15 on: August 22, 2019, 03:19:16 AM »
Do you think I should reset?

This doesn't have a simple answer. Did you look for "jerking off material" deliberately? Or did you find it by mistake? However, at the end of the day, what helps you go on with your reboot is what matters. If not resetting helps you, then don't reset. But the question "resetting or not resetting" is not what matters here. What matters is staying away from material. If you know that what you are searching for includes jerking off material, delete that right away and don't look back. Wait at least until you are not an addict anymore.

Got it. Thanks! :D

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« Reply #16 on: September 21, 2019, 04:29:36 AM »
Day 14

Haven't visited this place in a while but the good news is that I am on a 14-day streak now and I'm not planning to stop any time soon. I feel like that even though I've relapsed the last 30-day streak was something of a breakthrough moment for me as before that it felt like it would be impossible for me to abstain for PMO for more than one week. But now I know that it is possible and that I can do it.

My summer break has also ended in the beginning of September and I started having lessons at the university. Compared to the previous year things seem to be much more serious and the workload is much bigger but I feel much happier than I was during summer. Plus, it is much easier for me to not PMO now that I'm constantly busy with schoolwork.

Unfortunately, as regards PIED it seems that I'm in a flatline and my erections and libido aren't good at all. Additionally, during the past week I kept feeling a dull pain in my urethra and occasionally experienced incontinence at home. I wonder if it has something to do with the flatline or if I have caught some sort of infection.

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Re: 20 Year Old Guy Trying To Recover From PIED
« Reply #17 on: September 21, 2019, 07:00:25 AM »
Don't loss your motivation when you relapse. Just try to find out why you relapsed.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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Re: 20 Year Old Guy Trying To Recover From PIED
« Reply #18 on: September 23, 2019, 12:56:15 AM »
Day 16

Seeing small signs of improvement as I’m staring to get semi-erections throughout the day.

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Re: 20 Year Old Guy Trying To Recover From PIED
« Reply #19 on: September 23, 2019, 02:34:09 AM »
Hey,

I'd recommend staying off tinder. It just harms people.

I get that you're virgin and would like to meet women. And I encourage you to do that. But stay off tinder for a while. :)
Focus on yourself for a few months and you'll meet girls irl. And you'll be in a better position to rock on Tinder.

It's nice that you see signs of improvement! You're doing good.