Day 21, three weeks no PMO. Strong urges right now I think mostly because of stuff my fiancé did something that she should have asked me about before doing it. Anyway staying strong and not gonna let this stresser cause me to give in. There’s always gonna be something that’s gonna want me to retreat to that so called comfort place but it’s just not a real comfort place. Just makes things worse. Really glad I made it this far....need to build on this.
There's no comfort there, only temporary dissociation, followed by regret and self-loathing. Play the tape through in your mind, but skip the 'fix' part...go straight to the aftermath, with the shame and disgust and the loss of control, or whatever you feel.