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stepbystep

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« on: July 20, 2019, 04:28:24 PM »
Today, I'm committed to avoiding porn from here on. I've decided that it's not for me because I feel guilty sometimes, and probably it's not healthy, coming from many scientific studies now. I'm not going to claim it's going to change everything in my life, but I think it will at least help me be a better person. These are the things that have helped me in the past. When I feel a temptation or start using, I do a few things to get myself out of it:

- Pray for the obsession to be removed (I'm not a religious person, but it still helps me to pray -- it brings some awareness in me)
- Tell someone about (This could be posting here)
- Help someone in anything (Including posting in others journals or doing something useful in real life)

I have found that I tend to escape porn when I'm frustrated about work or am trying to escape. The best way for me to manage that is to focus back on what I'm doing for work. Or, take a short break like going for a walk or reading a book or reading something interesting.
« Last Edit: July 20, 2019, 07:47:11 PM by stepbystep »
Trying to quit since 2004. In recovery since December 2011. Mostly porn-free since August 2012. Completely porn-free since August 8, 2019.

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Re: stepbystep's journal
« Reply #1 on: July 20, 2019, 07:47:48 PM »
Came here because of a temptation. It's escape from work. Now getting right back to it.
Trying to quit since 2004. In recovery since December 2011. Mostly porn-free since August 2012. Completely porn-free since August 8, 2019.

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Re: stepbystep's journal
« Reply #2 on: July 21, 2019, 05:13:32 PM »
Another one of those temptation. I'm frustrated about something I have to finish for work.
Trying to quit since 2004. In recovery since December 2011. Mostly porn-free since August 2012. Completely porn-free since August 8, 2019.

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Re: stepbystep's journal
« Reply #3 on: July 22, 2019, 03:22:24 PM »
Good thing you’ve decided to kick porn and get a healthy view on sex and living. How’s it going?
Hope you’re keeping in there, temptations are many, and I get them everyday, they’re stronger when we tend to feel bad about something or frustrated.

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Re: stepbystep's journal
« Reply #4 on: July 22, 2019, 09:51:17 PM »
Thanks for dropping by CB! Definitely, I have temptations every day. They are just thoughts. That does not mean I act on them! Today I had quite a few because I was stressed. Feeling a lot better now. Onwards and upwards.
Trying to quit since 2004. In recovery since December 2011. Mostly porn-free since August 2012. Completely porn-free since August 8, 2019.

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« Reply #5 on: July 28, 2019, 01:31:37 PM »
I had a setback today and last Wednesday. Last time (Wednesday), I convinced myself that there's nothing wrong with indulging, and I believed it! ;D It's pretty amazing how when I am not horny I can convince myself of anything. Anyway I'm resetting my porn-free date today. I'm still fine with masturbation at most twice a week, but porn has to go. That is what is good for me.
Trying to quit since 2004. In recovery since December 2011. Mostly porn-free since August 2012. Completely porn-free since August 8, 2019.

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« Reply #6 on: August 08, 2019, 11:43:45 AM »
Back to day 0. This is a bit frustrating. I just convince myself that porn is for me. But, then when I do it, it just doesn't feel right. It's so fake that it just can't be good for you.
« Last Edit: August 11, 2019, 01:14:10 PM by stepbystep »
Trying to quit since 2004. In recovery since December 2011. Mostly porn-free since August 2012. Completely porn-free since August 8, 2019.

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« Reply #7 on: August 08, 2019, 11:58:20 AM »
Admitting your have a problem is the first step to recovery.  Talking about it to others also helps.  I've found that this site helps me a lot just to get it out there.

Don't beat yourself up for relapsing.  Quitting PMO is hard to do.  It takes a lot of self-reflection to find your triggers and develop a strategy to make sure you can avoid them or respond to them appropriately.

Keep at it brother.  You'll make it!

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« Reply #8 on: August 08, 2019, 09:41:43 PM »
Thanks Pdub! Appreciate the support.
Trying to quit since 2004. In recovery since December 2011. Mostly porn-free since August 2012. Completely porn-free since August 8, 2019.

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« Reply #9 on: August 11, 2019, 01:29:34 PM »
Just focused on recovery and life.
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Re: stepbystep's journal
« Reply #10 on: August 13, 2019, 10:42:06 AM »
I think, you should focus on making small positive habits.

I would recommend you to read/ hear the book - Power of Habit by Charles Duhigg.

Also, you can subscribe to JamesClear newsletter.

More power to you, mate!

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« Reply #11 on: August 14, 2019, 11:07:53 PM »
Thanks for recommendation! I'll take a look at the book.
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« Reply #12 on: August 15, 2019, 10:10:42 PM »
The usual. Staying strong. Living life.
Trying to quit since 2004. In recovery since December 2011. Mostly porn-free since August 2012. Completely porn-free since August 8, 2019.