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sbank

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here's whats going on
« on: June 29, 2019, 07:24:48 PM »
I've been on  nofap for 2 months and 1 week, or at least trying very hard, its been that long since I've looked at any porn and I have never gone that long, unfortunately I have mo'ed  on 3 separate occasions, the first 2 were on a couple of weekends where I had been drinking the 3rd, let me explain, I work 2nd shift on a very boring job and I think about sex... a lot... I was about to explode. I just couldn't take it, had to go.

Now having said that I think I have made some good progress, I say this because now I'm having A lot of sensation down there that I used to not have, It wont get hard but really wants to, it does get long and swells so much so that it prints in my pants but not hard, but that is a big improvement and I'm happy about it, I feel I'm getting somewhere.

what I'm wondering  though is it now a question of pied or my smoking and my fucked up mental state, I do smoke a lot and carry around anger and hatred over dirty shit I've taken from people over the years, and I wonder if smoking is a factor is contributing to my emotional health, I mean I get these skin rashes mostly around around my feet and sometimes they get so bad they bleed, but I notice in my efforts to quit smoking they tend to clear up, I think I may have developed an allergy to nicotine and if it can do that to these rough ass feet of mine what is it doing to my brain, would really like some input