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Justpassinby1984

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Fucked up after 2 year streak.Experiencing ED again.
« on: June 27, 2019, 10:28:00 AM »
Been off porn for like 2-3 yrs.I managed to get strong erections back after 3 to 4 months.A year later I got married,had successful sex.A few years later,still had sex.My wife gets pregnant,ends up getting morning sickness,so doesn’t want to have sex.I end up looking at sex position gifs a few weeks ago,but without masterbation.This morning me and my wife tried to have sex.I was hard at the beginning,but once I was in I got soft,fuck! I pulled out and tried again and I couldn’t get hard.
I had to explain to my wife about my past porn addiction right then and there,and broke it down to her.Previously yeas ago I told her but briefly.I then proceeded to smack my head in frustration.
I guess I fucked up by looking at some sex gifs and that somehow messed with my reward circuits and dopamine somehow.I am afraid I won’t be able to get it up in 11 days,thats how many days I have left to go back to Canada.My wife lives in another country.
Looks like I fucked up and feel horrible about it.
This is a wake up call to me or anyone how bad porn addiction is and to take it seriously.Even looking at girls on Facebook or insta can mess up your progress.
Guys don’t fuck around with this,it’s real and I’m finding out the hard way,even after a 2 year streak.
Fuck!!

Tyr

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Re: Fucked up after 2 year streak.Experiencing ED again.
« Reply #1 on: June 27, 2019, 01:29:46 PM »
Crazy man, a couple questions..

How long were you looking at gifs for? And did you get into that 'seeker' mind frame of clicking and looking for the next best thing?

How old are you and how long did you watch porn before quitting?

During your initial 1-2 years without porn were you orgasming much? Either with masturbation or sex?

Justpassinby1984

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Re: Fucked up after 2 year streak.Experiencing ED again.
« Reply #2 on: June 27, 2019, 03:04:06 PM »
Crazy man, a couple questions..

How long were you looking at gifs for? And did you get into that 'seeker' mind frame of clicking and looking for the next best thing?

How old are you and how long did you watch porn before quitting?

During your initial 1-2 years without porn were you orgasming much? Either with masturbation or sex?

I was looking at sex gifs for like a few days,each about 10 minutes per viewing.And yes I kept clicking for the next possible sex gif that would grab my attention.At the same time I would avoid the hardcore gifs,since google just displays everything.

I am 34 yrs old and I looked at porn since my early teens(14-32 yrs old).I had a girlfriend at 18 and she would get me hard fast,but never had sex with her because she believed in sex after marriage.We ended up breaking up.I was viewing porn at the same time.

In my 1-2 yrs without porn I was more hornier.I was wacking off without porn and just to fantasy(thinking of real life girls).I was doing it to light touch.I was MO every 2-3 weeks,sometimes even once a week.

« Last Edit: June 27, 2019, 03:11:45 PM by Justpassinby1984 »

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Re: Fucked up after 2 year streak.Experiencing ED again.
« Reply #3 on: June 28, 2019, 08:14:30 PM »
Hmm yeah that's unfortunate. I firmly believe us addicts are really addicts basically for life. There are similar stories to these I've read, the good news is you should bounce back quickly.

If I were you I would:
1. Zero artificial sexual stimuli of any kind.
2. Cut out M and MO
3. Continue to have sex with your wife but perhaps limit orgasm for a few weeks.


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Re: Fucked up after 2 year streak.Experiencing ED again.
« Reply #4 on: June 29, 2019, 11:45:06 AM »
Hmm yeah that's unfortunate. I firmly believe us addicts are really addicts basically for life. There are similar stories to these I've read, the good news is you should bounce back quickly.

If I were you I would:
1. Zero artificial sexual stimuli of any kind.
2. Cut out M and MO
3. Continue to have sex with your wife but perhaps limit orgasm for a few weeks.

Yeah I believe so too.The urges to look at half naked women wether it be real or digital will always be there.
Those are some good tips.I have been avoiding looking at any girls online.I even skim Facebook fast to not fall in any traps.
I currently have no desire to MO,so I am fine for now.
Sex is also limited,since my wife is not really in the mood.
Might as well take this as a mini reboot of sorts.
Thanks for your suggestions.