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Re: Time to bash out the demon
« Reply #25 on: July 05, 2019, 10:27:12 AM »
day 15

Thank you guys for commenting. you guys make me feel like we together, that gets me away from porn! I have issues with my ex best thing to never see her again.. Man she is really a pain in the ass. But i am keeping away from porn atleast!

vacation time but no urges to watch p today. Fuck porn guys really fuck porn. Keep away from it.

greetings guys

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Re: Time to bash out the demon
« Reply #26 on: July 05, 2019, 10:34:01 AM »
day 15

Thank you guys for commenting. you guys make me feel like we together, that gets me away from porn! I have issues with my ex best thing to never see her again.. Man she is really a pain in the ass. But i am keeping away from porn atleast!

vacation time but no urges to watch p today. Fuck porn guys really fuck porn. Keep away from it.

greetings guys

That's right, man. I've been waiting for someone to say "Fuck porn" so I could say "Fuck porn, man! Fuck everybody who wants to keep us docile with porn." We are better than this shit.

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Re: Time to bash out the demon
« Reply #27 on: July 07, 2019, 07:41:28 AM »
wow day 17 already,

i am making steady progress, yesterday went to the festival was a lot of fun. Yes i saw my ex but there were no feelings, really relieved about that! Also i don't have any urges!

peace out

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Re: Time to bash out the demon
« Reply #28 on: July 07, 2019, 08:45:16 AM »
That's what's up, man!

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Re: Time to bash out the demon
« Reply #29 on: July 07, 2019, 04:29:19 PM »
day 15

Thank you guys for commenting. you guys make me feel like we together, that gets me away from porn! I have issues with my ex best thing to never see her again.. Man she is really a pain in the ass. But i am keeping away from porn atleast!

vacation time but no urges to watch p today. Fuck porn guys really fuck porn. Keep away from it.

greetings guys

That's right, man. I've been waiting for someone to say "Fuck porn" so I could say "Fuck porn, man! Fuck everybody who wants to keep us docile with porn." We are better than this shit.

I'm with you man, fuck porn and fuck feeling like dog shit because of it.  You're doing great, keep it up!

-squid

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Re: Time to bash out the demon
« Reply #30 on: July 08, 2019, 05:54:51 AM »
wow wow day 18!

Had morning wood when i woke up i think i had a dream about a girl. woopwoop fuck porn.

greetings bros

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Re: Time to bash out the demon
« Reply #31 on: July 09, 2019, 09:51:28 AM »
damn day 19 already!

Had a date with a girl went to the bios. Damn it was really chill, she was not the prettiest girl but had a great time! O And regarding sexual dysfunction: i could get hard easy, i fucked her before we went to bed and after we woke up, no problems whatsoever. Guys, really, real life sex is 10 times better then porn.

Already 3 weeks without porn, feeling 20 times better, keep up the good fight guys!

Kind regards

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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #32 on: July 11, 2019, 10:11:14 PM »
day 22

currently at the international airport Dubai, no urges in now and 1 day my study adventure will begin!

greetings bros

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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #33 on: July 12, 2019, 09:28:35 AM »
You've got an awesome life man, keep living it up and fuck P!

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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #34 on: July 13, 2019, 03:43:14 PM »
You're doing great man, meet new people socialize and make of the most of your study abroad.  Fuck p

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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #35 on: July 14, 2019, 05:18:30 AM »
You're doing great man, meet new people socialize and make of the most of your study abroad.  Fuck p

Yeah, man. Fuck P!

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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #36 on: July 15, 2019, 02:28:58 AM »
day 26

Thank you guys appreciate the support, i really do!

I am getting settled in australia, setting up a bankaccount, getting to know other students and my roommates, getting to know the local sports. It's kind of scary but simultanously very rewarding. I don't have time to even watch porn, its unbelievable that i am already on day 26, its the best i got so far! Sorry for not posting in the couple days but i was very busy and recovering  from a jetlag.

peace out and love to you all!


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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #37 on: July 15, 2019, 09:23:27 PM »
day 27

guys not every day is going to be easy. Yesterday had a great night out with the new people i met here in Australia. But i am having stress about getting to know the people here at school and getting used to a different environment. Hope that flies over soon, maybe i just got to remember:

    I am good how i am as a person
    I give value
    I don't need someone's approval to feel good
    I am loved, no matter what's happening, there will always be people that love you, parents, siblings, family keep this in mind!
    I am proud of who i am and i accept my flaws
    I don't compare myself to others because every person is different and that would be a dumb thing to do
    I don't judge myself for little stupid things i do
    Everybody is my friend rather then my enemy
    If someone is rude or inpolite, it's not your fault, don't apology but stand up for yourself when you must
    Everybody is equal
    Don't freak out what to say in social situations, just be yourself and you don't have to be talking all the time
    Accept your state of being, if you are agitated, don't hide it with fake good emotions
    If people don't respect you, it's fine really, move on with your life, not all people will be your best friend
    Don't change yourself if people don't like you, stay yourself! (accept when you are a homecide murderer or something)
    Accept your emotions and thoughts, they don't define you
    If you think people talk bad about you, mostly they aren't, it's your mind telling you this, people have better things to do then think about you, and if they do, feel honoured they invest their time into you, winners think of winning, losers think of winners. If people are talking bad you have to have a frame like: wow that's a pathetic person, he or she has much to learn. Don't let your happines be controlled by someone else, you are better then that![/li]

Wow i think i really surpassed myself on this one, i hope all you guys appreciate it and can use these mindframes for yourself!

greetings with love, have a good day!

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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #38 on: July 17, 2019, 06:05:13 AM »
day 28

tired all day, maybe due to adjusting to life here, little bit of anxiety aswell. Its hard to keep away from porn now but it's the longest i have ever been w/o so i need to keep going!

update* fuck came across youtube recommendation of a pornstar somehow, ended up on phub and relapsed.. Well i got to look into the bright side; i relapsed to normal porn, no fetishes whatsoever because they are pretty much gone and i watched for only 10 minutes or so. So no bingewatching, no weird categories, and i am proud i did a full month withouth p. Ofcourse this is no excuse to go watch more porn but it helps me be at ease with myself.*

greetings guys!
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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #39 on: July 17, 2019, 12:17:12 PM »
day 28

tired all day, maybe due to adjusting to life here, little bit of anxiety aswell. Its hard to keep away from porn now but it's the longest i have ever been w/o so i need to keep going!

update* fuck came across youtube recommendation of a pornstar somehow, ended up on phub and relapsed.. Well i got to look into the bright side; i relapsed to normal porn, no fetishes whatsoever because they are pretty much gone and i watched for only 10 minutes or so. So no bingewatching, no weird categories, and i am proud i did a full month withouth p. Ofcourse this is no excuse to go watch more porn but it helps me be at ease with myself.*

greetings guys!

Sorry, man, but I am happy that you could work that out.

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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #40 on: July 21, 2019, 07:02:20 PM »
Day 5

I am currently on day 5 again, had no urges no withdrawal symptons and had a very exciting weekend! I do not think that a relaps sets you back to when you were addicted because one year ago when i started to quit porn i watched it nearly everyday and i watched disturbing categories. But now, when i occasionally relapse, it is on soft porn and i do not have excitement for fetishes as before. And even when i relapse i don't have the same urges and i can last way longer w/o porn. So that's proof that a relapse only sets you back one lap instead of having to do the whole race over.

greetings fellow nofappers and have a great day

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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #41 on: July 22, 2019, 08:19:05 PM »
day 7,

this week went by really fast, however i have mad urges right now

peace guys

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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #42 on: July 23, 2019, 08:26:57 AM »
day 7,

this week went by really fast, however i have mad urges right now

peace guys

Urges means you "addicted self" is in pain and he is screaming for a fix. He really needs to heal. No more fixes. I know it sucks to endure this shit but there is no other way.

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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #43 on: August 01, 2019, 10:45:06 PM »
Day 2

In the past 20ish days i have pmo'ed 3 times i think, it's really hard to stop this. It's almost if you deny your sexual urges and become a robot. I really am starting to think that just jerking off once a week is just normal. I mean in the past i would pmo 3 times a day and i knew that it was unhealty, but now i am pmo'ing once a week and it feels like it is okayish. I don't know guys it feels like this is just your nature to fuck and that's why it's so difficult to stop doing it. Anyway the best way to tackle a reboot is to just accept you did it, and not beat yourself up for everything.


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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #44 on: August 02, 2019, 03:17:21 AM »
Day 2

In the past 20ish days i have pmo'ed 3 times i think, it's really hard to stop this. It's almost if you deny your sexual urges and become a robot. I really am starting to think that just jerking off once a week is just normal. I mean in the past i would pmo 3 times a day and i knew that it was unhealty, but now i am pmo'ing once a week and it feels like it is okayish. I don't know guys it feels like this is just your nature to fuck and that's why it's so difficult to stop doing it. Anyway the best way to tackle a reboot is to just accept you did it, and not beat yourself up for everything.

That's right, man. That's why this addiction is, in my opinion, the hardest, because of its nature. It activates the sexual brain so technically, the brain thinks you have a wonderful sex life. If you are single, like me, it's very frustrating because it goes like: "Where the fuck is my sex life?" And this is how the brain rationalizes that I could and should substitute it for P. Of course, another thing is that nothing compares to P. I guess if I had a sex life nowadays I would still prefer P. That's why it's so vital to quit this shit.

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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #45 on: August 06, 2019, 10:14:00 PM »
Day 7 again

absolutely no urges whatsoever, i think i am cured from my addiction, i think i will allow myself 1 jerk off per week if i have to, no porn just jerkoff. Because i think a man should not erase his sexual desires. Maybe even once per 2 weeks this will keep me active and not turn me into a robot. Porn is the problem not jerking off i believe.

cya mates

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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #46 on: August 06, 2019, 10:18:38 PM »
Day 2

In the past 20ish days i have pmo'ed 3 times i think, it's really hard to stop this. It's almost if you deny your sexual urges and become a robot. I really am starting to think that just jerking off once a week is just normal. I mean in the past i would pmo 3 times a day and i knew that it was unhealty, but now i am pmo'ing once a week and it feels like it is okayish. I don't know guys it feels like this is just your nature to fuck and that's why it's so difficult to stop doing it. Anyway the best way to tackle a reboot is to just accept you did it, and not beat yourself up for everything.

That's right, man. That's why this addiction is, in my opinion, the hardest, because of its nature. It activates the sexual brain so technically, the brain thinks you have a wonderful sex life. If you are single, like me, it's very frustrating because it goes like: "Where the fuck is my sex life?" And this is how the brain rationalizes that I could and should substitute it for P. Of course, another thing is that nothing compares to P. I guess if I had a sex life nowadays I would still prefer P. That's why it's so vital to quit this shit.

Yes you are right. Because by nature i am one of the least addicted people and i think disciplined in the world, addicted to fast food? --> no i realise its not good for me super super easy to fight urges. Addicted to drugs? --> no altough it gives one of the best feelings in the world i fight the urges super simple. I also am disciplined: I want to have a six pack? Sure let's dedicate myself for 3 months and accomplish it. I want to learn piano from scratch? Sure let's practice every day for 30 minutes for 1 year.

So i really think that yes pmo can be an addiction but it is so deeply ingrained in our nature that it is normal to jerk off or fuck. That's why for me pmo addiction is so different from all other activities.

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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #47 on: August 07, 2019, 10:11:52 AM »
I think m and o are normal and natural but not high speed internet p. That stuff is pure acid and will melt your brain and desensitize your dopamine receptors.  That has been my experience. 

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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #48 on: August 07, 2019, 10:22:24 AM »
I think m and o are normal and natural but not high speed internet p. That stuff is pure acid and will melt your brain and desensitize your dopamine receptors.  That has been my experience.

Yes, I believe MO is natural but after so much porn abuse, I don't think I could do it right now. I've bullied my dopamine too much.

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Re: Time to bash out the demon on the road to a porn free life
« Reply #49 on: August 07, 2019, 01:23:53 PM »
Me too, I'm rebooting from all three for 90 days.  The only exception being sex with a woman I care for.  But I'm single right now so hardmode continues.