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« Reply #25 on: September 11, 2019, 11:47:33 PM »
Thanks mattdes! It's so hard to stop this because I've been feeding this for more than 15 years. Finally, time to remove it completely from my life. It's hard. I've been slipping. But, today is a new day and I'm not giving up.
Trying to quit since 2004. In recovery since December 2011. Mostly porn-free since August 2012. Completely porn-free since October 10, 2019.

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« Reply #26 on: September 15, 2019, 05:30:12 PM »
Bored right now. I have lots of things I can do but don’t want to. I’m not going to use porn. Maybe I can read or watch TV.
Trying to quit since 2004. In recovery since December 2011. Mostly porn-free since August 2012. Completely porn-free since October 10, 2019.

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« Reply #27 on: September 16, 2019, 10:45:55 PM »
Day 5. Doing well. Little things matter. And, I'm going to make the most of life today by doing the little things that matter.
Trying to quit since 2004. In recovery since December 2011. Mostly porn-free since August 2012. Completely porn-free since October 10, 2019.

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« Reply #28 on: September 18, 2019, 10:33:23 PM »
Feeling tempted because I’m tired. I’m going to get whatever I need to get done and then sleep.
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« Reply #29 on: September 20, 2019, 12:17:34 AM »
Tempted again but hanging in there. I don’t need porn. I want to live a healthy life without it.
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« Reply #30 on: September 21, 2019, 12:22:59 AM »
Slipped up today. Getting back up and moving forward.
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« Reply #31 on: September 24, 2019, 09:12:45 AM »
Struggled yesterday but luckily did not go through on the act.
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« Reply #32 on: September 25, 2019, 09:19:02 AM »
Made it through 4 days before I slipped. I’m going to go further next time!
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« Reply #33 on: September 25, 2019, 11:02:05 PM »
stepbystep

Keep at it. The cool thing about the present is that we can always begin again.

Take care

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« Reply #34 on: September 27, 2019, 09:56:02 PM »
Hey StepByStep, how's it going? Staying strong? Today's day 1 for me, I just found this community and think it's great what you're doing. I'm curious if you've tried meditation? It seems you're really trying hard and have struggling times. You also made a comment in your first post that you prayed even though you're not religious. It could be worth it to try sitting in peace, calming your mind, and making a prayer when things are tough. Just a thought. Hope you're well buddy.

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« Reply #35 on: October 11, 2019, 12:26:43 AM »
Thanks Boone for checking with me. I'm back on day 0 today. I'm trying to stay away from porn, but it's been tough. Yes, meditation helps me a lot. I try to do it for about 10 mins a day.
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« Reply #36 on: October 11, 2019, 02:28:31 AM »
stepbystep, don't give up!
Start again, all together we'll rid off this shit!
keep on fighting!