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rohan1989

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Rohan's Journal
« on: July 10, 2019, 04:09:47 AM »
I am starting My journal here and Give you Idea about my addiction my struggle and NO PMO journey.I am on day 72 clean NO PMO.

My History
Age -32(virgin) ,Addiction :-12-13 year (PMO almost daily)

First No PMO Journey started on April 2019 1st week ,Went for 1 week OK without any P but started edging with fantasy  on full week.
After first week I went to flatline and got depression etc.Tested my D*** with Porn to see nothing is broken ,but my surprise in flatline and heavily depression my D**** stand and did M and O thrice on same day got O in 1 min only.This testing continue 2-3 days until i searched in google to find the possible withdrawal.Got another encouragement to do NO PMO.

Started  second journey on NO PMO on 29 April 2019 and went to flatline from day 1. From day 1 to day 25 ,it was like hell of journey ,heavy depression ,suicidal thought ,anxiety etc.I got W dream on day 15 with no to half erection .Day 20-25 were the worst. Slightly got out from the flatline with urges .I remembered i woke up in the middle of night and took cold shower multiple time to get rid off urges.
On days 28 again went to flatline worst than previous one, got W dream on days 30 0r 32 with no to half erection.
Days 39-43 again worst days on the journey heavy mood swing etc.
on days 45 -48 went slightly out from flatline and on days 45 got third W dream with same condition.Days 50 went third flatline with numb emotion and no to little D**** response.  days 58 fourth W dream in the journey.
 days 60 -65 are the heavy mood swing ,which got little stable in days 68-69.
Days 70 got first morning wood ,which stay for a min got little hope ,days 71 mood got stable but still in faltline with almost zero libido.but D**** is giving me some response with little hand touch in shower with no fantasy just touch.

Today is 72 days in NO PMO ,mood stable got little D**** response by thinking about my girl but avoided easily.

Will post tomorrow with another days.   
« Last Edit: July 10, 2019, 04:13:07 AM by rohan1989 »

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Re: Rohan's Journal
« Reply #1 on: July 11, 2019, 02:20:05 AM »
Days 73,

Get little bit erection on morning ,after that numb feeling ,still feeling flatline but it seems my mind is getting used to this.other than zero libido mind are stable no depression or anything.hoping to get out from flatline soon.

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Re: Rohan's Journal
« Reply #2 on: July 11, 2019, 07:43:27 PM »
Day74
ohh guys again W dream and don't know what is happening.
And also realising how fucked up my mind is due to porn.This dream scar a shit out of me.I remembered this dream watching porn in dream and than got W dream.
Seriously i don't know how many months it's gonna take to heal.