no woman would want me with this addiction..and I think im too ugly anyways :(

Ok, so i never watched porn a lot til i was about 14 when i got a new tablet I stumbled across it some
how and I have watched on pornhub quite a bit maybe 2-3 times a day max sometimes not sometimes not at all but majority at least once im 19 now and had no idea about the consequences of my sex life while watching! If i knew the consequences i never would have! I thought its just videos no harm no foul! Now when i orgasm my ejaculation is less depending how many times i watch a day and sometimes doesn't come out if i have done it a lot it gets stuck in my penis even when i reach orgasm! But i have tried to quit multiple times and masturbation included im still trying but I relapse cause i get horny asf and can't handle it i don't think its so much the videos but the horniess is unbearable. It breaks my heart and makes me feel guilty i can't possibly please a girl because thats all i want to do. Im sure its just a matter a time before she would leave me. im trying my best to make an effort because i would love a girl more than anything in this world and I would give up porn for her any day forever! It really does bring tears to my eyes knowing how disappointing I would be to her. She wouldn't ask for it and she deserves much better than me. She would probably resent her love completely or will start falling out of love with me. i'm embarrassed ashamed as a man that I can't please her cause a man is suppose to make his woman happy and i can't do that do i even deserve her at all? Is my sex life messed up forever and i can never be fixed and im broken? and no im not doing viagra cause i have heard that it still don't help men with porn induced erectile dysfunction but i mean I don't know at the same time if i should? Im scared to death about a relationship with a girl!

The silver lining here is that some guys have to crawl their way back from a porn addiction while in a relationship.  They have to deal with the hurt, lying and tragedy of that whole thing.  Those of us who can do it whilst single can really prepare ourselves to be great men.  That is how I did it, and after reading a bunch of testimonials here, I think I had it the easier way.  It always seemed like the grass was greener on the other side, and if only I had a woman (and a physical outlet) it would be easier, but I've seen nothing on these boards to convince me that is the case.  You're plenty young enough that you can get out of this and get everything back on track.

This stuff comes one day at a time.  At your stage, where relapses are very frequent, the best thing you can do is try to let each relapse teach you something.  What was the trigger?  What was before the trigger?  What is out there making you crave porn that you can work around?  If quitting for good isn't within your power now, can you do little one day sacrifices occasionally?  Two day?  Three day?  A week? 

If you've been watching porn since 14, be prepared for your views on sex and sexuality to be radically changed as you wean off of porn.  It isn't what porn tells us, and some of the guys who struggle the hardest are the ones who think real sex looks like porn while still trying to move towards sex and away from porn... it becomes an impossibility because it is just nonsense.

Hi,
Yes it seems quite clear that porn has fucked up your perception of things. But its important not to jump on the pity wagon, because these feelings may even serve as a trigger to more fapping. Its a viscious cycle, negativity and addiction feeding off of each other.
But youre in luck! Youve now found the cure. Do a reboot, and do it with all your heart and the world will gradually get brighter. Set little goals like a 10 day goal or whatever, then increase it. Youll start to see some good results soon.