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« Reply #875 on: September 27, 2019, 08:08:31 AM »
A lot of wise thinking here. Learning a new attitude towards suffering and developing new strategies for living with it will go a long way in helping your recovery. That doesn't mean giving up in the face of suffering, but instead accepting it and pressing on to better things rather than just trying to escape from it all.

Keep going and keep up the deep thinking!

Thanks, man. That's right.

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« Reply #876 on: September 27, 2019, 08:10:32 AM »
Day 3

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« Reply #877 on: September 27, 2019, 08:35:46 AM »
Lero how you handled your urges after relapse. i am relapsed today. so i am at day 0 today. i decided and followed nofap whole day but i relapsed at evening.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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« Reply #878 on: September 27, 2019, 10:03:41 AM »
Lero how you handled your urges after relapse. i am relapsed today. so i am at day 0 today. i decided and followed nofap whole day but i relapsed at evening.

I don't search for porn.

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« Reply #879 on: September 27, 2019, 12:00:33 PM »
Ok . thanks for help.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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« Reply #880 on: September 27, 2019, 05:03:39 PM »
stopping drinking is like stopping watching porn
its all or nothing

I stopped drinking and it was a really good descision for me
havent drinked since july 2018




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« Reply #881 on: September 28, 2019, 03:41:22 AM »
stopping drinking is like stopping watching porn
its all or nothing

I stopped drinking and it was a really good descision for me
havent drinked since july 2018

I guess so.

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« Reply #882 on: September 28, 2019, 03:42:25 AM »
Day 4

I'm changing my job next Tuesday which will make me work in the city. There will be more opportunities to do some things for my life. I'll try to tweak the recovery plan and make it better.

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« Reply #883 on: September 28, 2019, 04:01:21 AM »
nice

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« Reply #884 on: September 28, 2019, 05:53:59 AM »
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« Reply #885 on: September 28, 2019, 06:30:40 AM »
Day 4

I'm changing my job next Tuesday which will make me work in the city. There will be more opportunities to do some things for my life. I'll try to tweak the recovery plan and make it better.
Good
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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« Reply #886 on: September 28, 2019, 12:52:42 PM »
I've said this before but I really need some streak these days. I can't be a zombie at this new job. I need to feel some energy and mood. PMO won't give me none of those. Fuck P. Tuesday will be day 7. Things should start feeling a little better by then. I'm dealing with some anxiety for changing jobs. New environment, new faces.

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« Reply #887 on: September 28, 2019, 05:51:47 PM »
Congrats on the job switch! All the anxiety that comes with it is very normal and to be expected. What are you doing to take care of yourself? Sometimes, I feel like I just have to tough it out and do all the normal things while feeling anxious and miserable, but that's a recipe for relapse. Don't forget to take some time to slow down and let some of that anxiety out so that it doesn't turn into urges.

Keep it up!

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« Reply #888 on: September 28, 2019, 09:34:46 PM »
Congratulations. a new environment also help you to reboot. Because you are busy in adjusting yourself. Meeting with new peoples etc etc.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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« Reply #889 on: September 29, 2019, 04:22:36 AM »
Day 5

I reached the first checkpoint.

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« Reply #890 on: September 29, 2019, 05:39:13 AM »
Congratulations, Lero, now build up on this good start and complete the first week!  :)

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« Reply #891 on: September 29, 2019, 07:11:28 AM »
Congratulations . it tales so much mind power you have. Its very difficult to rebuilt the self confidence when you relapse.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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« Reply #892 on: September 30, 2019, 04:51:38 AM »
Congratulations . it tales so much mind power you have. Its very difficult to rebuilt the self confidence when you relapse.

Thanks, man. Good luck.

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« Reply #893 on: September 30, 2019, 05:03:57 AM »
Day 6

I had to wake up early and I was really tired for a few hours but around 10 AM I started to see more clearly. Tomorrow, I will wake up early again. I have to deliver the papers and be hired at this new job then go to their doctor for medical tests.

Urges are not present at all. I don't feel energized and I'm dealing with some anxiety. I think I need at least one more week to feel more energy and less anxiety. I haven't drunk in a week and I don't plan to but I have moments when my mind wonders to "Man, let's have some fun!" I don't need any obstacles right now, this job is important to me. I've been waiting for it for 3 freaking years and before that I invested a lot of energy in getting it. I cannot sabotage myself with drinking and PMO binges. I don't need to be a zombie. I made the mistake to PMO last Tuesday and on the same day I found out I was going to be hired. It sucks, man. I need at least 2 weeks to be in a better state of mind for such things. Shit. But anyway, at least I will have 1 week, it could've been worse, it could've been just 1 day. I guess that's how my mind works. It's also a psychological thing when I reach "that number of days". I automatically start feeling better.

One last thing I want to say: P is the opposite of living. You cannot be at your maximum potential and invested in P at the same time. You have to choose one. I choose life. I choose this job, I choose the attempt to make some friends, I choose some hobbies that I want to start. P is like a stone that is tied to your leg when you walk. 

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« Reply #894 on: September 30, 2019, 05:18:41 AM »
All the best for your new job!
ten months clean and counting...

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« Reply #895 on: September 30, 2019, 05:58:23 AM »
All the best for your new job!

Thank you.

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« Reply #896 on: September 30, 2019, 09:29:23 AM »
Nice work on the job Lero.  Focus on the positive, prepare well for your new work responsibilities and you'll do great.  You're right, what you do or don't do while off the job affects how you perform on the job.

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« Reply #897 on: September 30, 2019, 10:16:16 AM »
Nice work on the job Lero.  Focus on the positive, prepare well for your new work responsibilities and you'll do great.  You're right, what you do or don't do while off the job affects how you perform on the job.

Yes, definitely. Thank you.

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« Reply #898 on: September 30, 2019, 10:38:25 AM »
Congrats Lero. Good news man!
Time to see things in different way.

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« Reply #899 on: October 01, 2019, 07:14:04 AM »
Congrats Lero. Good news man!
Time to see things in different way.

Definitely, man. Things should start moving. I gotta work on my life.