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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #25 on: April 02, 2019, 08:44:19 AM »
Day 2
Today i did:
10 min Meditation
I am busy in interacting with people whole day.
Keeping myself busy.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #26 on: April 03, 2019, 02:14:39 AM »
Day 3
Having headache from morning.
Yesterday night i have strong urges but i not relapsed because of slow Internet. Thanks god
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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #27 on: April 03, 2019, 02:09:01 PM »
Relapsed
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #28 on: April 03, 2019, 11:44:22 PM »
4 April 2019
first day of new reboot. yesterday night i watched the porn because of headache . i know porn is not an solution to this but i relapsed.
so from today i begin it .
at this stage all thinks that reboot is impossible. but i need to see towards successful rebooters who did it.
now i am focusing on day1.
myplan :
4 april - Day 1
8 april- Day 5
13 april - Day 10

changes in my daily routine to make reboot possible.
wakeup at 5 am.
do daily exercise.
keeping myself busy whole day.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #29 on: April 04, 2019, 06:26:27 AM »
I am completed day 1 successfully. Now going to take all things back that i missed because of porn addiction.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #30 on: April 04, 2019, 06:38:02 AM »
Looking forward to hearing about day 2 tomorrow-press on friend.

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #31 on: April 04, 2019, 11:04:13 PM »
Thanks jixu.
I am at Day 2
Today i woke up at 5 am and did exercise . after that i did my study. Because my exams are near. So now wishing for a good success.
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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #32 on: April 06, 2019, 01:45:26 AM »
2 day's completed and now at 3rd day.
Day 3
Did meditation today. Meditation makes my mind cool.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #33 on: April 07, 2019, 12:00:09 AM »
3 days completed.
Day 4
Wet dream today. I know this is withdrawal symptom. I am going to be focused only on reboot. Not afraid of urges.
Now i know my triggers well and my performance till now in this reboot is very well. Now i am going to hit a new record of day 5 tomorrow .
« Last Edit: April 07, 2019, 07:20:23 AM by Do or die »
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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #34 on: April 07, 2019, 04:49:46 AM »
Be strong man!
When you reach the end of your rope, tie a knot in it and hang on.

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #35 on: April 07, 2019, 07:10:38 AM »
Be strong man!
Yes. Now i am strong and know all my weaknesses.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #36 on: April 07, 2019, 10:08:30 PM »
My 5 days goal is completed.

Day 5
Wet dream today. Two wet dreams in two days. Because of leaving this addiction i have porn dreams. And because of it there are wet dreams. I need to change my porn included thinking also. I need to be powerful.
« Last Edit: April 07, 2019, 10:17:11 PM by Do or die »
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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #37 on: April 08, 2019, 01:32:48 PM »
Wet dream leads to relapse in my case .i have two wet dreams in a row because of it i don't controlled my self andi am relapsed.
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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #38 on: April 08, 2019, 02:11:56 PM »
Today i relapsed three times very baldly. I never relapsed like this.
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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #39 on: April 08, 2019, 02:38:30 PM »
I remembered one thing i prepared for exams one month and at the day of exam i has a wet dream. And because of that i tired whole day. You need not only to be strong in mind but strong body also needs in reboot.
My 90 days challenge  plan from today:

Day 1 @12 April
Do rest today. Because the body is recovering itself from three relapse.

 Day 2 @13 April
Wakeup at 5:00 am daily morning. Because this avoid nightfalls.
Do exercise. And start work.



Day 3 @14 April  to Day 10 @ 21April
Wakeup at 5 am regularly. Don't miss any day. Till reaching day 10.

Day 11 at 22 April to
 Day 20 at 1may
Wake up early at 5 am. Don't miss any day. Now at main face of reboot. Tricky urges are their. Be careful about it.

Day 21 at 29 April to
Day 30 @ 7 May
30 days target is completed successfully.

Day 60 at 7 June
Successfully recovered whole body and rebooted partially. I write my journal when reach this goal.

Day 90 at 7 July
Challenge completed. Don't stop here start a new challenge of 180 days.

Day 120 at 7 August 2019
Near to achieve goal

Day 150 at 7 September
30 days remained to complete 180,

Day 180 at 7 October
« Last Edit: April 11, 2019, 02:06:56 PM by Do or die »
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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #40 on: April 10, 2019, 12:48:00 AM »
Day 2 at 10 april
Completed first day. And now i am going to complete this day also. As planned i wake up at 5 am today. Did exercise .
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #41 on: April 10, 2019, 08:01:26 AM »
I read all of your journal. You are a very determined man.
You fell many times BUT you want to get back up and that is admirable. Like someone very wise said: "Fall 100 times and get up 101". Nothing is impossible man be strong!

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #42 on: April 10, 2019, 10:16:44 PM »
I read all of your journal. You are a very determined man.
You fell many times BUT you want to get back up and that is admirable. Like someone very wise said: "Fall 100 times and get up 101". Nothing is impossible man be strong!
Thanks for motivation
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #43 on: April 10, 2019, 10:19:03 PM »
Day 3 at 11 april
Completed 2 days as planned schedule.
Now the second phase of plan started. I need to complete 10 days now.
I did exercise today. Started study for exams. Concentration problems are there.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #44 on: April 11, 2019, 01:49:57 PM »
Relapsed. Whole plan is failed.
Started that plan again.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #45 on: April 11, 2019, 01:59:11 PM »
Its really confusion for me why i am relapsing so much. When i know everything
In what basis i start it again.
When i know all bad effects i relapsing like a shit.
I am not like this before. I am now last trying to reboot well.
Day 1 at 12 th april
Did rest all day.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #46 on: April 13, 2019, 09:46:40 AM »
Day 2
Did rest whole day. I am thinking that i am being angry at every relapse. I need some period of time to recover. I am now thinking that meditation helping me to be strong towards my goals.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #47 on: April 15, 2019, 04:39:37 AM »
Day 4 at 15th april
Doing meditation on how to control myself from getting relapsed. My performance is so poor in past.

Being the person who you lost because of this addiction. Very difficult to concentrate in daily activities . i am so lucky that i know how to recover.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #48 on: April 15, 2019, 04:42:44 AM »
Plan from today..
Wakeup at 5 am daily.
 Do meditation daily.
Its not about stopping. Its about to accept that you are stopped it.

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Re: Many times i relapsed but again started.
« Reply #49 on: April 17, 2019, 02:59:46 PM »
Day 1 at april18
Yesterday i relapsed   :-[today also relapsed
Today day 0
Making relapse prevention techniques:
1. Know the thing that you are relapse if you respond urge in any case.
2. Know that you are not able to sleep at night in first 10 day's of reboot.
3. Learn to avoid the unnecessary decision to see porn.
4. There is no first time and last time in an addiction. The addiction make harm everytime.

5. Concentrate on reboot rather than past relapse.

6. Get control on yourself by using meditation as a tool.
« Last Edit: April 18, 2019, 09:36:32 AM by Do or die »
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