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Re: Uk65tantra
« Reply #125 on: August 13, 2019, 08:32:44 PM »
Way to go cranm! Stay diligent. I too woke up early with the same experience and thoughts. Keep going....we can do this!

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« Reply #126 on: August 19, 2019, 10:50:00 AM »
3 weeks clean
Emotional flatline with irritability. This third reboot feels different to others. Really no interest in anything s.....l outside marriage.

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« Reply #127 on: August 19, 2019, 02:28:10 PM »
Keep going cranm! I can relate to the irritability. In my case it’s just part of my brain wanting a fix. We just need to ride it out and keep the main goal in mind.

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Re: Uk65tantra
« Reply #128 on: August 30, 2019, 10:55:58 AM »
One month in:
Dead to old way of thinking and believing. Have denied,  given up and destroyed the monster from the Id*.  Absolutely no interest in porn (the monster) because it can no longer feed on negative emotions.
*Forbidden Planet 1950s movie.
« Last Edit: August 30, 2019, 11:00:38 AM by cranm329 »

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Re: Uk65tantra
« Reply #129 on: August 31, 2019, 10:49:10 AM »
one month is excellent!!!!! awesome!!!

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« Reply #130 on: September 10, 2019, 02:31:02 PM »
6 weeks no PM
Getting used to being dead to P. Almost enjoying the freedom to live without addictive behaviour.

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Re: Uk65tantra
« Reply #131 on: September 13, 2019, 11:13:21 AM »
If you can continue to avoid and prevent negative emotions, you really have achieved something to be cherished. Wishing you a great weekend.

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Re: Uk65tantra
« Reply #132 on: September 16, 2019, 12:18:16 PM »
Thanks WiPUK. Hope you've had a good one too

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« Reply #133 on: September 16, 2019, 12:24:05 PM »
7 weeks clean.
Potential trigger today on daytime TV....nothing. Could have been watching Mickey Mouse. Continuing moment by moment assertion of my monster's death. For me, it is working. Must not be tricked by memories and mental programming.

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« Reply #134 on: September 16, 2019, 05:03:14 PM »
i always admire your clarity of focus.

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« Reply #135 on: October 03, 2019, 07:57:23 PM »
2 months porn free.
Losing sight of the old ways and the smoking remnants of the dead monster. Still bad memories but mindfulness and living in the now deals with them. PIED gone, in fact so much so that it becomes intense and overwhelming at times. Not complaining. Amazing what the free mid 60s body can do.

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« Reply #136 on: October 14, 2019, 08:55:40 PM »
10 weeks or thereabouts. No P. Some gentle M at night. O only with marital sex. I have disconnected ('killed') the addiction (' monster') from my conscious life. Therefore only the memories remain. It is now a matter of will not emotion. What used to be triggering now has no interest or charm. I see sex and my involvement in it in a clear, unpolluted way. No more inferiority based envy. No more narcissism and selfishness. The way is open to unending freedom.