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Re: Shemale Addiction
« Reply #75 on: April 15, 2019, 09:28:45 PM »
Day 54:

Had another wet dream last night and it felt good but hurt a little a the same time
Both this dream and the last I can't remember what the dream was about exactly but I know it was porn
And most likely shemale related

I woke up and cleaned up a bit, my shirt and sheets got hit
I went back to sleep and I was still horny but managed not to jack off
When I woke up I was still horny and decided to empty my ballsack
I didn't fantasize about anything I just busted without thinking

Some of you might think this is a relapse and see this as a failure but not jacking off is not the main goal for me here
Quitting porn forever is
I don't wanna bust all over myself every 4 days..
Wet dreams don't seem to clean my balls properly so I will do the maintenance of my sack once a month maybe more if necessary but will keep it to a minimum



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Re: Shemale Addiction
« Reply #76 on: April 18, 2019, 09:05:15 PM »
Day 57:

Shit fucking day
I'm pissed and I wanna strangle someone
I'd like to strangle my boss with a mirror in front of me so I can watch his face while I choke the life outta him
Fucking cunt
I quit today so I'll never see him again

My little brother and his bitch ass girlfriend too can suck my fucking dick
I'm leaving town on Monday so I'll never see them again too
Good fucking thing
I'm getting the fuck outttttt yeaaaaaaaah booiiii
 








Other than that the reboot is doing pretty good

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Re: Shemale Addiction
« Reply #77 on: May 16, 2019, 08:15:17 PM »
Day 85:

I live in Alberta now, I just got internet
I don't like how I left things
Sometimes I just feel like deleting angry posts cause its just bad vibes and no one wants that
I never re-read what I write after I post it

But its part of the journey my friends
The reboot ain't smooth sailing for anyone I think

I think my body is more fucked than I realized and its gunna take awhile to reboot but its okay
I don't think about what I'm doing as a reboot or challenge anymore but a new way of living
I'm doing an experience of jacking once a week without porn and so far I don't know if its good or bad
Once I'm comfortable not jacking of a week then I'm gunna do it every 8 days, then 9 days etc...

It feels good to be back on here I got some things I needed to write about


The change of environment has done some good to me and I recommend moving somewhere to anyone who feels stuck in their life



The girls at my job are all either fat or ugly which kinda sucks but I have low libido anyway so fuck me
I'm feeling kinda depressed these days and don't feel like talking to girl anyway


I will try to keep the vibes of this blog positive or neutral at least and will try to vent my anger somewhere else in the future.

Feel free to let me know how your reboot is doing or what kind of reboot you're doing
Thanks for reading

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Re: Shemale Addiction
« Reply #78 on: May 17, 2019, 06:48:30 PM »
Day 86:

The success rate of nofap is very low
Stopping jerking off and porn at the same time when like me you've been doing it for more than 15 years is almost impossible
Its like quitting smoking and going on a diet at the same time
Very fucking harddd

That's why I'm trying a new approach right now

I haven't had an urge to watch porn since I stopped cause now I know its bad
I used to believe it was bad and stop believing and came back to porn but now I KNOW

For most people 90 days will not cut it
You will just go back to your old habits and it will all be for nothing
I think for me its going to take at least a couple of years to get back to normal cause I've watched so much fucked up shit



Right now I don't got much motivation to stopping jacking off though
I know it would be best but I don't see the point
I'm depressed and fucked up and don't feel like talking to girls at all
Not to anyone actually

I thought moving was gunna make me feel better but I was wrong
I don't know what can fix my mind anymore, seems like I've tried everything
Now I'm just somewhere nicer but still got a shitty jobs with some cunt ass bosses
Maybe in time I'll feel better, probably not though

If not I'll just move places till I find something I like doing or a girl I like
I just don't wanna die a fucking virgin it would be sad



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Re: Shemale Addiction
« Reply #79 on: May 19, 2019, 09:14:29 PM »
Day 88:

Got fired from my job yesterday
The job gave me a place to stay so I'm gunna be homeless in 2 days
People there were fucking asshole I'm glad to get the fuck out tbh
Gunna head towards the west in search of a new job, and south to the states if I don't find one

This should keep me busy and away from jacking off for a bit so that's a good thing

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Re: Shemale Addiction
« Reply #80 on: May 20, 2019, 07:57:06 AM »
Sorry to hear you are in a tough situation. Best of luck. Hope you are alright.

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Re: Shemale Addiction
« Reply #81 on: May 26, 2019, 05:30:36 PM »
Well, best of luck to you man. Life is not always easy, but at least you are trying and going for it! Abraham Lincoln went through many nervous breakdowns and total failures in life and then we all know what he became. Perhaps you can overcome this stuff and make something great of yourself in the future too!

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Re: Shemale Addiction
« Reply #82 on: June 16, 2019, 04:33:54 PM »
Day 115?:

Found a painting job in Vancouver
Been living in my car for a month now and I'm used to it
I'm jacking off less than once a week now so I'm making progress

I find that pretty much all the women in Vancouver are ugly so when I see a girl that's barely attractive I find her really attractive
I think being around ugly women is good for the reboot

I got like 4000 bucks to spend on car repairs so I might need a better paying job soon
I wanna stack enough money to go to south to the states when its start to get cold

Other than that I'm gunna start to get serious about trying to date women and see how it goes
I'm so clueless when it comes to women its a shame
I mean I wanna put in the work but when I talk to women it just sounds so unnatural and fake I don't know how to fix that
If you guys got any tips on dating and shit, feel free to share

Quitforever thanks and yes I believe every challenge makes you stronger and I'm trying to be the stronger motherfucker I can!



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Re: Shemale Addiction
« Reply #83 on: June 18, 2019, 11:55:54 AM »
Hey mate
Glad things are looking up
Yeah surely if you talk to more women go on dates it will help you to improve in this area. I'm pretty hopeless too, but all we can do is try to learn and be brave... I think.
All the best

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Re: Shemale Addiction
« Reply #84 on: July 03, 2019, 10:16:15 PM »
Day 133:

Job got boring, I'm sexually frustrated alot and can't think about anything else than women
I just want a small girl I can hold and give affection to
Its not even just about sex

Sometimes I see cute 10-12 yrs old girl and I just wanna hold and kiss them
But I try not to look at those girls too long so people don't think I am a pedo

I'm getting so bored of the job I can't work anymore so I'm quitting
I'm getting more sad and depressed as the time goes by and I need to get back on the road and head south.
 I don't know if I feel lonely cause I don't know what its supposed to feel like tbh

I've downloaded 6 dating apps and they're all set up but I don't got much hope of finding someone on there right now
I'll probably start using them when I'm back home cause its a waste of time and data and I'm travelling to much to find anything else than a quick fuck

I'm kinda tired and bored of my situation
but I'm sure travelling will make it less shitty


Other than that I'm jacking off not that much still but creating profiles. on swiping bitches on tinder made jack off 2 days in a row

Still haven't looked at porn but I've been on craigslist looking for sexy ads one day and saw a lesbian ad with a picture of her hairy pussy and got really horny

A good thing right now is I think I'm pretty much rebooted
My attraction to women is high
I get boners alot when I go to the beach

Alright alright alright,
I think I've said enough
I'll update the situation every 2 weeks or so
Hope you guys are doing well in your reboot and in your life
Don't kill yourself, and keep porn off your mind 

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Re: Shemale Addiction
« Reply #85 on: July 09, 2019, 06:59:18 PM »
Day 139:

I can't believe its been only 6 days since my last post
I quit my job and now I'm in kelowna and jobless
I made accounts on like 8 different dating sites and on adulfriend finder
I've been jacking off everyday since a few days ago

Browsing those website is like porn and Im so horny all the time
Ive messaged some trannies and i wanna fuck them

I dont give a fuck theyre dudes anymore
I just wanna fuckkk
I need sex and im bored and lonely

Ive not actually watched porn but used those site as porn
my counter is now at 0
I'm about to get a tranny escort if I dont meet anyone really soon


Re: Shemale Addiction
« Reply #86 on: July 11, 2019, 06:14:21 AM »
You are talented and strong and capable, but that doesn't mean you can't get hurt or tired. Take care of yourself and your needs   :)
Stay gold my friend

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Re: Shemale Addiction
« Reply #87 on: July 16, 2019, 10:30:00 PM »
Day 1:

I said if I watched porn I would reset the counter
I googled a picture of a shemale and jerked off
I needed so little for me to jerk of so thats a good sign
I'm not even mad I dont give a shit tbh

Too many people are too obsessed with the numbers
but this is about much more than that

Had a pretty shitty week this week
heres some stuff that happened:

locked my keys in my own car
got caught in a ditch at 1 am
got a 742$ speeding ticket
spent 7 hours at the border and got banned from the states
Officially relapsed

Whats funny and not funny is that the officers at the border watched all of the videos of me jerking off that I sent to some trannies I met on grindr...
and theres one where I say I may try to find work in the states so now its in the official interview, written filmed. and everything and I was kinda ashamed about that...

Anyway now I'm 3000 bucks in debt so I gotta make money.
Also I'm gunna try really hard to find a girl

I'm not sure if I wanna fuck a tranny but I may get a tranny escort to make sure im not missing on anything in life and its betted to try it while I dont have a girlfriend

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Re: Shemale Addiction
« Reply #88 on: July 16, 2019, 10:31:11 PM »
Also thank you thank you for the kind words